Zayn

Waking up, it only took me a split second to feel excited as I knew it was Wednesday and I knew Rose was working. Today was going to be the day where we would see each other again after our kiss and I couldn't be more excited yet nervous.

I woke up because of someone entering my door. I hoped and expected it to be Rose, but when I opened my eyes I saw Caroline and a girl I didn't know.

I quickly grabbed my beanie and wore it, rubbing my sleepy eyes after that.

"Good morning, Zayn. I want you to meet someone." Caroline gave me a small smile and I gave her a questionable look. Where was Rose?

The light brown haired girl walked over to me and stretched her hand out to me. I slowly shook it and slightly raised my eyebrow. "Hello. I'm Sophia, I'm here for internship."

"Zayn." I answered shortly. I felt uncomfortable. I didn't need strange people to see me when I had awoken only a minute ago. For me it was just something not everyone had to see.

"Okay." She answered shortly. I started thinking about Rose's first introduction to me. She already caught my attention, this girl did not. "I came from the obstetrician department. I switched with.. what's her name again? Daisy?"

"Rose." I almost scoffed. I knew she was talking about her.

Sophia crossed her arms over her chest and raised her eyebrow at my comment, "Right. That girl. She signed up for it as first but something went wrong and she got placed here. She doesn't like to work at oncology and it's not what she actually wanted so that's why we switched."

"What?" I frowned then looked at Caroline, who was awkwardly staring out of the window. "Caroline." I said coldly.

Caroline cleared her throat. "Well, it's half true. Rose didn't sign up to work at the oncology and it wasn't something she wanted at first but I'm sure she does like it now, Sophia. She just had a chance to work there and see if she likes that. That's why she's not here."

"Is she never going to come back?" I asked sadly.

Caroline looked at me and shrugged carefully, "Depends on if she's going to like it or not."

"Yes, so where do I start? Do I need to shower you?" She asked, her tone sounding like she was talking to a two years old kid.

I didn't understand where she got the balls to act like this and I also didn't understand why Caroline didn't say anything to her about her rude behavior.

"Do I look like I can't shower on my own? No, thanks. I'd rather being washed by my own siblings." I muttered and I couldn't help but clench my jaw.

Caroline sighed softly. She knew me. She knew if I didn't like someone, I really did not like that person. Nothing could change that. Your first attitude was so important to me. And it also didn't help that I was expecting Rose. I needed to see her, especially because we had kissed.

"Alright, how about you help him clean his wound? He obviously doesn't need to be showered. He can do that himself." Caroline said sweetly.

I gave her a look. "No, Caroline." I said.

She looked back at me and returned the look. "Can you take off your sleeping blouse, Zayn?"

"No." I said again. I didn't need that girl to touch me or to see me with my bare chest.

"Geez, I thought I signed up for the eighteen plus side of the oncology. Not the kids." Sophia chuckled. It made me even more annoyed and I tightly gripped onto the sheets.

Caroline came closer to me and started unbuttoning my blouse. I pushed her away, "I don't want it!" I hissed quietly.

"Zayn, don't be difficult now. I know you want Rose, but she isn't here. Get over it, Sophia needs to learn as well." Caroline said sweetly, but it didn't make me feel better. I didn't want that girl to do things with me.

I clenched my jaw and gave her a cold look. It was enough for Caroline to back off and stop unbuttoning my blouse.

"Anyway.." Caroline spoke. "Zayn has Leukemia and he has had a tumor on his lower belly. He's had immunotherapy, chemotherapy, a surgery and radiation. He's also bald because of it." Caroline tugged at my beanie and before I could realize what I was about to do- I slapped her hand away.

It was hard enough to shock Caroline and I already felt guilty as I slowly laid my arm back down beside my body. But at the same time I didn't feel guilty at all because Caroline knew how I felt about my bald head and she also could've known that I didn't want to show it to someone like Sophia.

"As you can see he can do almost everything himself. Let's go to room number eleven. The patient is more dependent on the nurses." Caroline recovered quickly and smiled at the girl.

Sophia agreed on it and they decided to leave me alone which was good.

"You're getting chemotherapy this afternoon. Prepare yourself." Caroline gave me a small smile, which was definitely forced this time. She had never done that before so it made me feel a little sad but I knew it was my own fault.

I waited until they left my room and I got up from my bed to take a shower.

Collecting all the stuff I needed, I placed them on the closed toilet lid and switched on the water so it could warm up already. I took off my pajamas and underwear, then stood underneath the indeed already warm water.

I closed my eyes and warmed my body up with it. I always showered way too hot, causing my manhood to almost burn off and my feet to be really red after I was done but I didn't care. I loved hot showers.

It made me feel relaxed and sometimes even sleepy. That was a reason for me to be careful with hot showers when I didn't feel well. I'd feel too weak to stand up and I'd faint, what had happened before.

It was really nice now, though. After the small incident from minutes ago.

"Zayn?"

My eyes widened. Was it Rose? I stopped the shower after quickly rinsing the soap off me and I wrapped a towel around my waist, slowly peeking through the shower curtain. "Yeah."

"Oh there you are. Ew, get dressed." My sister Waliyha chuckled. I sighed in disappointment, thought I was very happy to see her as she didn't come by that much.

I closed the shower curtain again and dropped the towel, drying myself on the needed places then slipped into my clothes and beanie, throwing the towel into the laundry basket.

I shoved the shower curtain away and walked over to my sister who stretched her arms out to me. "Hey."

"Hey." I replied softly. I pressed a kiss to her forehead and hugged her tight. "Did you come by all alone?" I frowned.

"No, Doniya is here as well. She went to grab some coffee. We had a long drive, Zayn. We knew you had chemotherapy today and we wanted to support you as mum had to stay home for Safaa." She yawned and sat down on my bed.

I smiled. "Thanks Wali. It means a lot to me." I bent over and hugged her tight, making her squeal in my grip.

"Okay, okay! I get it." She laughed as she playfully rolled her eyes.

I grinned, "Oh you missed your brother's hugs. Don't deny it. I give the best hugs ever."

"Blah, blah. Yeah, whatever. Oh and by the way, you're inviting a girl over for Christmas and New Years and we don't even know her?" Waliyha shook her head and we both looked up when Doniya entered my room with coffee.

I ignored Waliyha and hugged Doniya, "Hey Don."

"Hey hello." She greeted back and placed the tray with coffee and tea for me- she knew me too well- on my nightstand. "Yes, indeed Zayn. Who's the girl?"

I scratched my head as my beanie was extremely itchy and I tried to look anywhere else but them. "Didn't mum tell?" I mumbled.

"Forgot her name." Doniya shrugged as she took a sip of her coffee, hissing slightly as it was still too hot.

I chuckled then grabbed the tea myself to warm up my cold hands. "It's Rose." I mumbled again. I didn't know why, but I felt a little shy talking about a girl. My sisters were barely involved in my love life, so it was slightly embarrassing for some reasons.

"Who?" Waliyha yelled into my ear. "Talk louder, dude."

I pressed my hands to her ear, "Rose!" I said loudly. She pushed me away and rubbed her ear.

"Gosh, I didn't mean it like that." Waliyha groaned, then frowned. "Wait, Rose? Wasn't that the nurse kinda girl?"

I lied down on my bed as I put my tea aside. "She sure kinda is." I rested my arms above my head and stared up at the ceiling.

Doniya almost choked on her coffee, "Seriously? Ohh, mum was right. Zayn likes Rose."

I sat up and glared at her but didn't say anything about that. "Her parents are going on holiday and she couldn't go with them. You all better be nice to her."

"Don't worry about it, Zed." Doniya chuckled and finished her coffee, throwing the empty carton cup into the trash can. "Where's she now, though? We've never seen her before. Every time we come visit you she's nowhere to be seen."

"She's.. not working today." I lied and I didn't even understand why. It wasn't like it was a bad thing that she was working somewhere else today.. was it?

"Such a pity." Waliyha pouted. We became quiet when the doctor came into my room with the chemotherapy infusion.

He rolled the infusion towards my bed and shook hands with my sisters, then with me.

"Hello, Zayn. How are you doing? Are you ready for your third chemotherapy session?" He asked.

I got comfy on my bed and rolled up my sleeves already. "I'm fine. I think I'm ready, yeah."

He glanced at me, "Are you sure? Do you think you can take it?"

The way he looked at me made me feel uncomfortable. I didn't know what he meant with it, but it just didn't feel good.

I decided to ignore it and just answer his questions. "I feel well, so yeah I think I can take it."

"Very good. We need a strong patient like you." He smiled confidently but it still didn't really calm me. I still hadn't heard anything of my results either. I had already done the scans a few days ago so I was pretty sure he already had the results, but he didn't tell me.

He pierced the needle into my veins and it hurt a lot more than usual because the needle had been in my skin too many times. My skin became thicker and it was harder to go through it.

He attached the needle to the infusion and not long later the toxic therapy dripped into my blood, filling my whole body with it.

My sister put on my favorite movie as the doctor left us three alone. We watched the movie while I was getting my chemotherapy.

And although I was so happy my sisters were here, I still wished that Rose would've been here as well.

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Zayns reaction understandable?

Rose?