Tears Of A Broken Heart

As Blitzø and Loona made it back home, Blitzø watched as Loona just slumped onto the couch with her head buried into the pillow.

Blitzø: Loonie? Are you okay?

Loona: *muffled* Do I fucking look okay?

Blitzø: W-Well, you crashing onto the couch isn't something you normally do.

Loona: ... No shit, Sherlock.

Blitzø: Hey, come on. Tell me what's wrong.

Loona: You already know the fucking answer, so stop pestering me about it!

Blitzø: Loonie, please, calm down! Tell me why you're acting like this.

Loona: ... *clenches fists* Why did you adopt me?

Blitzø: What?

Loona: Why the hell did you adopt someone as destructive and selfish as me?

Blitzø: Loonie, don't insult yourself that way. That's not true.

Loona: ANSWER THE FUCKING QUESTION, BLITZØ!!! Why did you adopt me?!

Blitzø: ... Because out of everyone in that orphanage, you stood out the most. You carried the most painful experiences and you never got the life you wanted.

Loona: *scoffs* I never got the life I wanted. You know what, Blitzø? You don't know a goddamn thing about me! Just because you adopted me doesn't mean that I have to call you my Dad just because you got me out of the orphanage!

Blitzø: Loonie, stop it! Where is this angst coming from?

Loona: I just lost the one person I love, Blitzø! The one person that treated me like a friend and not a worthless piece of shit like everyone else did in this goddamn hellhole! The one person that saw through me and stood by my side, no matter what! And I nearly lost you!

Blitzø: But, you didn't! You chose to make things right between us because deep down, you care!

Loona: Well, that costed me my friendship with N/N!

Blitzø: Loonie, those people weren't innocent! Not everyone is what they seem! Y/N needs to understand that life isn't fair otherwise he's-

Loona: He's what, Blitzø?! He's what?!

Blitzø: ... Otherwise, he's not fit to be a part of a dog-eat-dog world!

Loona: ...

Blitzø: I'm sorry, Loonie, but it's the truth! And until Y/N understands that, he needs to take a goddamn step back and navigate the environment around him because not everything is sunshine and rainbows!

Loona: That may be true, but he grew up in a peaceful life with happy parents and a happy neighborhood!

Blitzø: And that's why Y/N walked away! Because he's fragile and he doesn't understand! Don't you get it, Loonie?! It's not your fault!

Loona: YES, IT IS, BLITZØ!!! I made a promise to him and I broke it because of you!

Blitzø: Me? Why me?

Loona: It was all your fault ever since you made the bet with your... bitch-ass ex!

Blitzø: Loonie, I already told you! Based on what our clients told us, the people we killed weren't innocent! And Y/N was tricked into believing they were! If anything, he was hurting himself, believing that everything would be good!

Loona: Then, tell me why! Why did someone so kind-hearted, pure, innocent, and righteous as Y/N ended up in Hell?! All because he killed the bastards that offed his parents?!

Blitzø: Loonie, reality is a bitch. It's not nice to us all the time.

Loona: Maybe that explains why I ended up in the orphanage and got stuck with you! Because reality hates me!

Blitzø: That's not true! Your parents may not have wanted you, Loonie, but if there's one thing I learned from N/N, it's that someone who doesn't care about what others think or feel is scum! I chose to adopt you because I didn't want you to suffer, anymore! You were on the verge of reaching adulthood, Loonie! I couldn't bear the thought of you being stranded out in the streets!

Loona: ...

Blitzø: Loonie, please, try to understand how I feel about you.

Loona: How am I supposed to when you keep treating me like a fucking child?! I'm goddamn 22 years old! I can fend for myself!

Blitzø: Even if that's true, you can't fight everything by yourself.

Loona: That's exactly what I've been doing through my years in the orphanage! For all of my life, I've been used, mistreated, rejected, abused, and neglected by everyone in this shit hole! *starts crying* It was so painful that... I wanted to fucking kill myself and end the torture that reality gave me!

Blitzø: ...

Loona: *crying* ... My whole life, I was a selfish bitch. I never cared about anybody but me and my self-interest. I was destructive. And yet, you... No matter what I did to you and the others, no matter how shitty I've made your lives, you still chose to keep me under your roof! All I did was insult you and shun you away! Don't you get it, Blitzø?! I'M A MONSTER!!! A DEMON THAT WAS BORN TO RUIN PEOPLE'S LIVES!!!

Blitzø: Loonie, stop it! You can't say those things to yourself!

Loona: *crying* And why not?! It's the truth, Blitzø! You saw how I was out there! I insulted you and shunned you away! If anything, I should be dead and not be a fucking bother to anybody!

Blitzø: Hey, I will not sit idly by and watch you beat yourself up over something completely stupid! You're not like that! You weren't like that when you invited N/N to our home. Or when you invited him to hang out with you. You wanted to be with him! Why?

Loona: *wipes tears away & sniffles* Because I love him! For the first time in my long, hopeless, and pathetic life, I... I finally found a way out of this loophole that continues to haunt me to this day. I finally found the light that was shining upon me. And the light... turned out to be N/N... And I hurt him... *starts crying again* It's all my fault...

Blitzø: Stop beating yourself up over this! It's not your fault! You're not worthless or pathetic!

Loona: *crying* And how would you know?! Blitzø, how would you know?! Tell me how!

Blitzø: BECAUSE I WAS IN THE SAME SHOES AS YOU ONCE!!! Ever since I lost my family. Don't you get it, Loonie? You're my family, now! You mean more to me than anything in this shit hole. I'm sorry that things didn't turn out well for you, but it doesn't have to be that way, anymore! Not as long as I'm around.

Loona: ... *pushes Blitzø away* Well, you can stop wasting your sympathy on a monster. I'm irredeemable, Blitzø. I can't do anything right. I just ruin people's lives and destroy their relationships. Just like how I did it between me and N/N. You're just wasting your time on me, Blitzø. So, you can stop it.

Blitzø: Loonie-

Loona: *snarls* STOP CALLING ME THAT!!! MY NAME IS LOONA!!! GET IT THROUGH YOUR FUCKING SKULL, BLITZO!!!

Blitzø stood there, horrified, as he looked at Loona in the eyes. She was completely fueled with rage and sorrow. She isn't like how she was before. It's as if she's become a different person. Just like Y/N. Loona realized what she said and looked away as she continued to cry.

Loona: *crying* ... Fuck... I ruined this, too... Just... leave me alone, Blitzø. Please... *walks away*

Blitzø: Loonie, please, wait for a moment!

He grabbed Loona's hand, but...

Loona: LEAVE!!!

Loona snarled as she recoiled and smacked Blitzø in the face, which sent him crashing against the wall, completely shattering a few pictures. Loona gasped and looked at Blitzø as he bled a bit and groaned in pain. She looked at her hands and began to feel scared as she continued to cry and back away from him.

Loona: *crying* N-No... What have I done...?

She couldn't bring herself to say anything else. Not even an apology. Consumed by grief and misery, Loona ran to her room and completely sealed the door shut. Blitzø watched as he held his face in pain. He stood up and walked to the door.

Blitzø: Loonie? Loonie, please, don't do this to yourself. Don't shut me out. Not again. Please. Loonie?

He waited for a response, but nothing. Completely nothing. He then sighed as he turned around and crashed onto the couch.

As he crawled up to the couch pillow he pulled out his phone and looked over the photos he saved in the past.

As he kept scrolling through the photos of his past life, one photo caught his eye.

Blitzø: ...

He continued to stare at the photo and the flashback began to replay in his head. It was too much for him to bear as he started to shed tears.

Blitzø: *starts crying* ... What the fuck am I supposed to do now?

He then continued to cry as he hugged his pillow.

Meanwhile, inside Loona's bedroom, Loona was seen in her old uniform that she wore when she was in the orphanage. She walked away from the closet and sat down on her bed. She then turned her attention to the photo of her and Y/N laughing and smiling as they were hanging out with each other. Unfortunately, as she stared at it, she continued to feel her heart ache to the point where she growled angrily and yelled as she threw the photograph against the wall and shattered it. She then backed away from the edge of her bed and wrapped her arms around her legs as she hugged herself.

As she continued to hug herself, she thought back then to when she was with Y/N on the rooftop.

(Flashback)

Y/N: Hey, Loona.

Loona's ears twitched and she turned around.

Loona: Y/N!

She got up and ran over to him. She wrapped him in a tight hug and Y/N chuckled.

Y/N: Hehehehe. *hugs Loona* It's good to see that you're alright.

Loona: I should be saying the same thing to you. Are you okay?

Y/N: Yeah. I'm alright. Still a little sore, but I'll manage.

Loona: Okay.

They both then let go of each other, but Loona punched Y/N in the arm and he exclaimed in pain.

Y/N: Ow!

Loona: Don't fucking scare me like that again, okay?! I nearly had a heart attack!

Y/N: Loona...

Loona: I thought I was going to lose you... But, I made sure to take good care of you.

Y/N: I know. Everyone told me.

Loona: They did? Grr!

Y/N: Hey, lighten up, Loona. They aren't used to seeing you like this. Especially me.

Loona: Maybe so, but still!

Y/N chuckled and patted Loona's shoulder.

Y/N: ... Hey, thanks for saving my life. I really lost control back there. And I'm sorry.

Loona: It's alright, N/N. As long as you're back home and safe, that's all that matters.

Y/N: Back home...

Loona: ... I know about M/N's death. Everyone does. I'm sorry for your loss.

Y/N: *sighs* It's gonna take some time getting over it, but I'll recover from it. Eventually...

They both then walked over to the edge of the building and looked at the view.

Y/N: ...

Loona: ... Listen, N/N, I understand that you're against us for murdering people, but-

Y/N: It's alright.

Loona: What?

Y/N: *looks at Loona* It's alright. I'm not against you guys.

Loona: Really? But... You flipped out when Blitzø...

Y/N: Look, my mind wasn't in a good place and even though it would hurt me, I needed a confirmation.

Loona: And now...?

Y/N: *smiles* I've decided that from here on out, I'm going to do what I can to help keep this place up and running! Even if it means I have to drop some bodies and decapitate heads.

Loona: Really?

Y/N: Yeah. But, only if you promise that no innocent people get hurt!

Loona: O-Okay. Sure. Whatever you want.

Y/N: Great. ... Hey, Loona, is what you said true? Did you really... go through all of that?

Loona: Yes... Ever since I was a pup, I was stuck in that goddamn orphanage and was mistreated by other hellhounds. If anything, I'm glad Blitzø got me out of there.

Y/N: Really?

Loona: Hey, even though I was born a hellhound, even I have my limits in Hell.

Y/N: ... I wonder if that's how Mom felt.

Loona: ... Listen, I may not know your mom, but I bet she was a remarkable person.

Y/N: Heh. You have no idea. She was the best out of the family.

Loona: I'd bet. I mean, judging by how you felt, I can tell that she was.

Y/N: Yeah...

Loona: ... So, are you really going to sleep here?

Y/N: Um, yeah. I don't have anywhere else to go. Why?

Loona: *blushes* W-Well... I-I was... w-wondering if you'd, um... be interested in living with... me and Blitzø.

Y/N: Wait, what?! Seriously?

Loona: *blushes* I-I know that we're moving a little too fast, but I just don't want you to feel alone in the building, so I figured I'd let you... stay with us.

Y/N: Is there even enough room for me to sleep in? Is Blitzø even okay with this?

Loona: I'll talk to him about it, but we have a couch you can sleep on. At least, until we can get you a new bed you can sleep in.

Y/N: ... W-Wow... This coming from you? I wasn't expecting you to ask me that.

Loona: Why do you look so surprised?

Y/N: Because everyone told me that you're fierce and you like to be on your phone and not talk to anyone.

Loona: Hey, I'm not always like that. Not when it comes to the kind of people I'm... deeply interested in being with.

Y/N: And I'm one of them?

Loona: *blushes* Mhmm.

Y/N: Wait... Are you blushing?

Loona: *blushing* What? N-No, I'm not!

Y/N: Really? Cause you're face is getting a little red.

Loona: *blushing* Sh-Shut up! It's hot out here, okay?

Y/N: Calm down, Loona. I'm just playing around.

Loona: *blushing* ... Sorry.

Y/N: It's cool, Loona. Look, if anything, I'm relieved to know that you can trust me. And I would like to stay with you guys. As long as Blitzø is okay with it.

Loona: *smiles* I'll talk to Blitzø about it.

Y/N: Heh. You're a good person, Loona. You really are.

Loona: *blushes* Th-Thank you. Really, but I don't think I am.

Y/N: What? Why not? You did save me from the darkness. And you stayed by my side and took care of me. That's good person material. You're a great friend, Loona. Probably one of the best there is.

Loona: E-Even if... I tend to mess up, sometimes?

Y/N: We all make mistakes, Loona. However, I'm having a hard time imagining you fucking everything up.

Loona: ... Thank you, N/N. Seriously, I needed this.

Y/N: Sure thing. ... Listen, Loona, if I'm gonna be here with you guys, then you need to promise me something.

Loona: Sure. Anything you need.

Y/N: ... I know that it may be difficult for you, but promise me that no matter what happens, you'll continue to support Blitzø and his hard work to become a good father to you. And another thing. Promise me that no matter what, innocent people won't get hurt.

Loona: ...

Y/N: Please, Loona.

Loona: ... Okay... If that's what makes you happy, then I won't object. I'll try.

Y/N: Okay. Thanks.

(Flashback End)

Y/N's words continued to echo in her mind and it only hurt her even more as she was reminded of the time she lost him.

(Flashback)

Y/N (Demonic): *crying* No more tricks, Loona! No more manipulations! I wanted to believe you've changed, Loona. I wanted to be with you because you were the only person that understood the pain I went through after I lost my parents. I... *sniffles* I wanted to believe that you weren't like the others. ... But, I guess it was too good to be true.

Loona: ... I'm sorry, N/N.

Y/N (Demonic): *crying* YOU DON'T GET TO CHOOSE TO BE SORRY, LOONA!!! Not after that bullshit that went down back there.

Loona: ...

Y/N: *crying* I'm sorry, Loona, but... *sniffles & wipes tears away* I can't do this, anymore. I can't be with you, anymore. I'm done. I'm through with this.

Loona: What? N/N, no. Please, you can't leave! Not again!

Y/N: *crying* I'm sorry, Loona. But, it is what it is. I can't be with someone who can't even keep their promise. I can't be with you, anymore.

Loona: N/N... Please, don't leave! I...

Y/N: ...

Loona: *starts crying* I don't want to lose you, again! Please... I wanna make this right.

Y/N: ... *walks away*

Loona: N/N!

(Flashback End)

When she opened her eyes, she was into the sorrow to the point where her tears were on the verge of shedding from her eyes.

Loona: *thinking* N/N... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... Please... I want to make this right... But... Why won't you let me...? Why...?

With no control of her tears, they shedded from her eyes as she started to cry as hard as she could.

Loona: *crying* Please... Don't leave us... Don't leave me... I love you...

Her every attempt to stop herself from crying has failed as she kept thinking about Y/N and the fact that it was her fault. All she could feel is self-hatred towards herself and her existence. Poor Loona...

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