My life was kind of different, Nothing stayed with me forever. Like my parents died when i was six, I was sent to an orphanage when none of my family members ready to accept me by then. I wasn't aware it was an orphanage until, when my friend, I mean my roommate adopted by some couple. I started to feel alone. Actually that was the day when i started to think about my life. What am i doing? which direction my life is moving? over then, I realized, we are the people who have nobody to drive their life and show them the correct direction. Whatever you want, You want to do it on your own, You have to go to the driver seat, hold the steering wheel, and decide what you have to do. That spot, I have decided what should i become in life. And whatever i was going through, i won't take them, FOREVER. 

It became a slogan of my life, That i won't die like that. And moreover, I won't be jealous of anyone. But i don't know, My fate has other plans for me. And I reached my first milestone, Admission in one of the best schools in India which ranked in the top three over that time. I got a 90% scholarship. The orphanage was ready to pay me only 5%. For the rest, I got a part-time job in a restaurant which was close to the school hostel. Everything was perfect, just perfect. Until I saw her. - shivaay stopped but anika had an answer. 

"Angel!" - She spelt. 

"Yeah, Angel... My Angel..." - Shivaay started again. 

"It was the first day in my school, I entered with lots of questions in my head. Nothing was proper according to me, Everyone on their uniforms, But none of them is uni-form. Weird looks, Disgusting gazes, Sarcastic laughs reduced my confident scale to the minus level. I went to my classroom, None of the class students was ready to share the seat with me. The air over there started to suffocate, I couldn't even stand there for another one hour. 

The climate was chill, Then too, I was sweating. It was like i got a panic attack and nobody including teachers were caring to take it seriously. For a second, I concluded. That place, That atmosphere weren't my cup of tea. As soon as the first class got over, I rushed to the washroom. Thankfully there was nobody. I locked one of the restrooms and started to cry. I had no idea, whether i was crying that my dream got trashed or Because of the inferiority. But i cried for the first time all over my heart. I thought there was no hope left to achieve the dreams in my life, Over then, That spot, My entire life changed..." - Shivaay said with a smile thinking about his beautiful past. 

What happened?- Anika asked.

That was not boys washroom but girls" - Shivaay said, Anika was shocked. 

what?" - Anika asked. 

"I recognized that it was the girls' restroom when two girls entered inside while talking. They were talking about something, But when one of the girls took the name of 'weirdo newcomer' My brain automatically started to hear the conversation.

"Have you seen his uniform, Yuck... I heard he's got ninty percentage of scholarship, What happened to the management? How can they give admission to someone classless?" - One of that girl said in a hard tone, which hit straight into my heart. 

"Yeah, The school management has some brain that's why they gave him 90 per cent of scholarship, Unlike you judgmental people, who give marks to the people according to the class where they belong... I hope that guy really has some charisma in him, That's why The student from the commerce department talking about a biology student... You're right, He's weird, Thankfully, He's not one of those jerks, Who afraid of talents..." - The other girl said in a sarcastic tone. I was surprised, But those words raised my turned down confidence. I was ready, At least, Someone in the school actually wishing me good, And have some trust in me. How could i prove her wrong? I trashed all the thoughts of leaving the school and gone back to the class with new confidence. I know it's a coincidence, But That day, I felt actually someone is there in my life, and I am not alone in this world..."  - Shivaay said. Tears Crossed his eyes while saying the last line. This time, Anika went towards him and wiped off his tears. She didn't tell any word but understood his condition. 

"Then?" - Anika asked It's more like a whisper. 

"Then?" - He asked her. 

"When did you meet her?" - Anika asked him. 

"Guess!" - He asked her. 

"That evening? I guess..." - Anika guessed. He chuckled. 

"Not even at that year..." - He told and her eyes came out in shock. 

"What the hell?" - She exclaimed. 

"I mean i saw her on that day itself but it takes one whole year for her to meet me..." - He said with a smile. 

"Aren't you feeling ashamed to say this to me, doc?" - Anika asked while raising her eyebrow in disbelief.

"It's very easy to comment... But you never knew, In which position, I was in... Her gaze, My God, It's like thousand-watt of electricity... Leave meeting her, I wasn't even around her. I maintained a ten-meter distance with her... " - Shivaay started to argue with her. 

"My god, Doc... You're impossible..." - Anika signed in disbelief.

"But she had some doubt about me..." - Shivaay said.

"How?" - Anika asked. 

"I used to work in a restaurant where she used to come with her friends in the evening. During that time, I personally go to the kitchen And prepare the dish which she orders on my own... She used to lick her fingers after eating that..." - Shivaay said with a proud face. But Anika wasn't pleased with his behaviour. 

"Doc, Seriously... What's the point of preparing her favourite food when she had no idea who did that for her... " - Anika asked him. 

"You never understand the feeling i used to get when she takes every bite with a smile in the corner of her mouth... That smile belongs to me... Only mine..." - Shivaay said while thinking about the past in the meantime. Anika became silent. She had nothing to say, But the happiness in his face said many things to her more than he actually said. 

"It means you never tried to talk with her at least once..." - Anika asked him. 

"The more i love her the more i get afraid of her... She's a gem, But who am i? An orphan... I know i don't deserve her..." - He said. 

"You think like that, You know what i think. If she's the moon, You're the sky. Both are incomplete without each other..." - Words spelt from anika's mouth without her knowledge hearing him which aroused silence around them. He looked deep into her eyes but didn't say anything. 

"Okay! It's already late... Take rest..." - Shivaay said and stood up from his place. 

"What? No! What about the rest of the story?" - Anika exclaimed in disappointment. 

"Tomorrow..." - Shivaay said and gave her the tablets which she should take before sleeping. Anika snatched that from his hands and had them. Shivaay couldn't stop himself from smiling at her. 

"Take a rest... I will come tomorrow morning..." - shivaay said. 

"At least, tell me how you gather up the courage to meet her?" - Anika pleaded him with an innocent tone.

"Who said i gather up the courage to meet her? She came to meet me..." - Shivaay said with a smile. 

"What? how? why? where?" - Anika asked. 

"Tomorrow, Anika" - Shivaay said and went out of the ward. 

"I already experienced Cliffhanger for the real, Doc... Please don't kill me with the suspense" - Anika yelled at her high pitch, Shivaay acted like covering his ears and moved out of the ward with a smile. Where anika, on the other hand, threw the tissue box to him, but she held back. She desperately wanted to know, What would have happened next. But no other way, She had to wait till tomorrow. 

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