Dear Jeongin,

If you're reading this, that means that something went wrong. I obviously don't know where it went wrong, but at least it wasn't the heart transplant, right? I'm obviously writing this after I got the heart transplant, so excuse me. Anyway, it's kind of weird to talk like I've already died, but here I am doing it anyway.

As weird as this is going to sound, I truly believe I'll go out in your arms. You always joked that I was too cute for you, but I truly believe it'll end up being the other way around. You're constantly making my heart race even if it's not intentional, which in the long run isn't all that great for me. Either way it seems like it'd be the best way to go out.

Continuing on though, that wasn't at all the point of this letter, if there even is a point. To start us off though, I may or may not have seen the engagement ring in your closet one day when I was grabbing one of your hoodies. I know we may be dating, but please do come out of the closet with that soon.

Anyway, there are a few small things that I'd like you to know by the end of this letter. Whenever we go on walks together, the way that the sun reflects off your eyes makes them shine so brilliantly. They're honestly the prettiest things I've ever seen, and they seem to light up even more when there's a dog in sight. How could you ever hate your eyes? Another thing is cuddling with you is like heaven to me. The way you wrap your arms around my waist and intertwine your legs with mine, the way I could easily hear the sound of your heart beating so steadily, the way you make me feel safe, all of those combined is nothing short of the best feeling ever.

But my main point of this letter is that I love you. Honestly, I was going to buy an engagement ring to propose to you, but then I saw the one you had for me in your closet. Although this letter means that I'm gone, I really do wish that we can spend our whole lives together, but since you're reading this, I'm sorry that I couldn't be stronger.

I'm sorry I wasn't always able to be there for you, and I'm so sorry that things had to end like this, even if I don't quite know how this is. Just, please, try to continue on. You deserve the whole world, and I'm sorry that I couldn't always be what you called your world. Jeongin, I'm sorry.

Love,

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