Zayn

"You've got so many cards like.. wow." Waliyha, my seventeen years old sister, sighed softly as she stared at the wall I had covered in cards and drawings from friends and family.

I nodded, "Yeah, but I barely know who some people are. They only send you something because you're sick." I chuckled and slowly shook my head. A little out of disbelief. I mean, the gesture was nice of course, but if I wasn't sick they wouldn't have said a word to me.

"Sadly." My sister rolled her eyes and sat down on my bed. She came by with my older sister Doniya, who had her license already and they were going to spend the weekend in London. They decided to visit me today and I was very happy to see them. Doniya was currently getting some coffee whilst Waliyha stole some cards to read them.

I was seated in bed, the sheets covering me up till my lap as I was feeling extremely cold since the moment I woke up. I was wearing my Marvel beanie today, which didn't match with my blue and white striped pajamas at all but I didn't mind.

"Mum told me that Liam and Anthony are coming over. Did you know?" Waliyha sat down on the bed while still reading some of the cards, throwing them onto a messy pile once she had read them.

I frowned. "No, they didn't tell me."

Waliyha looked at me and chuckled, "Nice communication then. They're probably coming around 2. So that's in an hour." She glanced at the clock, nodding her head in confirmation of her own words.

"Oh." I sighed then smiled.

Liam and Anthony were my best mates back in Bradford. They hadn't come over for ages as they both were busy with their jobs as well. Liam was also working for a music company and Anthony was working as an auto mechanic. He was soon to be boss from his dad's own small business, so I was definitely very proud of him.

We had met each other at high school and had become the best friends ever since. We just fitted well together with our personalities and interests, although cars didn't really interest me, it did interest Liam.

"Where's Caroline?" Waliyha questioned, pinning the cards back on the wall with colorful pins.

I shrugged. "She's not always here." But at that exact moment Caroline walked into my room with a tray of food and some drinks for me and my sisters.

"Oh hi Waliyha! Long time no see. Zayn told me the other day that you were coming over with Doniya. I've got lunch for the three of you." She placed the tray on my bed and I gave her a thankful smile, totally zooming out when she started a conversation with my sister.

I looked back at the door and wondered where Rose was. It was Monday, she'd be here, right? It was her workday and she was usually with Caroline most of the time unless she gave her something else to do.

I sighed slightly and grabbed the tray, knowing she wasn't here anyway. It kinda disappointed me, even if I didn't want to admit it. Only because I liked her company though, nothing more.

I took my sandwich and ate from it, reaching for my pills which were laying on my nightstand. I pressed them out of the package when I heard my room door open and close again. My head shot up, only finding out it was Doniya.

Caroline smiled at me while nudging my arm. "She's not here now, Zayn. Rose has a night shift tonight."

I blushed as I didn't know I was being that obvious. Then, I frowned, "A night shift? Why?" The most nurses who worked night shifts were women on age who had nothing else to do at daytime.

"We asked her and she wanted it. She can learn from it. It's something else. She'll be doing her schoolwork though, so I'm afraid you won't see her this week as you'll be sleeping tonight and she'll have tomorrow off." Caroline explained to me, thanking Doniya as she had gotten her coffee as well.

My sisters looked at me with both their eyebrows raised, clearly not knowing who Rose was.

"Oh." I replied, feeling even more disappointed. I didn't want them to hear it in my voice, but Caroline's look on her face said enough. A small smile was visible and she playfully raised her eyebrow at me.

Shaking my head, I stared at my sandwich as if it was the most important thing in the world.

"Her shift starts at eleven pm." With that said, Caroline left my room and closed the door behind her.

My sisters scooted closer to me on the bed, both with a confused yet curious expression. "Who's Rose?"

"Didn't mum tell?" I sighed and rolled my eyes, not wanting them to think that I liked her, because I didn't, not yet, at least.

"No, should she have done that? You don't have a girlfriend, do you?" Doniya asked, playfully nudging my shoulder.

I shrugged. "She's not my girlfriend. She's just a nursing student. And I don't like her either. Besides, it wouldn't make sense to like someone or get a girlfriend because I'm dying anyway." I joked, but also didn't, the sad truth behind it making me feel a little uneasy.

It stayed quiet after that. I could tell my sisters didn't know what to say because of my last comment. It was maybe wrong to say, but it was also the truth. Half the truth, maybe, because I wasn't sure if I was going to die but it wasn't sure I would survive either.

"It was a joke." I draped my right arm over Waliyha's shoulder and my left arm over Doniya's one, pulling them both closer to me. "But I don't.. I mean she's nice and funny.. kinda pretty but I don't like her. She's just.." I stopped, not really knowing what to say.

"I'd like to see her someday." Waliyha gave me a smile and I hugged her closer, pressing a kiss to her black hair and closing my eyes for a while as I realised how much I missed them.

"Next time maybe." I did the same to my other sister, who was older than me but I didn't really care. I was the only boy out of our siblings so it was different to me, and to her, so she said.

Doniya chuckled and softly slapped my leg. "Let's eat, although you already took a few bites of your sandwich. I think your friends are almost coming."

I nodded and grabbed my plate while staring at my sisters. I couldn't help but think about what it would be like if I died. I didn't want to leave them behind, I couldn't do that. The love I had for my family was bigger than my love for music and let me tell you.. that was a lot.

"Zayn, cheer up. We're here now today. Let's enjoy the moments we spend together while we still can." Doniya gave me a warm smile. It was like she could read my mind, it did me well.

I smiled and started eating my sandwich, gulping my pills down with water after that. Waliyha held up her phone and when I looked at it I saw us through the camera. We took a few random photos and laughed while viewing them back.

We chatted for a long time and they decided to leave when my friends arrived. I gave my sisters a big hug and kiss and waved at them as they left my room. I felt a little sad for some reasons, but I knew it was going to be just fine as I had new company now.

"Hey man, how are you doing? Can you survive out here?" Liam pulled me in a hug and Anthony after that, my eyes briefly closing.

I shrugged. "I guess, I have no choice." I chuckled and got out of bed, deciding to wear an actual outfit as I felt like walking. I grabbed my black jeans and black hoodie and threw them on me, only turning around when I took off my shirt. I didn't want them to see my tumor for some reasons, it made me feel uneasy, the same went for my bald head.

They both stared at me. "It's quiet without you, bro. Daphne is always asking where you are at the restaurant. They're missing you there and we're missing our usual Sunday coffee date." Anthony smiled sadly.

"I miss it too." I sat down on my bed and stuffed my hands in the pockets of my hoodie after pulling my beanie further over my head. "It's stupid here, but if there's a chance I'll get better I have to get through it I guess."

"Exactly." Anthony sighed.

Liam chuckled, "You better come home soon, though. Jessica is driving us insane. She keeps asking about you and she told us she had sent you a message but you never reacted to it."

I thought about my ex- girlfriend. She had indeed sent me a text message, but I still hadn't replied to them. Did I have a reason to? I chuckled. "She needs to stop. We're over and all because of her."

"I'm so happy you're out of that toxic relationship." Liam smiled, softly patting my back after that.

"Me too." I mumbled. "It wasn't good. I should've just listened to the both of you the moment I started dating her. You guys already warned me but I was too stubborn."

It was true, Jessica was the type to date any guy, mostly for her reputation. She needed to be with someone. She told me I was different and that she really loved me and who knows why, I did believe it at some point, but I couldn't care less when we broke up. I fell out of love with her. That was something I didn't know was possible, but it definitely was. She liked playing with my emotions and once we broke up, she started acting like the victim, something I couldn't handle.

Anthony shrugged. "Sometimes you have to go through things yourself to find it out. It's not necessarily a bad thing. At least you got to know her and you didn't have a heartbreak so whatever."

"True." I gave him a thankful smile, stretched my legs and stood up from my bed. "Let's go for a walk. My legs are lazy."

"Sure. Show us around. It's huge here." Anthony's eyes roamed around the room and he stood up, Liam copying his action after that.

I nodded. "I will."

We started walking around the department and I showed them everything, from the chill room to the toilets, from the showers to the music room. We had a great laugh, good conversations and I felt like home with those two around me. It was good to see them and I had enjoyed every minute today. With my sisters first and then them.

When they left, I went back to my room and took a small nap as I was exhausted. I had dinner after that, took a shower and glanced at the clock, hoping it would be eleven pm soon.

When I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore I decided to put on my alarm clock. Eleven pm. The nurses would start with a check up round. They'd come into the rooms of the patients to see if they were sleeping, comfortable, took their medication and to make sure nothing was wrong.

Twelve am. She'd be done and I'd be awake.