Dedicated to ferzeen hope you like it and sorry for super late update.

Iwake up in pain. My head is pounding and my crotch is hurting terribly. Hussain, next to me, mumbles in his sleep. Soft snores are escaping his mouth. I shake his shoulder with my shaking hands. He opens one eye and looks at me with his adorable sleepy face. He sees me gasping for air and immediately sits up.

"What's wrong, love? Did you have a nightmare?"

"No." I say in tears as I remove the blanket from my body and see the blood on the sheets. No this can't be happening! We've done so good...

"Baby, what's that? Why- no," Hussain says shocked and jumps out of the bed to put on t-shirt. He helps me to get out of the bed and to get dress in another cloths, "I'm going to take you to the hospital now."

He carries me bridal style downstairs and into the car. My body still hurts but not as much as it did before. Only ten minutes later and we have arrived at the hospital. We get inside and they immediately bring me into an examination room. Hussain follows us and sits down beside me on a chair while I lay on a bed. My stomach hurts. My whole body hurts.

Hussain holds my hand and strokes with his thumb semicircles on the back of my hand. A lady doctor walks in and introduces herself. She asks what happened and I tell her that I woke up in pain and that on the sheets was blood. She frowns and puts some gel on my bare stomach. She examines me with an ultrasound device and looks at the little screen next to him. Hussain and I look at it as well but to be honest I can't really see anything on it. Tears are making the view blurry and my head feels as if it's going to explode. The doctor frowns.

"Well, I'm sad to tell it but you've lost your baby," The doctor says caring and puts the ultrasound device away and folds her hands in her lap, "You had a miscarriage. You two probably want to be alone now. I'm sorry." She shakes our hands again but I don't remove my eyes from the plain, white wall. Hussain brings my hand to his mouth and gives each knuckle a gentle kiss. I feel water on my hand and I know Hussain is crying. I really try to suppress the tears but to know that it hits Hussain so hard causes me to cry as well. Again.

"Look at me, Tarannum." I shake my head. "Please." I turn my head to him and to see him crying is heartbreaking. His other hand reaches for my face and he puts a strand of my hair behind my ear. His hand rests on my cheek.

"I'm so sorry." I apologize, "I know how happy you were to have a little baby girl but I've lost it. I'm so sorry. It's all my fault. I can't even do this right."

"It is not. This can happen to anyone." Hussain says in a choked voice.

"But to us? What did we do wrong that we have to get punished like that?" I cry out, Hussain shakes his head.

"I don't know, angle. I don't know. But we can try it again. Maybe not now or tomorrow or in two weeks. We can try it again whenever you're ready, okay? This is not your fault." Hussain assures me and comes closer to my face to press our foreheads together, "I love you so much and I know we loved this baby but I know we will love the new baby as much as we loved this one. We can give it another try."

"Thank you." I say and close my eyes. I'm exhausted and tired. Hussain places his soft lips on my forehead and remains for a while like that. I wrap my arms around his broad back. Hussain gives me the hold I need in the moment. I'm so glad to have someone like Hussain although I don't know how I deserved someone as perfect as him. Hussain was so happy to become a father. He didn't speak from something else but now I lost the baby. A little baby girl that would make our family perfect but now she is in another place, in a better place.