Zayn

The next morning I awoke feeling a little worse than yesterday. I had pains throughout my entire body and my stomach hurt. I didn't want it to ruin my day, so I tried to ignore all of the feelings.

My mother decided to go out for the day, just to spend it as a family. We decided to go to the city centre of Bradford to just stroll around, have some lunch and maybe visit some shops in case the girls needed something.

I decided to tag along although I wasn't a hundred percent well. I didn't feel like being home all day long.

My dad had to work today, so I was the only guy out of five girls. It wasn't something new as I was used to it. My mum started the car and while Doniya sat beside mum, Waliyha and Safaa sat behind them and Rose and me behind Waliyha and Safaa.

We were all buckled up and my mum drove off to the centre of Bradford. Since we had decided to go early, mum had made bread rolls for breakfast we could eat in the car.

"Waliyha and Safaa, cheese, peanut butter or nutella?" My mother asked them, the both of them cheering when they heard my mum had Nutella.

"Rose and Zayn?" She asked after giving my sisters their breakfast.

Rose replied, "Uhm, cheese please." She said politely, making me smile because of that. I couldn't believe how decent she was. I was sure my mother appreciated it a lot. We could all tell she was raised very well and that made me want to want her even more, because girls nowadays..

"Here you go love." Waliyha passed her bread roll.

"Zayn?" I sighed a little and noticed how the pain in my stomach felt like a heavy brick stone.

"I'm not hungry." I mumbled, softly pressing my hand to my stomach and slowly rubbing it, trying to lighten the pain.

My mum glanced at me through the rear view. "You have to eat, Zayn. Or you're not going to be able to walk around all day long."

"Cheese." I mumbled again, taking the bread roll from my sister and staring at it.

Rose noticed it and she got something out of her pocket. I noticed it was the small bag of pills, with some extra painkillers in it. "You forgot it.."

I looked up at her and smiled, feeling some type of way that she cared about me and took it with her just for me. "Oh, that's dumb. Thanks Rose."

I wanted to grab the bag, but Rose pulled her hand back, looking at me with a cheeky smile on her face. "Eat. Then you'll get it."

"Not you as well." I groaned, slouching back in my seat and crossing my arms while still holding on to my bread.

Rose chuckled, "What will Caroline say? These pills are necessary and you know that very well." She poked my side and I couldn't suppress my laugh.

She made me forget about the pain, like always. It was her special gift.

Though, when I started eating and swallowing my mouthfuls, the pain grew slightly worse. She noticed it. Probably because I had a deep frown and slightly furrowed eyebrows.

"Are you okay?" She said quietly, so the others didn't hear. Although I was pretty sure they didn't hear as they were all focusing on the music playing from the radio.

"Uh yeah.. just.." I hesitated before whispering, "Hurts a little."

Rose's expression became soft immediately and sighed softly, "We all know it doesn't hurt a 'little'. Now why don't you eat half of the roll and you can have some painkillers along with your medication?" She suggested, making me smile.

"Thanks Rose."

After I took my medication and we arrived, we all stepped out of the car, only to be met by the cold wind. I started shivering instantly, while the others looked fine to me.

I pulled my beanie over my ears and hugged myself while my mother started discussing with the girls what they were going to do.

"What if we go to the shops first then have lunch at a restaurant?" She suggested, making all of the girls nod. "Zayn?"

I looked back at her and just shrugged. I didn't like shopping, but at the same time I didn't care about it if we did.

"What do you want to do, Zayn?" My mother asked again.

I sighed. I didn't sleep well last night and it really did affect my mood, even if I didn't want it. The pain wasn't helping either. "I don't care. S' fine by me." I shrugged again.

"Are you sure?" She asked again. I knew she meant it in a nice way, but it did annoy me. I hated that I was feeling like this, but I couldn't help it.

I closed my eyes for a while so I couldn't roll them, "Yes."

"Alright. Let's go then."

After we had gone in and out a few shops, I started to feel that my energy was slowly draining out of my body. I didn't want them to notice though, so I kept walking and walking to keep up with them.

Rose was chatting with Doniya and my mum and two other sisters were all walking so fast that I started to pant like a horse.

I became slower and it was noticeable as I was starting to be way more behind. "Mum," I said, wanting her to notice it and go a little slower, but she didn't hear me.

That's when I decided to jog back over to them, but as I was focused on them so much, I didn't see a guy in front of me. It caused me to bump into him and his drink to spill all over him.

"I'm sorry." I said, eyes slowly widening and my eyes focused back on my family, making me want to rush over to them again.

"Get cancer!" The guy hissed. I stopped in tracks and turned around immediately, glaring at the guy who just said that. My family heard it and they all turned to me, the looks on their faces telling me that they were shocked.

"What did you just say?" I asked calmly, causing the guy to turn his face to me, showing his furious expression.

He scowled, "I said get can-" He stopped when I took off my beanie and he stared at my face and bald head for a while. "I-I.. uhm,"

"Easy, right? To blurt things out like that. But do you even realize what you're saying?" I said, as calmly as before. I wasn't even that angry. More like sad.

"I'm s-sorry, I didn't mean it.. uh, I'm.." He wanted to walk away but I softly grabbed his arm and pulled him back.

"Then remove it from your vocabulary. It isn't nice." I gave him a small smile and let go of him, turning my attention back to my family.

My mother rushed her way over to me and kissed my cheek multiply times while cupping them, "Oh love I'm so sorry you have to go through all of that."

"It's fine." I mumbled, taking a step back as we were standing in the middle of the plaza.

"You're shivering, are you sure you're okay? Come on, we'll buy you a warm sweater. Or do you need a break?" She started stressing and that didn't make me feel any better.

"Mum, stop." I rubbed my temples and closed my eyes for a while, trying not to focus too much on my throbbing head. "I'm fine. Okay?"

My mum sighed and shook her head as she grabbed my arm and pulled me inside a shop. "What color?"

"I don't need a sweater." I replied, crossing my arms over my chest feeling like the five years old stubborn Zayn all over again. Now I remembered why I hated shopping.

"I asked which color you wanted, not if you need one or not." My mother said sternly, grabbing a red sweater herself and paying for it without me agreeing or even picking the color I wanted.

She thanked the woman and pulled me back out of the shop, glancing at the people walking by before she took off my coat. "Put it on."

"No," I pushed the sweater away and took a step back.

"Why are you so stubborn? You're cold. Your lips and nails are blue. Put it on." My mum tried again, but I really didn't want it right now.

I didn't know why I didn't want it. Maybe because I wasn't feeling well. I knew I wasn't treating my mum like I should have, but something in my mind was against everything today.

"Because you took off my coat!" I huffed, turning away from her.

My mother sighed and started pulling the sweater over my head. I wanted to stop her, but then I remembered Rose was here and she was watching me all the time. What would she think? That I wasn't respectful towards my own mother? Because I was. Today was just not the right time to mess with me.

So I let my mum pull it over my head but I stepped away as I put my arms in it with a scowl on my face. I snatched my coat back from her and put it on without saying another word.

My mum stared at me for a while until she decided it was time to eat something in a restaurant. We all sat down and I sat beside Rose, claiming her before Doniya could. I wanted to spend time with her.

It was dark inside, with only a few cozy lights lit. Lucky for me, because without wanting it, tears had formed into my eyes. I wiped them with the sleeve of my new sweater and stared at the wall as I felt like shit.

I hated the way I acted towards my mum, I hated the pain I was feeling and I hated that I just didn't feel well. It made me emotionally frustrated which expressed into tears.

Rose seemed to notice it because really, when didn't she? She knew me too well. She didn't say anything, she instead wrapped her arm around my waist unnoticeable for the other family members, trying to calm and comfort me.

We had spent an hour at the restaurant with me not being able to get much down, before we decided to leave and go back home again.

The car drive was silence but it wasn't the awkward silence. Everyone was just tired from the day, especially me. I wanted to go straight to my bed and sleep for the rest of the day, but it wouldn't be fun for Rose.

When we entered our house and we sat down on the couch, Rose turned to me. "Did Doctor Lane call you yet about the results?"

"No, he didn't." I said softly. I gave her a smile as I felt like I hadn't done that enough today yet.

She returned it, and like she knew, my phone started vibrating and 'Doctor Lane' was shown on my screen.

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Zayns reaction to his mother? Understandable?

The guy saying cancer? Seriously in my country so many people say it as a curse word and I don't think they realize how many people they can hurt with it.. It really needs to get out of everyone's vocabulary.

Doctor lane calling?

Do you think the results will be good or bad?