Feeling off
Not feeling at all.
The time goes so slow
Zoned out of time

The past few weeks have been a blur
Not the surreal kind
The numbing kind
Not having  energy.

Feeling nothing.
Motivation gone
Numbing to life
As I sit here sipping my coffee.

My sleep, poor.
My eating, also poor.
4am nights follows
Coffee filled days.

I'm hurting the one I love
Worried they'll leave.
Staying up against their will..
Nothing more then. Wanting to talk

Feeling like I'm going numb.
Not good at all.
I just wanna hug
Unable to. Happen

4207 miles away, 5 hours apart.
My 2 am  is their  good night
Scared to go numb
Scared to loose them.

I sit here holding back tears
As I sit here sipping my cup of coffee
Feeling lonely
Feeling lost