Y/N POV

"YOU ALL ARE DUFFERS! WHO!? WHO TOLD YOU ALL TO GO FOR THIS!? THIS IS MY LIFE, MY PROBLEMS SO WHO THE HELL ARE YOU ALL TO BARGE IN!?" I was shouting at the top of my voice up at the roof while the girls and the boys...which didn't include Taehyung, stood there with their heads low...ashamed of everything they did...

"So you Areum! What made you think that it's absolutely possible in a minute to fix a relationship like me and Tae had!?! Did you actually forget he is having-----" I couldn't complete as I broke down to the core thinking about Taehyung's present relationship status as well his lifestyle now.

He's a different person now...why aren't they understanding this...What have I done to deserve this ugh!

"Y/N we never meant to---

"Hurt me? Yeah sure! You all never meant to hurt me. But your heads full of dander let you all do it! NOW LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND DON'T YOU ALL DARE FOLLOW ME."

Just as I was passing by Areum a voice got my steps in a place.

"Y/N....."

I looked up only to be greeted by Taehyung's wet face...his eyes were red...his cute nose puffy because of crying.

The scene ahead made me forget all sorts of anger and grudge or any other negative emotion that I had upon him or anyone. I stared, and stared but soon, him coming closer to me, got me down to Earth.

A series of mixed emotions started attacking me again......

"Y/N....please...I am sorry....I lost control... I was too outraged and got jealous when I saw Yoongi hyung holding your hand back there. You know" I stared without sharing any words.
"You know I tried hard to make you see what's inside me for you...you know...those chocolates and b-bou..quets that I....used to...s-send....yes they were all from me.... I....really...really like you....a lot.....please.....don't let me down."

My heart never fluttered so much as if is doing now.... this is illegal....

But Wait! What!?!! So those bouquets.... Those chocolates.....the greeting cards.....love letters.....were all from him? And I thought they were my fans who gave them to me!?!

I was brought back to sense when he spoke again,

"I can wait as long as you want me to wait for your answer.... please...do think about it....."

And that was the last sentence I heard as I moved pass him to get back home as soon as possible.

This is getting hard to be honest. I need time to sort out my feelings.

After I was done with my work and stuffs, I packed my bag to leave for home. Home sweet home....

As I got down through the elevator, I saw two silhouettes.

I looked at my watch at it was already 11:48pm... Who's here at this hour!?

Curiosity burning in my bones, I tip toed to the front only to be greeted by something, A PERFECT LIE....

Taehyung and Mina.....smiling to each other as they together got into the car and drove away.

A tint of jealousy hit me hard. I don't know why...

And he says he loves me huh?

Flashback:

7 years back:

I expected that day to be a great one just like I expect everyday. The school corridor had busy students rushing here and there and it was tough to make way through them. All of a sudden voice calls..but there was something wrong with him.

"Morning Y/N...."

A morning that I never expected to come....or rather...the dullness in the voice that I had never anticipated to hear in such a grand morning.

A shy Tae approaches me , head hung low (I dunno why.)....then again no cheerfulness in his voice..which was noticeable and....was never looked forward to.

"Tae! What happened!? So dull today?"

People! Listen up! You can clearly expect dullness in weather or in your best friends or in any of your grumpy teacher... But is it expected from KIM TAEHYUNG!? My answer, NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS! Something's definitely wrong. If not anyone , I do smell it!

"Uhm...Y-Y/N.... Can we me-meet on the roof today? Obviously whenever you're free.."

"Roof---" The school bell rang signalling the end of free moments as we rush back to our classes.

"Hoping for an answer!" He says and runs away.

Okay...that was weird... Wasn't it?

The classes ended in a rush and soon it was time for me to pay a meet to him up on the roof.

Taehyungie💓

I am free now. Are you?

Yeah! Yeah! We can meet!🙌

😂😂😂😂

I will be there!

I got outside the class and made my way towards the roof stairs.

What is it that he has to tell me...that even on the roof?

My brain kept on reading futures on probabilities and my heart was jumping out as if too excited to know what's on the roof...well me too.

Reaching the door of the roof I push open it....and saw that well built back of him facing me...he was on the edge of the roof.

I smiled looking down and took quite a few steps to stand beside him.

"Hey...."

"Hm? Y/N! Hey hey!" He holds my hand and pulls me down with him, "Shit down!"

"Yah! Don't speak English if you don't know how to spell. Its my favourite language!" We both giggle at my words.

The wind of the east blew pleasingly calming the atmosphere around us. Taehyung picked up many topics to talk but when i would ask for the reason of us being here be would always change the matter. We sat there for a while enjoying each others company when lastly this dumbhead decided to blurt out.

"You know why I called you here?"

"I dunno.. Maybe to throw me away..?" He cracks up listening to my words but suddenly gets serious.

"Y/N what if I say.... There's someone waiting for you to be his?"

"Mm? What!? OWN!? ME!?!

He gets up suddenly ushering me to do the same.

He holds both of my hand and pulling me a bit closer he pleads, "Y/N please don't be mad at me but...."

He seemed restless and impatient so I tried to get it out from his head,

"Tae...we have been best friends since 2 years....don't you still trust me? Spill it all that you have!"

And all of a sudden he says something that snatches oxygen away from my lungs,

"Y/N...I love you...will u like spending the rest of our lives with me?" And damn...he didn't even stutter.....

For a moment everything stops....the world seem to fade away...and everything gets silent...

He loves me? So that means.... He have always wanted me? And I am the one who always thought that I just had a general crush on him that will disappear soon....!?

A smile spreads through my lips and without thinking I give away my words that he longed to hear,

"I don't think I can refuse...to be honest....I have always loved you...." Saying this I hung my head low.

"So...?"

"So?! Yeah I approve...obviously paboya!"

And that's when everything started....

End of the flashback

I dunno why but that day never seemed to leave my head. As much as I try forgetting it...it comes up again and again leaving me a dead mess.

I was on my bed with one hand holding my parent's picture. They looked so happy with me...I looked so happy with them. Everything was so perfect.

A tear rolled down from the side of my eyes and I try speaking to my mom and dad.
"Umma, appa...don't you think you all left me too early? Don't you think I..." My breath hitches in between but I still continue,"I would have been happier if you guys were there beside me?" Are you happy there?! Sitting and seeing me here?"

I paused for a moment trying not to outburst in front of them....but then...who cares?!

"You know mom, dad.....I miss your warmth....th-those hugs and kisses....those teasings.......Dad.... I miss being gently  patted by your hand....those encouraging wor..ds, that you used to tell me to boost confidence in me....." I pause again trying to catch my breathe before continuing,

"Everything feels so nerve wrecking a-and....empty and.....i-incom-plete without you.... " My breath hitches again in between the words but still as they are the one where I can pour all my secrets and feelings...I let everything out of me.

"Everything feels wrong.....I am in the greatest dilemma of what should I do?! Taehyung came back dad! He came back! He looks gorgeously beautiful now...he became so manly..Should I let go of him....or should I pull him again?" If I pull him close we both will be hurt at the same time...and if I let him go...at least he will be safe....even if I die....
I close my eyes and recall every times he was present by me after his comeback.

"But mom, how will you feel if all of a sudden I come back to you and say I do not remember you.....?
It will hurt bad..won't it? Did I not love him enough? Was I actually not good enough?! I wasn't... Isn't it?" I pulled the picture closer to me and kissing it..I cried till I was soon drifted to the land of dreams.

To be continued...

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It never matters if you don't have a boyfriend because in anyway you will find your life partner....but parents....once they are lost...they are lost forever.....they won't come back again........

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