The clock ticks repeatedly as I sit still not wanting to be here at all. As much as I tried trying to convince underboss that this was very unnecessary. That this traumatic experience can be dealt with on its own. He still pushed for this and Kira backed him up. So here I am sitting in this light grey four wall room waiting for the therapist Savannah linked us with.

Suddenly, the door creaks open my head turning towards the entrance seeing a hazel eyed woman with the most beautiful curly light brown hair I've seen. Her entire demeanor is very calm and welcoming.

"Hello there my name is Yvonne Brown," she says with tenderness. Her voice is very soothing in the oddest way.

"Hi, I'm Amoret Romanov," I simply respond.

"What a beautiful name. So tell me what would you like to talk about today?" She smiles taking a seat in front of me. I stay silent unsure of what she's expecting of me.

"I-I don't want to be here," I bluntly say standing up.

"That's very valid, I was the same when I was raped as a teen," she shares as I turn around ready to walk out of the room. However, I come to halt as soon as I hear that.

"You were raped too?," I murmur making eye contact with her once again.

"Yes. I was at a friend's party and had a few alcoholic drinks. There was this boy I really thought was cute and being a naive youngster I let him take me to the basement. He wanted to show me something and I didn't think much about it. From there I came out of that basement an entirely different person."

"I'm so sorry that happened to you. You were just a kid and here I am a grown woman acting like a coward," I sigh taking a seat.

"Don't you ever call yourself that. You're a survivor and a brave one for coming. Even braver for staying," she firmly says as I half smile not sure how I should feel still.

"As raped victims it is very hard to forget what happened to us. The way that traumatic event shattered us to the road of healing from it is all hard, but possible. I am here to help in this journey of claiming your identify, self love, body love, and your life back," she genuinely says as she smiles at me making me feel so hopeful and understood.

If she was able to heal and move forward with her life at such a young age, so can I.

"Let's do this," I respond hopeful to healing from what was done to me. Yvonne smiles which causes me to smile slightly looking forward to working with her.

Maybe this idea of help wasn't so bad after all.

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A month later

"What would you like to eat?," underboss asks as he walks out of the restroom and into the living room fully naked. As I notice this I look away immediately.

"Oh come on don't act like you haven't seen this before," he cockily says as he causes me to giggle. He's right I've seen him entirely, so I'm not sure why I'm acting so timid.

"You're so full of yourself," I jokingly respond as I look at him taking his entire self in. Definitely a view that doesn't disappoint at all I will admit. I watch him as he winks at me before re-asking his previous question.

"I don't know. Whatever you want," I say as I stand up from the couch to go get some water.

"Pizza," he says as he follows behind me.

"I'm not feeling pizza," I truthfully say.

"In-n-out?"

"No"

"Tacos?"

"Uhm, yeah that sounds better," I finally decide. Us women really be difficult in deciding on what to eat. Usually I've always been direct with what I want. However, a lot has changed or at least is taking some time to regain. Luckily, underboss has been really understanding and supportive. I love him for that.

As I reach for a glass cup in the cabinet. I feel his hands grab mine. His touch causes my body to feel warmth. These past weeks it's been complicated when it comes to intimacy. My body feels, but then shuts down as soon as my mind remembers. I'm so shut off and I hate it.

"Any updates on him?," I ask as my mind wonders about my biggest danger. As longest that monster is out free roaming somewhere I just don't feel safe at all. I know he will come for me. His obsession with me has always been very apparent and I know he won't stay far away long.

"I've told you once I know I'll tell you," underboss says as I let go off his hand turning my back to him.

"You don't understand Leo. I'm not safe as longest he's out there free. He will come for me," I frustratingly say.

"My men are monitoring this place and you at all times. We are doing our best to find any trail of him, but it's as if the ground ate him. So it's taking some time, but Rizo is the best on tracking anyone. So trust me I'm doing all I can to keep you safe alright," he reassures as he turns me around our faces inches from one another.

A warm and electric vibration travels all over my body as I feel his warmth transfer over to me. My most sensitive area throbs for him and my body craves him.

"I trust you, I-I"

His lips touch mine completely forgetting what I was going to say next. Our lips in sync with one another as his body is against mine. I can feel him harden as it rubs against my thigh. His hands travel from my waist down to my buttocks as he lifts me up. I wrap myself around his body as he carries me to our bedroom.

"I knew you would never leave me," underboss jokingly murmurs as he gently puts me down bringing up what I said to him at the hospital.

"You're so full of yourself little boss," I giggle as I remove my clothes. I look at the manly sight of me and he's ready for me.

"Admit it," he murmurs near my ear as he wraps his arms around me.

"Admit what?," I question as I lead the way on our bed now having him on top of me completely being in control of me. Underboss begins to insert inside of me as I feel him gently sliding through me sending electric tingles throughout my body.

As he lovingly and softly thrusts in and out of me. The traumatizing flashbacks start making their presence known. I try my hardest to ignore these flashbacks and focus in this moment. I open my eyes seeing those beautiful eyes I'm very fond of.

"Do you love me Amoret?," he asks.

"That should be easy to know after all I've done," I genuinely respond. Who would of known that being put onto this mission of seducing a Castillo would completely change me. Without knowing I fell hard for the underboss of the Castillo mafia. The very underboss that brought down my walls and saved me from the enslavement I've been in. Meeting him has been the happiest time of my life. Being with him makes me happy in general.

"I thought you betrayed me when you went missing. The hurt I felt was truly aching at the thought of that possibly being a reality. I'm sorry for being a fool. I should have known better. When I found you I was scared as shit of losing you. I couldn't imagine a world without you. When you threaten to leave I felt that same fear. I need you here with me to feel complete. I don't know when exactly this happened, but I love you," he responds as he leans down to kiss my lips. Hearing this has a bunch of butterflies going crazy inside of my stomach.

"I could never leave even if I wanted to. I love you too much Leo," I truthfully say as he smirks so cockily.

And with this I get lost completely in this beautiful lovely moment between the two of us.

Atalia's pov

After a late night shift at work today, I'm so glad to be finally off. As I walk to my apartment grabbing the keys from my pocket. Someone comes from behind me placing their hand over my mouth preventing me from screaming for help.

"You'll stay alive as longest you do what you're told to do," a deep voice sternly murmurs by my ear.

This voice I've heard it before.

"Open the door," he instructs as that's exactly what I do not wanting to die. Once I open the door he pushes me roughly inside as he then closes the door. I'm thrown onto the couch as I finally see who this man is. To my surprise it's the same blue eyed Russian who kidnapped me before.

"Please I have nothing to do with the Castillos. I don't want anything to do with whatever this is about," I say.

"Too bad you have no choice Atalia. I need you to get me close to Amoret," he bluntly responds as his dark blue eyes show hostility.

"I don't understand, I thought you had her already?," I question.

"Don't question me you whore," he angrily responds.

"Look I have no relations with her. I've been threaten by the Castillos if I get close to any of them they'll kill me," I truthfully explain.

"Seems like death is knocking on the door both ways. Question is do you want to die right now or actually try to save your life with doing one mission then you'll be free to go. Play this right and they'll never know it was you," he says.

"I don't want to do this," I repeat which only causes him to slap me across the cheek.

"You're going to do this whether you like it or not."

Author's Note:

Hello beautiful people,

I apologize for the super slow updates on all of my stories. If you've seen on my message board then you already know what has been going on. Plus being a recent university graduate my senior year really burnt me out with being a full time worker (mental health peer support worker for my county's behavior health services department) and full time student (being a honors student puts more stress).

I'm trying to get out of this writer's block and getting back into what I love, which is writing. However, it's taking time I hope y'all can understand plus time isn't as flexible nowadays. But I promise you I am trying and hopefully things pick up :) I miss routinely updating, so that's my New Years resolution for 2022 LOL!

As always I like being honest with you guys because without y'all my stories wouldn't be anything without y'all's love and support ❤️

Anyone want to share what you would like to work on or bring into existence in 2022?

I'll share mine if y'all want me to? Yes? No?

- Giavanni ❤️