This month I feel that I downgrade myself and leave myself hanging.

Kau perlukan, yes you need him...
tapi dia tak ada pun, I m getting anoyyed with someone say that dia akan ada untuk kau. tu tipu..

I've so many times tried to understand our current situation. Tapi setiap kali aku nak cuba faham and be positive everything change. Yes, you told me jangan pendam and bla bla bla but did you there for me when I'm at the lowest part?? did you?!

At one point cukup dah aku giveup. I do realize that aku je boleh comfort diri aku. I'm sorry but you teach me how to be an independent girl again without you. 3 tahun lepas right now I feel back that situation, thankyou...

Let me tell you this.

Aku tak akan selamanya boleh bertahan. Sabar aku mungkin dapat dikawal tapi hati yang terluka lama tak akan dapat bertahan menanggung duka.

Thankyou for this little sign at my heart.