Riya's POV

"Riya!"I stepped down from the car and looked at the people around me.

I took a few slow steps as my legs are wobbly and my vision is so blurry.

My heart is thumping so fast making me stumble all the way.

It kept saying his name repeatedly.

Memories, all these memories we cherished kept playing in my brain.

"You will remain special to me till my last breath."His words echoed in my ears.

Nikki is with me all the time, I can't take this anymore, I can't see him like this.

Is this what I have waited for? To see my loved one as a corpse.No!

Never! I always wanted him to be happy.

I shook my head and looked at Nikki pleading to leave me.

Nikki embraced her hand over my shoulder and took me inside his house.

We saw several people moving hastily all over the house shouting and making arrangements of the pyre.

My chest tightened listening to those words.

Pyre! He can be never with me physically.

Did I ever think this? I never ever came to his home, His father was very much against this relationship.

He took my side and walked away from this house and now I am here to see his corpse, Tears are rolling over my cheeks.

I can't refrain from shedding them anymore.

Finally, I reached the hall and looked at his father, He is the first person I saw in the hall. I my sad face.

I experienced a pang of guilt.

I felt extremely guilty for creating a rift between their relationship.

My love, this relationship turned him against his father.

Why? I cried my heart out and to my surprise, he walked to me.

I stood shivering as I kept approaching me.

I begged god to give me an opportunity to see his face for the last time.

Just once, only once, If not now never forever.

The thought killed me inside and I folded my hands in front of him.

His eyes met mine and I lowered my head quickly avoiding his gaze.

He gently patted my shoulder.

This gesture brought more tears in my eyes, Why now?

Why? My heart cried aloud.

What's the use of accepting me, our relationship, it's over, truly and completely.

What if he had accepted us earlier.

How it would be?

My heart broke again at that thought.

Nikki dragged me two steps ahead and finally, I stood in front of him.

I saw his face through the glass and he looked distorted and I can't recognize it.

"Oh my God!Scars all over his face, Unrecognizable and too distorted."Nikki whispered.

Everyone praised his face, his facial carvings, He was a handsome guy.

Now What happened to his handsome face?

Is that he? I gulped in pain.

I closed my eyes quickly.

Why? I blamed everyone including myself.

We praised his face and enchanting smile but failed to see the pain behind it.

I know she truly worried about Riya though she is smiling at me in excitement

I felt breathless, Suffocated, I can't listen to anyone and my vision became blurry.

Nikki caught me soon I slumped on the floor, I took her help to get up.

"Let's go," I whispered.

Nikki tried to console me.

"I said go..." I shouted.

"Okay, okay, calm down," Nikki said gently rubbing circles on my back.

"I beg you let's go...I can't stay here anymore."

"I can't see him..." I bellowed in pain.

We walked to our car.

Arul and Nikki are looking at me with blank faces putting constant efforts to console me, ease my pain.

They know it's hard to remove my pain but they are trying hard to alleviate it.

"Let me take you to the room." Arul volunteered and we both got into his car.

We got back to our hotel room in which we checked in the early morning.

"Sleep, you look so tired," Arul said to me glancing at Nikki asking her to take care of me.

"Sure!" I walked into the shower, throwing my clothes away.

Coldwater in running over my head relentlessly trying to hide my tears.

My body stopped reacting to the coldness and became numb.

Everything around me looked so lifeless.

Why? Why didn't I feel a need to think about him? ping him once?

I heaved a sigh and stayed under shower for more than half an hour.

Feeling completely exhausted both physically and mentally, I badly wanted a need to take a nap for a second.

I got changed and walked out drying my hair.

Nikki is waiting for me with a coffee.

"Ahh..."I flumped on the couch holding my head, I feel all my tears are dried up and dozing off.

My eyes are paining like hell and extremely dry.

"Take this." She handed me a cup of coffee and I took it hesitantly.

She stood up and started massaging my head, I kissed her knuckles and few tears rolled over my cheek.

"I miss him terribly."

"I miss him truly." Few words escaped from my mouth as a whisper.

"Why are we like this?"

"What's the use?"

"We care least when a person is alive and mourns after his death, Why?" I asked Nikki with a pale face.

"Shh! Don't talk."

"Sleep.."She insisted on me in a stern tone and I dozed off thinking about Arjun.

"Wake up, "

"Wake up baby doll!"I heard Arjun shouting in my ear, lacing his finger on my cheek.

"Let me sleep.."I kept stirring on my bed holding his hand, adjuring him.

"I have news for you...Wake up...Wake up.."He said pestering few kisses my neck sensually.

"No..no...Not now."I opened my eyes quickly holding his arms firmly.

"I won't..." He moaned keeping wet kisses down my neck moving to my cleavage

"Stop," I shouted and woke up laughing at his deed.

"Stop Arjun!Stop!"I am laughing aloud.

"Riya! Are you okay?!"Nikki hugged me.

Did I dream him, Why?

I broke into another round of tears and kept staring at the wall all night.

I am afraid, I don't want to dream about him again, not again.

To be continued...