gone

11 years

That's how much of a difference we have

We grew up

We shared our love

Of course we had our ups and downs

When I got sent to that hospital after you baby sat me

Or when you said mind your own beeswax

I still loved you

You were my half brother

But I always called you my full brother

Because that is what you were.

A full loving brother

But that didn't stop you

You left me!

You left all of us

I texted you but got no reply

You dropped out of high school

You never could pay your rent

In all of this you refused to come...

Home

And it broke my heart

I need you

Now you have a bad name in our family

I asked daily if I'd like to become like you

Sadly I always say no.

I don't want to work in maxi

Drop out of school and never ever become a teacher

I'm sorry that you left us

That you are gone

But it doesn't have to be like this

I might not remember your face

But I remember your words

I love you

Maybe you aren't so gone

Maybe that doctor who shirt is the way

You say I want to come home

But we shall never know

All of us really believe after you left

For your mothers

My step mom

That you are gone forever

And I refuse to believe that

And j never will

Because I love you big brother