Sona's POV:

His black eyes...

So mysterious and beautiful...

I wonder how can a 35-year-old beast got a pair of most innocent eyes I have ever seen...

Who cannot stand such a beautiful and pure pair of eyes...

I had only read in books that eyes speak and would laugh like a mad but as usual, I am wrong and yes the books are right...

Eyes do speak...

Eyes speak the volumes that the heart hides...

And that's what his eyes are doing to me right now...

Pain is in his heart as much as in mine but he doesn't say it...

I felt a warmth losing away from me and that's when I realized our closeness jumped back with a jerk and lowered my head to not look into his eyes again...

How embarrassing it is...

But you felt a little sweet too...

Yes, you are right...

Whenever he does something for me I always feel a little sweet in my heart but at the same time I feel embarrassed

What he must be thinking of me??

Wiping my tears I apologized but he didn't let me and interrupted as his Akdu mode was on...

"I...I am sor-

"Although I have made the decision on this matter without your consent
I will also respect your opinion and fully cooperate so everything depends on your decision"

How can he be so considerate

I looked at him as my voice filled in with immense gratitude towards the beautiful beast of mine "I don't know how to say thank you"

"Don't show your gratitude in words show it in actions" his tone was stern as if he was asking a student to perform well in the test for which the sincere student assured in a much-determined tone "With your support, I know how to reach my goals"

"I am no one to support you... it's your willpower and determination that should be your strength of pillar" his voice turning intense while I went all quiet as my mind was pretty scared of the future consequences

I stood rooted to the ground while he picked up the paper and getting back to the sofa he began organizing his bag...

Silence followed us for a brief moment...

"Ata kay zal??" (Now what happened)

His question pulled me back out of my thoughts and I immediately spit out my worry "I am scared"

His actions stooped as he softly said "Come sit" and without wasting any second I rushed to the sofa but instead of sitting opposite to him I sat next to him...

I don't know what rushed into me but I intentionally did that while the startled look on his face was pretty obvious

Initially, I was scared of the air around him but now the same air around him feels safe and secure

And talking to him feels good...

It's some kind of peaceful...

While he was startled by my sudden action my voice came out weak "I am not sure about this"

His posture calmed and so was his face..

Making a slight head movement he asked me to speak up further and I instantly followed him "The amount of debt is too much...if I invest my time in studies I won't be able to repay it and the interest too will reach the sky...how will I be able to cope up my studies and gather the money...its... it's pretty risky and confusing"

Letting in my words he was as calm as a gentle sea and his hoarse voice turned soft "Listen to me"

My eyes fixed on his gentle face and resolute eyes as I nodded a yes

"Do you really think with these small-scale jobs you'll be able to repay the debt and look after your mother too??"

I had no answer for his question as it made sense and stared at him blankly while he explained maintaining the same soft tone "With the small pay scales you'll be getting it will be very difficult for you to fulfill all your responsibilities...so better invest a little time on your studies so that you will secure your future...

Definitely the interest will reach heights but if you study well you'll get a good job and earn a decent amount and then it will not be so tough to repay everything i.e principal and interest

And if you think investing time is not a good idea then let me tell you...without investment you won't get any outcome...be it profit or loss...unless and until you invest something you won't be getting anything as your outcome and learn a lesson from your decisions taken...

But here you won't be at loss because you are investing time in your studies that will ultimately give you a profitable future...

And your future is in your hands now"

He paused for a second letting me absorb all his words of wisdom and then continued

"And there's no need to get worried about the balance between your studies and responsibilities because

If you can, you can
And even if you can't, there will always be a way"

"And you are that way"

I said those words right after he finished while he was startled for the second time...

I kept looking at him to know him that every word I uttered was true and I wholeheartedly mean it but to ruin the softness of the moment he spits out "Neither I am support nor a way for you"

"Yes you are" I reciprocated instantly for which he bluntly said with his sharp glare "I said NO"

And that burning gaze of his made me looks down at my lap in disappointment and fright both...

Not fair Mr. Angry Bird

Just now you were being all sweety sweety then why this bitterly bitterly...

Cheater Cock you are...

My lips pouted as my fingers were playing with each other

"It's so unfortunate that I am your husband"

The moment those words passed into my ears my heart felt a deep pang and in no time I screeched "No it's not"

He looked at me for a second and then his eyes stared all hollow into the air as if he was hiding something that he didn't want me to find in his eyes...

"Your name is linked with me as my wife and we can't help it now...all we can do is keep going on but that's not easy as you think...

People will throw comments on you and you may feel ashamed and extremely embarrassed to hear such comments from your own ears...

At times their comments would be so poisonous and hard to hear that you would feel like running back home and sitting and crying till tears would be no more left in your heart...

At times you will be even afraid of coming tomorrow...you would really not want to step out of the house and face the people and just lie on the bed for a long time and let a deep sleep engulf you and take you far away from the darkness...

At times you might feel invisible slaps of words on your face that you would want to cover your face and don't want to see the cruel world again...

But...

You have to keep fighting...

For your family...

Sometimes for yourself too"

Abruptly his head snapped towards me as he continued

"Fight for yourself...

Don't let people rule your life with their venomous words and accusing eyes...

Ignore them as much as you can because I don't want you to waste your energy on such stupid brains...they don't deserve your attention...

They are blind...

And we should never let a blind eye turn into our illness...

And remember the most important lesson...

Prefer having a heart of stone to the meat or else this world will eat you raw"

The hoarseness in his voice and intenseness in his eyes reflecting the depths of his pain and the loneliness in his heart

And I don't know why I felt his loneliness in my heart and felt a burst of immense pain inside me

It was like I felt a loss in my heart...

Why???

Why was his pain hurting my heart with the same intensity???

My eyes were locked with his...

So cold yet deep and dark...

Don't be so hard on yourself...

Please...

I wanted to insist him...

His heart...

But couldn't do it as he smiled bitterly and said "I am so sorry that I am your husband" and looked into the air again as he said the next unpleasant words

"I am nothing but a curse to you"

He let a bitter laugh but that felt a painful one to me as his head lowered while his elbows rested on his knees and his fingers intertwined conveying that he had only himself to hold his broken soul

But not anymore...

I moved a bit closer to him and let my palm rest on his clasped fingers and his eyes met mine...

Those mysterious orbs shining bright with a tint of helplessness and a tint of loneliness...

I let a small smile curl up my lips as I confessed my newfound feeling to my husband with softness and faith in him filled in my voice

"You are a blessing to me"

I left a soft and light squeeze on his clasped fingers as a small gesture of expressing my respect for my husband and that's when I noticed his eyes shining with a different tint...

A tint of small contentment...

My eyes shined with the same...

As he kept peeping into my eyes with that newfound calmness I assured him
"I don't care about the people and their comments"

And slowly unclasping his fingers I took his hand in mine and sliding my fingers through his gaps I pressed my palms tightly yet softly against his and locked our fingers and said "I care about you...only you"

He looked at me and then at our connected hands and then again at me as if his mind was in a state of confusion

His face and eyes turned so soft that it felt like an innocent baby sitting in front of me asking to coax him

I blinked my eyes at him explaining the big baby that no more he is alone to hold himself and his broken soul...he has me to hold him and heal his broken soul

Our hands never left each other as if they had found the lost pieces of their loving mate while a soothing silence enveloped us...

The silence of our hearts admiring the respect and trust we had been building for each other...the sweet little subtle smile on our lips embracing the serenity of our adorable moment while the eyes twinkling as if stars inlaid in them promising to be with each other in every darkness of our lives...

Today there was no one moon in the sky...

But there was an invisible moon all glowing and enlightening new hopes and new emotions in our darkened lives...

Arjun is the moon that shined bright and gave a new color to our relationship...

A simple and beautiful color of pure companionship...

And I would cherish this a little rude yet immensely sweet companion of mine with all my affection till the moment called FOREVER...

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Sorry for the late update❤

Hope you liked the new color of Arjun-Sona's blooming relationship❤