Issue #36: Liar

Before Terra showed up I tried to write down as many notes as I could remember from talking to Jane. The first being Id start referring to her mostly as Jane instead of Kay since Jane seems to run things. I also pondered who the actual real person was now. I never even saw Kay and you'd think if it was her body she would be in control. Anyways the notes I gathered were as followed:

• Jane is openly misogynistic towards men (note to self, find a dictionary in this hellhole and see if there's a word for misogyny towards men)

• New personality discovered. Karen. Apparently has form of brainwashing or manipulation powers, glowing eyes like The Ghost except blue.

• Karen seems to have taken a liking to me, already claiming me as her boyfriend.

•Total personalities I now know of: Kay Challis, Crazy Jane, Hammerhead, Lucy Fugues, Karen, Flaming Katy, The Secretary, Black Annis, Other personality to be named that wanted me/forced me to grope her, Other personality with the mullet from her arrival at Belle Reeve, Pretty Polly, Baby Doll. last two I neglected to mention in session . Twelve in total. Five of which met.

• Jane says fuck a lot.

• Hammerhead also says fuck a lot.

• Also hits people a lot.

• My face hurts.

• Coincidentally gained powers from being experimented on. Unknown if insanity and MPD are also related.

• Jane has pretty eyes.

As I finished off that last one the door opened and Terra came through. She gasped when she saw my face.

"What the fuck-"

"Sixty four personalities. All of which hate men. One of which hates me specifically. Power dampener only made it so her super strength didn't break my nose or orbital bones." I explained.

"What's the bitch's-"

"Patient-Doctor confidentiality. Can't tell you. Now please, have a seat." I told Terra. She nodded and sat down in front of me. She looked nervous. I noticed she had purple cloth wrapped around her wrist like a bracelet. Part of my shirt from that night surely. "So, how have you been doing?" I asked. She was silent. She was working up the nerve to say something.

"...Have you ever been lying for so long that you forget what the truth is?" She asked. What's more, is that she said it in "Titans Terra's" voice. "I had been using that voice for so long I forgot that this is what I actually sound like. I forgot that the only reason I started using the voice I talked with mostly was because I thought it made me sound older for... you know who. I didn't realize that until that night. After everything you knew about me, after the fact I tried to kill you, after everything we'd been through you called me beautiful. You called me beautiful. You knew who I was, what I was, what I'd done, how much I hated and you still said that. Ever since that night, for the past week, all I've thought about now is... was that really me? Am I really me? I don't know where Terra starts and Tara Markov ends. Was I always evil? Was I always meant to hate everything? Was it my parents that messed me up? Was it Slade that messed me up? Was it the Titans being nice to me that messed me up? Was I only sure I wasn't capable of love because Beast Boy was the one that showed me it and I hated him?" There was a pause where we just stared at each other. I wasn't playing psychologist anymore. "I'm not gonna say I love you because I don't think I know what love is. But thanks for making me feel like I'm an actual human being."

"...I'm going to be completely honest with you. The Crimson Ghost is still tormenting me." I said. "And it wants me to stay away from you. And it's told me that I shouldn't trust you. You're a pathological liar and manipulator. And whether that's true or not, I do know you can't trust me. You won't be safe around me." Terra was mortified. She seemed terrified with this new information, but she took a deep breath and stared ahead at me.

"The Ghost also said I'm afraid of losing you, right? And I'm gonna do everything I can to make sure I don't lose you. Even some stuff that I already don't wanna do but I have to. I'll take my chances."

You really shouldn't.

"You really shouldn't."

"Hey, has Cleo talked to you yet?"

"Cleo? You two are on a first name basis now?"

"Nothing brings people together like death, even when the person isn't exactly dead."

"Well to answer your question no. And I don't think I should."

"I think you should. Like I really think you should."

And I think you should stick to the script Doctor and continue the session.

"And I think we should continue this therapy session as that. A therapy session."

"...Okay. Then I guess you should be talking to angry Terra, then." She said before clearing her throat. "So, what's up doc?" She spoke with her norm-... her voice from when she first met me.

"Apparently you're better at holding in your anger except for the fact you broke the finger of another inmate."

"Oh shit, dude, you're not gonna believe this." She began. "That Russian spy bitch or whatever the fuck she was- the one with the eye patch? She's in the fucking Suicide Squad now."

"Rose?"

"Yeah. Her." She said crossing her arms. Just the mention of her name pissed Terra off. "It was Belle Reeve or Guantanamo Bay and Waller stuck her here."

"I thought Guantanamo Bay was shut down."

"Not for Waller it isn't. Apparently she's crashing in Ten Eyed Dickhead's old cell."

"This is all great information but I wanna know about the broken finger."

"I didn't break her finger I just jammed it between a rock and a hard place."

"And why did you do that?" I asked.

"...Do you know who her fucking father is?" She asked. She seemed angry at me now. She slammed her fist on the table. "It's fucking SLADE! And the bitch looks JUST. LIKE. HIM!" She said.

"Are you s-"

"Her last name is Wilson, his logo is on her lighter, and this fucking bitch had the audacity to fucking dye her hair gray and rip out one of her eyes just to be like that no good, assHOLE, PEDOPHILIC, MOTHER FUCKING-" At this point there was actually an earthquake despite her power dampener being on. Her eyes and hands were glowing.

"TARA! TARA HEY!" I said grabbing her hands, getting her to calm down. Her eyes went back to normal and I immediately saw tears in them.

"Why would she look up to someone like him!? He's a monster!" She said in her Tara voice as I'll now be calling her Titans voice. "I'm younger than her! I was literally young enough to have been his daughter!"

"The human psyche has a strange effect when it comes to parents. You either make up excuses for their flaws even when they're inexcusable, or you demonize them for how cruel they are or you perceive them. For example, while Rose must idolize her father to go as far as to take out her own eye, I on the other hand wish my mother was dead even though she hasn't dated a fifteen year old... to my knowledge at least." I muttered the last part. "There's a possibility she doesn't know about your relationship with her father. Did you know that she existed?"

"He never talked about her." She wiped her eyes going back into Terra voice. "He would bitch about how the Titans killed his first son, Grant and I met his second son, Jericho. But he never talked about her. And he never brought up Jericho until he kicked my ass."

"This may be difficult to do without starting a fight but, maybe try telling her about her father instead of trying to kill her?"

"This isn't a thing where I re-educate her or some shit! I wanna kill her! She's the last of his putrid bloodline and I wanna wipe his whole stupid family off the face of the earth and have the dirt drag their remains down to the center of the earth where they can burn in hell!"

"That's just going to get you in trouble with Waller. Waller wants her here for a reason. If you kill her before her first mission you're gonna be in deep shit."

"She can kill me when I'm done I don't fucking care!"

"What if I care?" I asked. Tara was taken aback by the questioning.

"I... I..." She tried to say before sighing. "Then fine! I'll try for you." She said before standing up.

"Tara where are you-"

"Session's up, doc. I'm not really feeling it." She said before starting to walk out. Honestly it's for the best she leaves now. If she's distanced she can't tell me anything that will upset the Ghost. "Move!" She told someone as she opened the door and left.

That went better than expected.

"In what regard?"

I didn't have to kill her. I've been trying to figure out how to replicate the feeling of boulders crushing her organs since she walked in. She didn't go too far out of line though.

"Okay let's recap. Duela Dent: can't call her Dent, inferiority complex and triggered by the word ugly. Didn't get to ask her about her mask or the reported voices in her head, have to do that next session. Probably spent a lot of time of 4chan. Definitely insane."

Don't say that like you didn't spend a lot of time on /tv/. I won't lie, Good Doctor, I do enjoy her company. It makes you look more sane by comparison.

"Crazy Jane: Twelve Personalities down, Fifty-Two to go. Going through each personality's personal disorders would be a hell on earth, just to make a few; Karen's obsession, Hammerhead's anger management, and the mysterious one's apparent nymphomania."

Bravo, Good Doctor! Being able to pick up on Karen and the slut's disorders even with the limited time we were in talks with them!

"We can probably safely assume a majority of them are male misogynists. Again, remind me to look up if there's a name for that."

Noted.

"As I was saying, even the nymphomaniac could potentially be a misogynist looking to use a man as a meat stick and that being all he's good for. I should discover more about her friends killed by the Families of Evil or whatever. As well as her experiments. Possibly the strangest thing I've been able to bond over with someone."

Tread carefully, Good Doctor... this one disturbs me.

"You only say that because you didn't get to meet Black Annis. Also, you? Disturbed? Absurd."

Something struck me as odd earlier, as well. Remember her tapes? At one point she had a talk with that Caulder character. He said that he hoped she could see him as a father figure. She told him "You don't want to be like daddy. He wasn't a good person."

"Ugh, don't say it like that! In her voice! It's weird when you do that to me!"

FOCUS ON THE WORDS NOT THE VOICE YOU OAF! The way she said it. She said it like she was afraid of him. I believe we should talk about "Daddy" next session.

"Could be a source of trauma. Surely one of the sixty four personalities could've been shaped by her fear for him."

She should've put all of her fears into one personality instead of  dispersing one amongst sixty four personalities. She could've been a doctor! Or the grim reaper... ehehehehehehehe-

"Either way, we can safely say she's insane. Now finally, there's Tara. Definitely angry."

Definitely a liar.

"Will you stop with that?"

You shame me as if you did not have the same thoughts when Blackfire and her offered you friendship back at the beginning of your expedition of Russia.

"I should maybe speak with Rose to see if I can help lessen the tension."

A fool's errand.

"Or an excuse to speak to Rose again and try to learn more about Waller's motives for putting her in here. I'll let you decide."

There's the maniacal genius I helped fester.

"That being said, Terra seemed not to thrilled with the results of therapy. Perhaps this was our one and only session." I said before standing up.

Nothing of value was lost.

"Except for the blood from my body. The plus side to this cut is that it gives me an excuse not to go back to my cell and see Cazo." I began to walk to the door.

You won't have Hammerhead to save her from me forever. One day I'll get out and-

"God help those around you. But until then you're as much of a prisoner in my head as I am here." I grabbed the door knob. "All in all, I'd say the day was a success. In another life I really could've helped people."

You believe you can't still?

"The only way you could convince me I could still do good for society is if I was able to cure someone like-" As I opened the door I stopped in my tracks confused on who was waiting on the other side.









"...Harley?"

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