Today is the day, the day I truly go against my bloodline. For some reason, I'm emotionless. I've never been a part of this family. The way I grew up I would never wish upon anyone. The moment I lost my mother is the very moment I died. Since then I've been just on autopilot surviving day by day never truly living. What is it to even be truly alive? Will I be alive once I regain my freedom?

I look towards underboss admiring his existence. This man is just a masterpiece the lord himself sculpted that's for sure. He's just perfection, I feel different when I'm around him. These past months I've been living with him has made me feel something I've never felt before.

Do I?

No, I doubt it.

"If shit goes south, I'm killing him just saying," Kira utters breaking the silence in the car. We all turn to see her as she crosses her arms across her chest.

"We need him to lure the rest to our territory, so no you will not do that," Israel responds immediately disapproving of her plans. For the past few days, these two have been eyeing one another. They both think they're being slick, but little do they know they suck at it completely.

"May I remind you're still recovering from your wound Kira," I say.

"Then you should knock him out Amoret. You're very trained for that," Kira responds almost in a exposing manner. I sent a glare at her as I feel eyeballs on me especially Mr. Castillo. He already doesn't trust us because of who we are and with this remark it'll just make him more wary.

"We're here, we will need to get into our positions very quickly before the arrival," underboss informs us as we park behind the hotel Dimitry told Kira to do the meet up.

We all step outside the vehicle knowing exactly where we need to go and be for this mission. Kira immediately heads into the building since she has one of the most important roles today. I follow behind her knowing within a few minutes things will get real for all of us. However, I feel a firm grip on my arm bringing me to a halt.

"No second thoughts," underboss murmurs as his emerald green eyes pin me down.

"I already gave you my word underboss," I sarcastically respond.

"Underboss? Now that's something I'm interested to know how that name came about," he questions as we both walk into the building.

"It just means little boss as your the heir to the throne that's all," I say feeling angry at him for some reason.

"I'm definitely not little," he says.

"Cool for you underboss. Now if I can be left alone to focus on this mission I'll be delivering for you. The sooner all of this is successfully handled. The sooner I'll be free from all of this and disappear from here," I mutter.

"That's the plan," he blankly says as he excuses himself heading down the hallway. I don't know what I expected from this, but in the oddest way I feel a bit angry with his action. What the hell did I expect?

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I watch as Dimitry walks towards the room then enters inside. I'm surprised he actually came alone just shows how desperate he is to climb the ranks. If only he knew that Graudyn would never allow anyone to outshine him not even his close friend.

Suddenly, I hear shuffling noises then a sudden thud. Immediately, I'm quick to the door as I was about to twist the doorknob. The door bursts open coming face to face with Dimitry. He doesn't hesitate to swing his hand that holds a small pocket knife slashing my arm I was quick to shield my face from. From the impact I jump back wincing in pain as Dimitry makes a run for it.

Ignoring the cut on my arm I chase down Dimitry. There's no way I'm letting this plan go to shit. If Dimitry manages to escape we're all screwed and dead. I have to make sure I'm on the winning side for my freedom depends on it now. It's the only alliance I have to work with. As I hear Israel and Kira scream for me to not let him escape. I run as fast as I can managing to keep close to him.

I stretch my arm towards the collar of his shirt aggressively pulling him back enough for me to jolt myself into the air managing to wrap my legs around his neck bringing him down with my arm as I let my body guide his fall to the ground. As he falls the pocket knife slips from his hand as he remains flat on the ground almost gasping for air from the hard impact his back had against the tile floor.

"You trader bitch you're going to pay with your life for this," Dimitry scolds as he regains his composure. I decide to strike him exactly on his jaw, which immediately sends him into unconsciousness.

"Bravo," underboss utters as he approaches alongside with Kira and Israel. I stand up not saying anything trying to regain some composure from the adrenaline of it all.

"Hope I proved myself trustworthy enough," I bluntly say to underboss as I walk away from the scene leaving them behind.

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Leo Jr's pov

"Consider your days counted cunt," A bloody Dimitry spits as he remains tied to a wooden chair. I send another blow to Dimitry's jaw as I watch Amoret's roll her eyes at his threat. Since our Miami mission, I haven't spoken to Amoret about our night together. I don't know what the fuck is going on with my head lately. Too much has been going on and just everything is all over the place with the Russians. I haven't had any time to think about feelings regarding Amoret. How has this woman gotten into my head? I can't help, but constantly ask myself if it's lust or something much more?

Why am I fearful of something so simple?

Amoret's pov

"Amoret was never one of us always a weakling, but you Kira now that's betrayal," Dimitry scolds.

"You're really talking about betrayal? You fucking raped me and made me suffer in silence you fucking-," Kira angrily says before sending a well deserved punch right on Dimitry's nose. The room becomes silence as the Castillos and the red eagles witness Kira's pain.

"Shut your mouth you enjoyed it," Dimitry chuckles as blood drops from his busted mouth. This sets me off seeing how evil and dismissive he's being about Kira's pain. So typical for them to be this way damaging woman without any consequences. My mother, Kira, and I are all victims of these demons. This isn't how a mafia family is suppose to be.

Within an instant, I find myself pounding onto Dimitry. Emotionless full of rage wanting to end it all. Flashes of all the times Romanov beat my mother in front of me as a kid. Flashes of all my torturous trainings by the one that was suppose to protect me and show me love of a parent flash before me like a movie. My mother passing left me alone without purpose. Many nights I always begged for her to come get me to take me away from my pointless life.

Through the trainings I rose up beating the rest my father challenged. I once believed if I became the best he would accept me and love me, so I did what I could to win his approval. Make him proud of me even, but little did I know then that it was all to hurt me. He enjoyed seeing me hurt and was never proud when I won. Besides those few times I lost that's when he was proud with my opponent. That's when I knew I would never be accepted by him.

I feel strong arms wrap around me pulling be back from a knocked out Dimitry. Suddenly, tears are felt going down my cheeks. My heart is beating rapidly as my breathing becomes heavy.

"You're okay," underboss murmurs three times near my ear in the most soothing and understanding tone that miraculously calms me down. The flashes stop as I regain consciousness again seeing all eyes on me. My knuckles are red and a bit swollen from the impact of the punches against Dimitry's face.

"I have to go," I hastily say as I free myself from underboss's arms heading out towards the door. Kira calls after me, but I let her know I need to be alone, which she listens.

As I walk to the guest room, uncontrollable sadness takes over me. Tears continue to rush down my cheeks as I start to run down the hallway. I absolutely hate feeling this vulnerable. I surpassed so much over the years that when I let my guard down this happens. All I want is to hide in a dark place where no one can see how broken I really am. I don't want underboss to see me this way. I want to be strong and only be seen as that.

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I find myself sitting on the bed facing the city. I have no clue for how long I've been just staring out the window for. As many nights in my past this is exactly what I'm doing at the moment just numb.

Being under Romanov all I ever craved was freedom. I have no clue if I'll win this war against my bloodline. What if Dimitry is right and my days are truly counted? With the war not being easy at all that's a possibility that I have to take. I'm in deep and there's no turning back now. If there is truly a god, I hope this war goes to my favor.

The door opens as footsteps is heard stepping inside as the door closes. Instantly, that familiar perfume scent underboss loves wearing travels through my nostrils. However, I don't move continuing to face the window watching the cars pass by.

"You okay?," he softly asks as he stands besides me. His eyes intently looking at me with tenderness.

"Yeah," I murmur still staring towards the window. Underboss steps forward now standing in front of me catching my full attention. Our eyes lock with one another.

"What happened back there?," underboss asks seeming concerned. I take a deep breathe as I look elsewhere besides those eyes that just seem to make me vulnerable. Since meeting him I've changed in ways that are just unexplainable. My time with him has made me better, stronger, safe, and feel alive again. He's always in my mind. I'm not sure when this started happening, but I'm not against it at all. I was suppose to seduce him with no strings attached, but clearly that didn't happen. Something else sparked and grew instead without him trying.

"You won't understand," I sigh.

"Try me," he says as he caresses my cheek softly with such delicacy within his touch. I look up to him once again feeling safe something I've felt with only my mom now with him.

"I grew up with a lot of violence in my household. I've witnessed numerous times my father beat my mother for the smallest things. One day when I came home from school I walked in on him strangling her. I tried to stop him, but it was too late. Immediately, after that I became his focus of torture undergoing torturous trainings. He never wanted me nor loved me. Seemed like I was only good for negotiating with your father," I say all in one breathe  as tears appear. However, this time I don't want to run away and hide in the dark. It's as if this has been eating me alive all this time that I just want it to be known for once. Perhaps since I'm not sure I'll make it out alive after the war. In case something of that nature happens, I want underboss to know my story.

"I'm sorry for all you've been put through. No one should ever go through that. I will avenge your mother and you, I give you my word Amoret," he firmly says as he motions for me to stand, which I do.

"Don't feel like you owe me that. I'm no one for you to do that for," I murmur my eyes looking into his. His presence and focus makes me almost melt under his gaze. He makes me forget all of my pain and brings life into my soul. This is the side of him that keeps running away every time he gets this close to me. Underboss stays silent for a moment as if he's contemplating with something.

"You're someone to me," he breathes as he caresses my arm sending tingles throughout my body by his warm touch.

Looking into each other eyes. Our hands connect with one another firmly grasping.

"No more pretending there's nothing between us. Tell me you're feeling what I'm feeling for you?," I say as my breath starts to become a bit heavy feeling completely taken by how close we're getting with one another.

"What have you done to me Amoret? This isn't what was suppose to happen between us," he responds almost vulnerable.

"I know, but it happened and truthfully I don't regret it one fucking bit. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me," I genuinely say meaning each word.

"Tell me what do you want?," underboss breathlessly asks no longer being able to hold back. All this time we've been fighting ourselves from what has sparked between us. I no longer want to fight it I know what I want.

"I want you Leo. I want you to make me yours," I breathe watching his green eyes darken by my demand.

Our lips lean forward connecting with one another. In sync with one another everything shuts out. Us only existing in the moment. My body warms up with every touch of his completely under his control.

Fully exposed to him I'm laid down on the bed as he follows my movement. Our lips being magnets as Leo places himself between my legs. I feel a sudden large pressure begin to insert me. I gasp clenching my hands onto the bedsheet from the light pain I'm experiencing. Leo notices inserting further, but in a slower and gentle manner. The first two thrusts are a bit painful, but nothing I'm unable to handle. Soon after that within each thrust I start to feel really good. Leo begins thrusting much faster and harder making me a moaning mess.

Leo puts his arms under both my thighs spreading my legs wider, while lifting my hips up as my toes curl from how incredibly good I'm feeling.

"Fuck," he heavily breathes as his thrusts fasten. Our eyes stay connected the entire time as I begin to feel an unfamiliar, yet satisfying sensation in the lower pit of my stomach. With each thrust this sensation grows bigger and bigger as I tell Leo to keep going harder. We both soon climax. Leo eventually dropping to the side of me completely breathless.

"Wow, that was amazing," I murmur.

"Agreed," he responds.

"Let's do it again."

Author's Note:

I apologize for how long it's taken me to update. Senior year of university has been truly hectic to say the least. For those of you that may be new to my platform or me as a writer. I'm a full time university student as well as a intern. I'm a senior and about to finish my Fall 2020 semester in two weeks leaving me one last semester (Spring 2021) to complete before graduating and becoming a n official graduate (hopefully all goes well lol.) Having a heavy internship besides school it's hard to write nowadays especially with how we're still undergoing the covid-19 pandemic. In my county, we're under another lockdown sadly. Being under this pandemic and shut downs really has an effect on an individual in all aspects, it' SUCKS.

Any who, I hope this winter break I'm able to update my stories a bit more. So there's that hope LOL! I hope y'all enjoy this chapter and get ready for a roller coaster of events hehe!

I love y'all and please take care of yourselves out there,

Giavanni 🧡