I can't stop crying and I just want a break; relax for a moment, but I can't when I keep thinking about everything.

I can smile for a short while, but just remember why I shouldn't be smiling right after. I drown myself in mindless games and reading or writing just to give myself a chance to feel good again. But my eyes just wont stop pouring water and I can't stop this feeling I have inside me.

People said, everything is okay.

Even thought it isn't.

─ I often feel like shit but I feel like good shit. Why am I filled with painful problems. []