It's been two years. Two fucking years already. I tried so hard to get over Tae, but I just can't. He's always stuck in my mind.

Yeah, it's been two years, I should've gotten over him a long time ago. But no, Tae is special to me. I can't just let him go like that.

I know it's my fault that I made him leave..that's why I'm still looking for him to tell him that I still love him, that I want him to be with me and that I will never leave him again.

I just want to hug him tightly and apologize to him until the day I die. I want to kiss him passionately and tell him that I love him.

I just want him in my arms again. I want to feel his warmth that I miss so much.

I sighed and set the coffee on the table.

"Yah, stop being depress", Yoongi said.

Yoongi is still mad about me making Tae leave. I mean I understand, I would be pissed too.

"Shut up", I said coldly.

He scoffed.

"Why are you depressed though? Shouldn't Tae be the one depressed", he said while crossing his arms.

I sighed and ignored his question. Our friendship may break in the future. Yoongi and I don't really get along with each other, that's why we don't talk much together.

But we did grew up together and the rest of the others.

You know ever since Tae and Hoseok left, our group has been quiet. Those two were like the sunshines of the group and now look, I ruined it.

I sighed once again and looked out the window.

"Did you guys order yet?", Jin asked while sitting next to me.

Namjoon sat next to Jin, while Jimin sat next to Yoongi.

I didn't answer. I was too busy watching the people walk by that I didn't realize the others were calling me.

"Jeon Jungkook!", Namjoon called.

"A-Ah, what is it?", I asked quickly.

He sighed.

"Never mind"

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The others were busy eating, while I sat there, still staring out the window. I didn't even touch or look at my plate of food yet.

I was about to turn around to the others, but my eyes caught a certain boy with dark brown hair. He was with another person with hazel color hair.

They were just across the street, sitting at a table, while eating and chatting. I focused on the two for awhile. I couldn't really see their faces, but I swear to god that those two were Tae and Hoseok.

"Jin", I called.

He hummed for me to continue.

"Doesn't that look like Tae and Hoseok?", I asked while pointing the direction the other two were at.

He focused on where I was pointing for awhile and sighed.

"You might be hallucinating again", he said.

"No I'm serious, the side of them looks like Tae and Hoseok, if they weren't so far away from us, I know you'll believe me"

"Why don't you go over there and see for yourself then, hm? You're just going to embarrass yourself when it's not actually them", Yoongi said.

I glared at him.

"You know what, I will go over there"

I sat up and walked out the restaurant. I started walking towards the other restaurant across.

I swear those two are them. I'm not hallucinating or anything. The others never believe me.

I was about to walk in, but the door was soon opened by Hoseok. The two were about to walk out, but stopped when they saw me.

"J-Jungkook?", Tae said in shock.

We all moved to the side for other people.

"I finally found you", I said.

"What do yo-", I cut him off by bringing him into a tight hug.

"Yah", Hoseok said.

I let go of the hug and looked at him. I watched him wrap his arm around Tae's waist.

"Don't touch my lover"

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"You guys are engaged?!", Jin yelled.

Hoseok nodded with a smile.

"I-I can't believe this", Jin said while walking back and forth.

"I mean this is a big celebration, I have to prepare the cake, the decorations, your guys outfits"

"You don't have to do that Jin", Tae said while laughing.

"But I want to", he said with a pout.

"Okay okay, but if you get tired of it, don't complain to us", Tae said.

I guess he did move on. He moved on to that bastard. I glared at him for awhile, but soon looked away from the soon-to-be-married-couple.

I just can't with these feelings. Watching Tae walk down the aisle to a man he is going to be married to is so painful.

I'm supposed to be the one to propose to him, I'm the one who was supposed to tell him to be my loving husband, I'm the one who was supposed to tell him that I will never leave him and that I will love him till death.

I screw this up. I screw everything up.

"Jungkook", Namjoon called.

I looked at him. He signaled me to go outside. I did what he said because I can't stay in there watching my ex-lover being all happy with another man.

He soon came out and closed the door.

"You good?", he asked.

"..I-I don't know", I said while looking down.

He sighed.

"Look Jungkook, I know it hurts, okay? But you have to learn to get over him, I know he has a special spot in your heart, but look, he's happy now, and if he's happy, then you should be happy too"

"But I want him to be happy with me, I've been looking for him for two years, two goddamn years Namjoon, do you know how hard it is to watch your lover marry another man? Do you know how painful that is?"

I started feeling tears come down my cheeks.

"Jungkook-", I cut him off.

"I know this is my fault, I shouldn't have told him that we should stop seeing each other, I just screw everything up!"

I clenched my fist tightly.

"I don't even wanna live anymore", I said lowly.

Namjoon soon pulled me into a hug. He rubbed my back slowly.

"Calm down Jungkook", he said softly.

I couldn't hold back the rest of my tears anymore. I clenched his shirt tightly. I cried hard on his shoulder. I cried so hard that I couldn't breathe right.

"Yah, calm down Jungkook, just calm down", Namjoon said while still rubbing my back.

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A month has passed. I sat outside of the church and stared up at the beautiful white flowers on the trees.

The wedding has already ended. The others were inside helping cleaning. I'll go help them soon, but for right now, I need some fresh air and some alone time.

It was hard for me watching Tae being married to another man. But like what Namjoon said, if he's happy, then I should be happy too.

"Ah, there you are"

I looked where the voice was coming from. Tae took a seat next to me and looked up at the flowers.

"Aren't they beautiful", he said.

He let out a soft smile. I couldn't help but stare. He was so beautiful with his long eyelashes, his pink rosy cheeks, and his light pink plump lips. He looked at me, which made me look away quickly.

"Tae", I called.

"Yes?"

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry for what I did to you back then, I put you through so much pain..I'm just..really sorry", I said.

He sighed.

"Hey, that was two years ago, no need to worry about it, okay?", he smiled softly.

"How can I not worry about it Tae? You know I still love you so much, watching what happened today was so painful, you know that?"

He stared at me for awhile. He took something out of his pocket. He grabbed my hand and set the object in my hand.

"It's a necklace with the first letter in our names on it, I got it for us awhile back, but I didn't get a chance to give it to you"

I looked down at the necklace that had the letter T on it.

"Jungkook"

I looked up at him.

"I may be married to someone else who makes me happy, who makes me feel wanted, who makes me feel loved by them, but for you Jungkook, you still have a special spot in my heart"

"You've been in my heart from the beginning Tae, you've always been special to me", I said.

He chuckled.

"You're still the same", he said.

"What do you mean?"

"Still the cheesy Jungkook"

"What? You're cheesy too", I said.

"I know, but I make it sound cool"

I scoffed, but soon laughed.

"Come on, let's go help the others", he said and sat up.

"I'll come later", I said.

He nodded and walked back inside. I looked at the necklace and smiled.

Okay yeah, Hoseok and Tae are now married. But that doesn't mean I can't stop loving him. Don't worry, I'm not going to try to get him back, but I know I'm not going to ever replace Tae, because nobody can ever replace him.

The End

Pt.1

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(A/N)

'Angry, hungry, yes I'm hangry'

I stayed up till 6am.