⚠️TRIGGER WARNING!!⚠️:
sexual assault, violence, harassment

Make sure to Be safe reading!

I won't be offended if you need to skip this chapter if it's too much of a trigger for you! I only write it to spread awareness about this kind of stuff going on, and the plot from heartstopper.

What if Nick didn't follow Charlie after rugby practice? (Season 1)
• I put a little twist on it thanks to greenappleboydraco  Request!

Charlie huffed in frustration as his phone kept buzzing every couple of seconds when he was trying to get changed for rugby practice.
It went off so much that even Nick noticed, which was embarrassing as fuck. As soon as practice was over, Charlie rushed to the locker room before everyone else and hit the first notification that popped up, not expecting it to be a call from a number he didn't recognize.

"Hello?" Charlie answered and chewed his lip anxiously.

Anxiety washed over him during the whole practice when Ben kept texting him. Why couldn't Ben just leave him alone?

"Hey, it's Harry Greene. Ben told me to let you know that he wanted to meet up with you when practice is over for some reason." Harry explained.

Charlie rubbed his face in confusion.

could this day get any weirder? Why the fuck was Harry Greene out of all people calling him?? He didn't understand.

"Okay?... Why are you calling me?" Charlie asked, "You could've just gone up to me and told me in the locker room. We are at the same practice." He said, getting annoyed.

"I could've, but Ben told me to call you since you weren't answering his texts. Meet him at the music block." Harry said.

Charlie rolled his eyes and hung up the phone. The fact that Ben got Harry involved was ridiculous. He had to meet up with Ben now, to tell him to leave him alone if doing it over messages didn't work.

"Hey, you okay?" Nick's voice startled Charlie out of his thoughts.

Charlie looked up to see Nick looking at him with worry in his eyes.

"Yeah, fine." Charlie mumbled and grabbed his bag, "I got to go I'm meeting up with someone. See you later." He rambled as he gathered his belongings, before rushing out of the locker room.

God, he was so embarrassed.

Why did he have to be so awkward anytime he talked to Nick?! He just wanted the day to be over. Luckily it was going to be after he met up with Ben. He had to get that over with.

Charlie walked into the music block, taking a deep breath. His gut was screaming at him to leave and not go to talk to Ben.

"You're wearing a coat? It's not even cold." Ben scuffed as Charlie walked into the room.

"It's February." Charlie sighed.

"Lame." Ben rolled his eyes at that.

"What do you want Ben?" Charlie stepped back, trying to keep their distance.

Ben tried to walk up to Charlie to rub his face, but Charlie quickly stepped back and shoved Ben's arm away.

"Don't touch me," Charlie said sternly.

"God! What's your problem? I'm trying to be nice." Ben said in annoyance as Charlie rejected him.

"I said I don't want to meet up with you anymore," Charlie repeated, agitated.

"Yeah, I don't believe you." Ben scuffed. "What?" Charlie asked in disbelief.

"You're just scared of getting caught."

"Why would I be scared of getting caught? Everyone at school already knows I'm gay! You're the one who's scared of getting caught! You can't even look at me when other people are around. Not to mention the fact that you have a girlfriend." Charlie began to rant.

Ben looked startled. "Yeah, I've seen you with her at the school gate. Thanks for telling me, oh wait...you didn't." Charlie finished.

"Don't be angry at me for not wanting to come out yet!" Ben said in defense.

"I'm not angry about that. If you're figuring stuff out fine take your time, I would've been there for you. Don't you think I of all people would understand you figuring out your sexuality!"

"Then why are you angry at me!?"

"I'm angry because you never even slightly cared about my feelings! We only ever meet up where you want to when you want to. When you feel like kissing a boy! You don't care about me at all!!"

"Well it's not like anyone else is going to want to go out with you is it?" Ben said, gaslighting to catch Charlie off guard.

When Charlie looked down to try to fight the tears that formed in his eyes, that's when Ben snapped.

Ben slammed Charlie up against the wall, not caring that the younger tensed in discomfort.

"Don't!" Charlie tried as Ben kissed him again. "Charlie, I know you like me," Ben said as he made his way to kiss Charlie's jaw and Neck.

"Stop it!!" Charlie was interrupted as Ben kissed him forcefully.

"Charlie look I like you, but I'm figuring stuff out literally what more do you want from me!?" Ben huffed. Ben had gripped Charlie's coat in fists keeping him up against the wall Charlie tried to get out of Ben's grip, but it was hard when his wrists were being held up against his head.

What was happening?

He could barely comprehend what was going on.

Why did Ben want to do this to him? He didn't know what to do, he felt like he was going to sob at any second as Ben continued to kiss him.

Charlie didn't want this.

Charlie didn't want Ben.

"Stop!! I said STOP!" Charlie cried and managed to get his wrists out of Ben's grip, shoving him back.

His flight or fight instincts kicked in as Ben tried to grab him again. He punched Ben hard, causing the older teen to gasp in shock.

When Ben stepped back, Charlie grabbed his bag being ready to use it as a shield before running out. He was grateful that he could run fast, he made it to the bus stop in a couple of minutes. Once Charlie sat down, he let the tears he's been holding roll down his cheeks.

What the fuck just happened?

Charlie's mind went static as he began to sob into his hands. He felt like the floor was opening up and he would fall into a never-ending dark void. He was falling and didn't know how to stop to get up again.

Why did this happen to him?

Did he deserve it?

The bus ride felt fast. Once Charlie got home, he ignored his parent's greetings. He went right to hide away in his bedroom.

All he wanted to do was hide under his covers, to sleep away the pain.

Charlie changed out of his school uniform, he felt so disgusted. He needed to shower, to get the feeling of Ben's hands off of him.

Why did Ben do that to him?

"Char?" Tori peaked into Charlie's bedroom to check on him.

She could tell that something was wrong when he rushed upstairs not wanting to talk to their parents. He usually always made sure to treat them and get a snack when he got home from school.

"Yeah?" Charlie asked. He started to gather stuff he needed for his shower, trying to avoid eye contact with his sister. He knew as soon as he looked at her, she would know that he wasn't okay.

"You ignored Mom and Dad and didn't get a snack like you usually do. What's wrong?" Tori quizzed. she leant against the doorframe, sipping her glass of lemonade.

Charlie looked up at her, he let the tears whelm in his eyes. He could never lie to Tori, she was always there for him. "Uhm, I met up with someone after rugby practice and it didn't go well." He explained quietly.

"What do you mean by...It didn't go well?" Tori demanded and sat on Charlie's bed, her eyes filled with worry.

Charlie anxiously fiddled with his sleeve. "I have been seeing this guy who's a year older then me. He isn't ready to come out yet so we were keeping it a secret. But then I saw him kissing a girl at the school gate...I met up with him to tell him I didn't want to meet up anymore and..." his eyes watered again.

"And?..." Tori asked in worry.

"And...H-He...He assaulted me." Charlie whispered. Tori's face fell and she went pale. She tackled Charlie into a hug.

Charlie hugged back tightly and began to sob. "You got to tell the office and report him." Tori said as she hugged Charlie close. She didn't ask about what happened exactly or who did it, she didn't want to overwhelm him. But she definitely will later.

"I know." Charlie whispered and hid in Tori's shoulder, trying to calm down.

"Can you...just continue to hug me for now?" He begged, desperate for comfort.

Tori nodded and pulled Charlie closer knowing that's what he needed.