Warning: So this chapter is a little different from my usual stories since it's more 'adult' with a steamy scene but it's what happens during it the main reason for writing it. Also this part of the story where it's two years it's later is focusing on an adult verison of Thalia who's trying to survive as a adult. She's not a teenager anymore. It's not too graphic, I think it's a very soft scene since I never write chapters like this and it'll probably suck. Not use to writing steamy scenes but thought I'll still give a heads up!

We were quickly walking down an alley way when Rian had enough of me not talking or responding to him. He grabbed my arm and turned me to face him, "Thalia, talk to me!" he said, almost begging.

I pulled away, "What the hell were you doing going there? That was a Jaguar hang out."

His eyes widen, "What?" he said, clearly unaware of that. I stared up at him for a moment, my heart quickly rushing in my chest. All these feelings came back as I looked up at him. I wanted to hug him so badly, tell him I miss him, and lets pick up where it stopped but I knew I can't do that. I left to protect him and to get out of his life. It's wrong to just come back in and ruin his life. "What were you doing there?"

I looked away as I brought my hand up behind my neck, "I work there. Tonight was my first night."

"You're only eighteen though." he said.

I looked back up at him as I crossed my arms over my chest, "Age doesn't matter when your a Jaguar,Rian."

"Oh." he said. He looked down at me all the way, "I almost didn't recognize you. Your hair different and your clothes. Your stomach is so tone and I swear your boobs weren't that big last time-"

"Rian," I said, stepping towards him and he looked up at my face. "Why are you here? In the city, I mean."

"I go to Columbia for school in Upper Manhattan. I did say I always wanted to go to New York." he said. He stared down at my as he breathed out heavily, "You're eyes. . .their amazing." I brought my hand up under my left eye, realizing they must still be silver. "Thalia, I missed you so much-"

I walked away, "Rian, don't do that. Just go back home, it's not safe here in Brooklyn at night-"

He grabbed my arm, "Thalia, wait. I haven't seen you in over two years and you wanna separate again?"

I scoffed, "Yes. We should never see each other again. My life is a mess and I shouldn't drag you into it. Go back to your normal life."

"Let me decide if I wanna have you in my life or not." he said coldly. "You think it's best for me but last I checked it's my life. Do you want me in your life?"

I stared up at him for a moment, "You don't understand,Rian. I'm a Jaguar, I can't be with a human. It's to dangerous for you. Now go back to your private school, find a good girl, get married, and have a normal life." I said before walking away.

"Who are you to choose what I do in my life?" he asked, making me freeze. "I don't care, Thalia. I been going out of my mind about you these last two years. I don't think I'll ever be able to be with another girl."

I brought my hands up to my face and groaned, "Rian, you're so naïve!" I turned around as I walked back over towards him and hit his shoulder, "You're so god damn stubborn to. Why can't you realize apart of why I left is so you wouldn't be in danger? Jaguars eat humans Rian and I won't be able to forgive myself if something ever happened to you because of me. I don't care what you say, you're going back to school and-" I cut myself off when I smelt something in the air. I looked across the alley where we entered and saw two Jaguars walking by. They stopped to look at us confused and I bared my teeth at them to keep walking which they did. I grabbed Rian hand, "Come on, we shouldn't be here at night. It's not safe."

*

The subway train was a little crowded but it was a Friday night.Rian and I had to stand up on the train since all the seats were full. I was riding with him back to Manhattan and walking him to his dorms just in case no Jaguars would follow him. I knew Rian was safe with the mark on his neck but knowing he's here in the city made me very paranoid and protective of him.

The train jerked and the man behind Rian was drunk so he fell on Rian.Rian groaned, pushing the man away.Rian rolled his eyes, holding onto the pole again with a hard look on his face. He hasn't looked at me since we got on the train.

"Rian-"

"Don't." he coldly said, not looking at me and I frowned. "Don't sound all sweet when you're pushing me out of your life again. I have no say what goes on, so I'll act like a child if I want."

"I don't see why it's bothering you so much. We hardly knew each other, it was only three weeks." I told him and he was quiet for a moment. "Yet so much happened in three weeks."

"Things did." he said. He looked down at me finally with those cold hard green eyes, "I didn't want you to go."

"I know but I had to." I told him. "Ander left you alone, right? He didn't bother you?"

He snorted, "Only in the beginning but he suddenly just stopped."

"I was worried he might have done something stupid." I admitted to him. I opened my mouth to speak but the train jerked again and I lost my balance. If ell towards Rian but he grabbed me and steady me. I quickly stood up, "Uh. . .thanks." I said as I grabbed the pole. His hands were still on my waist and I lowered my head because I knew looking into those beautiful eyes wasn't a good idea. I put my hand on his chest, trying to push him away, "Move your hands Rian."

"I wish I had the balls to tell you something before you left." he said, confusing me and I looked up at him. He stared down at me for a moment, trying to speak. He swallowed the hard lump in his throat, "I should have told you I loved you. Maybe if you knew how I felt you would have stayed."

"Oh." I said but didn't know what else to really say or how to respond to that so I just looked up at him. He lowered his head down to kiss me but I turned my head away and lowered it. I bit the inside of my cheek, "I'm sorry." I whispered to him.

*

Rian and I went up in the elevator of his dorm apartments in awkward silence and a foot away from each other. When the door opened, he stepped out but I grabbed his hand quickly, "Rian. . .it was nice to see you though. To know you're okay. You're future seems bright, that's good."

"Did you love me?" he asked, making me quiet. "Thalia?"

I took a deep breathe, "Yes, I do." I meant to say did but that would be a lie because I still do. I love Rian enough to give him up because he deserve better. Rian must have caught that-jeez he's smart-because his eyes widen slightly. When the elevator doors started to close he came inside and I stepped back until I hit the wall. He put his hands on each side of me and kissed me hard on the mouth.

I should have pushed him away and tell him that wasn't a good idea but I didn't. I brought my arms up around his neck and leaned up closer towards him. His hands went behind my back as he kissed me hard on the mouth. I couldn't help it when I bit his bottom lip a little but he didn't move away. He chuckled, lightly nipping my bottom lip before he kissed me.

The doors to the elevator opened and we turned to look at the group of surprised college guys. One of them chuckled, "Uh, we'll take the other one." he said before the doors closed. Rian quickly pressed the button for his floor before he kissed me again. I brought my hands down to his neck and chest, my nail softly scratching against his chest over the clothes.

When the doors opened he pulled away and took my hand as he pulled me out of the elevator. He gently pressed me against the wall next to the elevator as he kissed me and a knot formed in my stomach as I breathed slightly heavily. He kissed down my neck, his tongue darting out and chills went down my back.

One of my hands went up behind his head and I gripped onto his dark hair. I opened my eyes, a purring sound coming out. There was a large window in the hallway and I could see the bright moon up in the sky with some clouds. Rian pressed his body against mine, making me softly moan as I closed my eyes.

He pulled me away from the wall and went over towards a door. He kissed me on the lips again as he reached in his back pocket and tried to put the key in the lock but he was having a hard time. I chuckled at him as he grinned before the key went in and he unlocked the door. The door opened and we went in the dark room. I walked backwards until my legs hit a bed and I fell back.

Rian mouth traveled down my neck as his arm reached out and he turned on the lamp that was on a nightstand next to the bed. I sat up a little and quickly took my jacket off. I laid back down on the bed as he went between my legs. When I turned my head a little I noticed another bed in the room, "Y-you have a roommate." I said.

He chuckled, "Thanks for telling me that Captain Obvious." he said before he lifted his head up. "Don't worry, he usually spends the weekends at his girlfriend apartment."

I woke up from the daze and I propped myself up on my elbows, "Do you have a girlfriend?"

He shook his head, "No. Actually, I never had a girlfriend. It's always been flings before I met you." he said, leaning down and pecked me. "I haven't been with another girl since you."

I peck him as my hand came up behind his neck, "Bullshit. It's okay to tell me,Rian. I'm not gonna be mad, you're free to do whatever you want. Doesn't mean it won't make me a little jealous though."

He laughed quickly before looking down at me seriously, "I tried, Thalia. I tried moving on when you left but I couldn't do it for some reason. When I tried hooking up with a girl, I said your name during and she got pissed. She smacked me and left. That's when I realized I became whipped for a girl. I spent so much time in my room like a depressed little goth kid before my dad talked to me. He noticed how different I was acting with you and knew it must have deeply cared for you. Senior year came and I focused allot on school. Turns out I'm actually pretty smart if I pay attention. Psychology became my favorite class since I understood it and I was able to name allot of problems with my dysfunctional family. That's what I'm taking here at Columbia. To do Engineering Psychology. Oh my roommate thinks I'm a virgin since I haven't hooked up with anyone in the last three months I been here."

"That must have made your dad happy." I said, chuckling.

He shrugged, "He didn't seem to argue when I told him. What are you doing lately?"

I awkwardly chuckled, "I spend all day with my cat Little Shadow and now working at night as a bartender at the club with my Aunt Hala."

"Little Shadow?" he questioned, looking amused.

I hit him, "Hey, shut up! I rescued him from Jaguars who ate his siblings and he likes to go everywhere with me. He's totally in love with me."

"Oh really?" he asked. "Is he's more adorable than me?"

I giggled, "Oh very, so much more adorable." I said, making him laugh.

He smiled down at me, "So good to finally laugh. A real laugh."

"I saw you earlier laughing with your foods at Elizabeth's Park." I said.

His eyes widen, "I knew that was you! I thought my eyes were just playing with me." he said. "Yeah I was laughing but doesn't mean I was happy. I'm happy at this moment."

I smiled up at him as I brought my hands up to his neck and I leaned up, kissing him. I laid back down, bringing him along with me. I lowered my mouth down to his neck, kissing and sucking on his neck. His hands went down my waist before his hands gripped.

He chuckled softly as I slid his jean vest down his arms, "So can you meow?" he asked, making me giggle.

He lifted himself up a little as he started to lift his shirt up. I unbuckled his belt as he lifted my shirt up. His fells fell down around his waist as I leaned closer, kissing on his stomach and I felt his fingers go in my hair. He put his hands on my shoulders and pulled me down on the bed. He lifted himself up and ran my hands down his chest. He didn't have rock hard abs but he did seem to work out with a pretty good V-line going down into his pants.

He kissed down my neck, his tongue moving along also that sent chills down my arm. His mouth moved down towards my breast while he reached one hand under my back and tried to unhooked my bra. I chuckled a little as I lifted myself up and his other hand came around to help. When it came off, I laid back down and brought my hand up behind his hair. I softly breathed out as I felt his mouth my skin and kissed down my stomach. One hand came up to my breast and my other hand came up to his hand.

He reached down towards my pants with his other hand and unbutton it. And tugged them off along with my underwear. I brought my legs up shyly because he wasn't down close to there last time. I jerked a little when I felt his hand touch me and he came back up. He kissed me hard on the mouth and I moaned as his fingers moved. Something knotted in my stomach, making my grip on his hair tighten. I took in a small breath as I felt his finger move a little faster before I felt one goes inside of me for a moment until another went inside of me. I felt his finger rub against me, he slid his fingers in and out of me slowly at first before his pace quickened a little, and he moved his mouth down to my breast.

My nails went to his back, piercing into his skin a little as I pressed the palm of my hands into his back. I tilt my head back as my breathing got heavier. His fingers were doing a nice job but this urging feeling of wanting more was taking over. I grabbed his arms and lifted him up. I brought my hips up a little, my legs riding up a little. He groaned against my lips, his tongue darting into my mouth.

He reached down and pulled his jeans all the way down. He positioned himself against me and I held onto his arms. He didn't make it quick going inside, he did it slowly because which kind of annoyed me. The first time, it did hurt in the beginning but being me-a Silver Jaguar who can heal pretty quickly-it felt good after a few moments.

The whole slowly thing was getting annoying so I brought my hips up every time he moved inside of me to hint for him to go quicker. I lifted himself up, looking slightly surprised but quickly went along with it. He finally moved quickly, making me moan loudly so I closed my mouth so no one in the hallway would hear me just in case. I brought my hands up to his shoulders and couldn't help but press my nails into his skin.

His head quickly darted to the left where my hand was sinking into his skin. My left foot pressed down against the couch so I could turn us over quickly. Rian eyes widen at how quick I was and I moved my hands down to his chest as I moved ontop of him. His hands slid up my arms and up to my hair. He pulled me down and I kissed him hard on the mouth. He moved one of his hands down to my waist and helped me move faster and harder on him. I moaned through the kiss, softly crying at how good it felt and knot in my stomach tighten even more.

I felt this-lets say calling feeling-and I turned my head quickly towards where a window was. Rian kissed on my neck, his teeth slightly grazing my skin as sucked on my neck. The curtain was open enough for me to see the moon and I felt myself lose a little control.

I growled-I actually growled a little in my throat. My eyes were tickling a little and I knew I should stop this but the feeling was so amazing. It was so blissful with it being with Rian and the moonlight. I lifted myself up, bring Rian along with me. I wrapped my arms around his neck, crying out as I moved quickly. Rian gripped my hips, holding onto me as his mouth moved down to my breast, his groaning was as loud as my panting and crying out.

My head fell back and I reached one arm back to lean against his thigh. My teeth itched as they slowly length a little and sharpened. Inside my head, I knew I should stop. My mind was work, it really was but my body was doing it's own thing. I lifted my head up and Rian did to. His eyes widen slightly as he looked at me.

I quickly went down towards his neck, "Thalia!" he yelled out in a panic when my fangs were only an inch away. I stopped and freeze up but I wasn't in total control of my body. I need for blood was strong at the moment and I was fighting with myself to not sink my teeth into his neck. Tears stung my eyes and I let my head fall down to his shoulders as I softly cried in desperate need for blood. Pain filled my stomach so my arms touched my stomach and I just wanted the burning sensation to go away from my throat. My face scrunched up in pain and I lowered my head to look away from him.Rian put his hands on my shoulders and pulled me away slightly, "It's okay, you're okay." He wiped my tear stain cheeks, "Is it. . .something you need?"

I ashamedly nodded, "I usually drink animal blood. It came after a month of my birthday. That need for blood. . .it's strong."

He stared at me for a moment before clearing his throat, "Can you control yourself?"

I nodded, "Yes. After a few sips usually work and goes away."

He hesitated for a moment, "Then bite me, it's okay."

I scoffed, "No! That's crazy,Rian. You're a human and your blood still in you. That's a huge risk."

He brought his hands to my arms, "You look in pain though. It's okay, I trust you."

I pushed my hair back with my fingers, "Well you shouldn't. I'm not sure how it'll go, I never drank from a human. I didn't suck your blood, I just tasted it before. This will be so much different."

"I'll pull you away if it gets to serious." he said, gently squeezing my arms. I opened my mouth to protest but he spoke, "Look, you look like you're in serious pain so just do it." he said, turning his head to where I had first bitten him. The two tiny scars on his throat was very faded but still was over where a artery was. I could see his artery beating quickly in his throat and my mouth watered up.Rian took a deep breath, closing his mouth.

I hesitated but the temptation was stronger so I leaned down and gently place my Jaguar teeth against his neck. My top and bottom canine teeth itched with excitement before I pressed and pierced his skin with the pointy teeth. He jerked, groaning a little.

I removed my mouth and the second his blood touched my tongue it seemed like everything in the room disappeared out of sight. His blood quickly poured out of throat into my mouth and I sucked gently on his skin. His blood was so sweet and warm-it was crazy amazing! So much better then microwaved heated up pig blood. That just filled the craving but this-this was like having your favorite meal after forever!

I started to move on Rian again, his hand gripping tightly on my waist. He was already breathing heavily from the bit but he actually moaned. The knot in my stomach tightened up again but quickly this time. I guess the blood was doing that. My nails went down his back,scratching his back pretty hard and he cried out a little. As I kept moving, the knot in my stomach tighten up and after a moment it just suddenly released and I cried out.

I panted against Riana little before my mouth went against his neck and Rian grabbed my arms, "Th-Thalia, you need to stop." he breathed out. I pushed him down on the bed, my mouth still against his bleeding throat. Rian tried to pull me away as I feed on him but I was stubborn. The blood and having sex was such an amazing experience. It was a dangerously intoxicating. Rian voice hard, "Thalia, stop it." he said. He lowered his voice now, "Thalia baby, you have to stop." he whispered as he tried to move head face to look at me.

My mouth wanted to keep drinking his blood but I forced my hands down on his chest and I lifted myself up without hesitation. I felt his warm blood dripping down my chin and some drops fell on his chest. I breathed heavily a little as I grabbed his chin and turned his head back away. His eyes widen but I wasn't going to bit his neck. When I leaned down, my wet tongue went across the wounds. My silvia wasn't going to totally heal the puncture holes but start the blood clotting to make it stop bleeding.

Rian heart was racing when I lifted myself up and he looked up at me wide eye. I got off of him and laid down on the bed next to him. My chest went up and down heavily as I stared up at the wall. I turned my head to Rian after a moment and he looked at me, "Thank you. I'll be able to survive without blood for awhile now."

We stayed quiet for a few moments before Rian asked, "So. . .wanna do it again? I didn't really get to finish the first time." he said, making me blush up but we both started chuckling softly as he brought me in his arms.

*

My head was laying on Rian chest when the sun was coming up. We were breathing out heavily after the last round and he held my close in his arms. "Jeez, worth waiting two years." he said. "And believe me, doing that was one of my favorite things."

It hit me hard in the face and I quickly sat up, "I should go." I started to get off the bed, "Oh God, I was out the whole night and Aunt Hala probably worried as hell-"

Rian grabbed my hand, "Wait Thalia, don't go." he said. He pulled me back down on the bed and I frowned since I was having such a hard time choosing if I should go or not. He reached for his jeans he wore last night and grabbed a cell phone, "Just call her and let her know where you are. Don't go." he said, those green eyes looking into mine and I quickly gave in.

I took the phone from him and called Aunt Hala but it only ranged and went to voicemail, "Hey Aunt Hala, it's me Thalia. I'm alright, I'm at a friends house that I use to work with." I said on the phone as Rian came behind me and kissed on my shoulders. I giggled but quickly stopped and pushed him away, "Uh-yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry, I'm fine and be home later."

I ended the voicemail and put the phone down. Rian grabbed my arms and pulled me down on top of him. I giggled, kissing him hard on the mouth. He moaned slightly before lifting me up a little, "Stop that. I'm tired for the night." he said, making me chuckle. I crawled under the blankets and he joined me. I rested my head on his chest and just wished time would end. His fingers played in my hair, "I really did miss you, Thalia. You completely changed me into a different person, everyone in Harmony noticed." he said, his voice getting lower and lower as he fell asleep and I was falling asleep to. I don't ever wanna let go of Rian Stark and I pray I never have to this time.