Fukui Kensuke’s POV

I swear I’m going to kill myself.

As soon as my dad dropped Suzume over her dorm, I exploded. “Dad! Why didn’t you tell me I and Suzume are going to attend same schools?!” I exclaimed.

He gave a confused look. “What? I thought you knew” What? Who’s behind all of these? “Didn’t you remember that your mother was the one who asked a form of the school from her?”

“So it was mom?!” I reacted.

“No, I think Hitomi was the one who gave the form to your mother” Dad rubbed his chin thoughtfully. Hitomi – that tsundere!! “Why are you reacting so violently? Isn’t it good? You have someone close to you attending the same college. You can adjust easily” Are you kidding me?

Why am I reacting so violently?

WHY?

The girl who I thought I like will be attending the same school as I am; the same girl who I gave false hope in liking her back. Yes, I know the girl likes me dammit!

Why didn’t I confess to her during Valentines’ Day you ask? It’s because I didn’t fully like her. I still wasn’t over the fact that the one I love dumped me for some other guy. And I wouldn’t even mention her name! It’s not worthy!

That night when we arrived at the Midorima’s, I locked myself in my room after greeting and eating dinner with our family friend. I even forgot Mayu’s ‘hi’ for Shintaro.

I was dwelling on it too much that I wasn’t able to sleep properly. It was embarrassing since Shintaro was the one who woke me up. Ah, that guy is in his last year of high school huh?

I walked to school with him and soon parted ways when I reached the route to my college. He gave a nod and wave goodbye as I walked by myself.

I reached the University and headed to my first class. Upon entering it, I soon wanted to jump off the building when I saw Suzume sitting by herself at the front row, just in front of the teacher’s table. I gulped, debating either to sit next to her or avoid her. But when I decided to sit beside her, I was beaten by a dude who approached her, stealing the chair I was supposed to sit on. He started flirting with her that she didn’t seem to notice.

Bleh, flirty people annoy me. Might as well avoid them.

I made my way to the very back of the room, making sure I walk pass in between them. Suzume looked up at me as I successfully interrupted them. I didn’t glance at her though. I focused straight ahead to my seat and didn’t bother to have eye contact with her.

When our first class ended, I immediately went out of the room without even talking to Suzume. As I was walking through the hallway, my phone rang. I pulled it out of my pocket discovering who it was. “Hello tsundere traitor” I say through the phone.

“Hello coward motherfucker” She’s cursing more than usual.

“What are you on about now?” I grumbled, leaning on the open window, staring down at the open field of my new campus. Can’t she notice the frustration on my tone right now? I’m pretty sure she knows the reason behind it, since she’s the one who’s all behind this. “Shouldn’t I be the one who’s supposed to be mad?” I sighed, leaning my head down on an open window. I hope a plane crashes on it and I end up being headless. Actually, I am headless.

“Bastard, cowards don’t have the right to be mad. And they certainly don’t deserve nadeshiko’s such as Nanami Suzume” Hitomi replied, obviously directing those words to me.

I let out a deep sigh. “I guess you’re right. I don’t deserve Suzume so you can just continue and bring down my self-esteem and destroy whatever pride I have left in me”

“Pride? Don’t you dare have pride with that pathetic state of yours. Are you even in the position to have it?”

“And there goes the last drop…”

Alright, I get it why Hitomi’s shitting around with me. I understand why there’s flaming anger in her voice when she speaks to me. It’s because I’m a fucking coward who wasn’t able to confess his feelings to the girl he likes. Reason? I got no balls. Kidding. How am I supposed to admit my feelings to her if I’m not giving it whole-heartedly? “Suzume deserves a love that’d be fully given to her. Not the half I have for her. I don’t want her to be just a rebound”

“Idiot, so when are you going to fully move on from that ex of yours that dumped you for an asshole? Why do you have to be so stupid?”

“I don’t know… but as long as this part of that loves her stays, I can’t tell Suzume my feelings. I don’t want to use her to move on like this”

Hitomi sighed, signaling her boiling blood soon calmed down. “I hate it but it gladdens me hearing that from you. Also growing impatient on when will Kaichou knows that her feelings aren’t unrequited. There’s this part of me that’s afraid she’ll be taken away from you, and when you entirely move on, she’ll be gone and you’ll be too late” man, this girl is really frantic and deep sometimes. But what she said is true.

“I’m afraid too, Hitomi” I admit. “Afraid that she’ll move on from me as well…” Hitomi stopped talking a while after that and never spoke for the next second. “Guess I have to go for now, Tomi-chan. Talk to you later” I was about to hang up when she spoke again.

“Kensuke, I know how patient and persistent you are to your loved ones. And I know you know that Kaichou knows that, and I’m pretty sure she won’t grow tired that easily since, she learned hard work and persistency pays off. Remember, she learned that from you”

“Hitomi –”

“And if she ever deserves something, she deserves someone she truly loves. That’s you” beep. After that very heartfelt speech of hers, Hitomi just hung up. Man, she really is a tsundere. I bet she’s blushing over at the other line and hiding her face onto Himuro’s chest.

I sighed once again, putting my phone back into my pocket and checked the time. Crap, I’m going to be late for my next lecture!

Dammit Hitomi! Next time, I’m taking calls from you after class!

Pushing myself off the window I was leaning on, I ran back to the corner to head for my classroom, hoping that at least I could make it in a second. But I guess this isn’t a good day for me since I had to knock someone down and fall on top of them. Oh just fucking great.

“Sorry, I’m in a hurry!” I apologized, raising my head to meet apple colored cheeks, raven bangs covering half of her eyes covered with glasses. “Su-Suzume…”

“Kensuke-san, I…” she muttered. Fucking hell – “Sorry about that Suzume!” I stood up from the floor while pulling her up as well. “I really need to go! I’m going to be late for-” my body was stopped by arms trapping my torso, pulling me back. “Suzume…?” she was hugging me right on the spot and I don’t know why. Did she hear my conversation with Hitomi?

“Kensuke-san…” she whispered ever so gently as she covered her flustered face with her arms around my chest.

“Suzume… what are you… doing?” I ask, looking down upon her figure. I bet she can feel my heart beating faster than ever. I know I like (love) her but truthfully, there’s this part of me that’s still pained about my previous love. I can’t fully give what she deserves. “Why… why are you hugging me?”

“I… I’m sorry for eavesdropping…” so she did heard the phone call with Hitomi.

“It’s okay” I assure, patting her head, bringing it close to my chin. “You probably deserve the truth anyway… and you deserve someone better than me so…”

“No, I don’t want anyone else!” she outburst that startled me. “All I really need is you. I understand if you can’t return wholeheartedly my romantic feelings for you so I’ve decided that… I’ll wait for you to fully move on” Suzume stared intently into my eyes.

Now I feel so pathetic being all dramatic like this.

 “I’m sorry Suzume” I closed my eyes, visualizing what I need to say. “I’m sorry for bringing you confusion and pain. You don’t deserve this-” And if she ever deserves something, she deserves someone she truly loves. That’s you.

What Hitomi said was true…

“You don’t need to apologize” she cupped my cheek making me look at her. Her smile greeted me as I gawked at her beauty. “As stubborn and lovable as you, I won’t give up my feelings for you!”

“Suzume…” this girl. She did learn a lot from me, didn’t she? I smiled, bringing her face back to my chest. “Idiot, don’t be like me all the time even though you like me”

“Is that supposed to be a classic pun?” she asked in a muffled voice. It made me chuckle on how cute she is.

“Idiot” I tousle her hair making her pout. “But I like you anyway”

“Tsundere” she puffed her cheeks before walking out like that. Wait, did she just classify me as same as my cousin?

“O-Oi! I-I’m not a tsundere!” I deny, walking after her.

“Just by saying that makes you one!”

What?! H-Hey why is she leaving me behind? “Hey Suzume! Wait up!” And there I forgot all about the lecture I was late in. Well it’s better late in class than in love.

Now that made me embarrassed just by mentally quoting it.

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