Zayn

"I have good news and good news, which one do you want to hear first?" Caroline said as she entered my room.

I turned around in my bed and looked at her, slowly squinting my eyes she opened the curtains, "Uh, the good news?" I chuckled.

I had woken up about two hours ago, but I still felt a little tired and I just wanted to lie in bed because I didn't feel like doing anything else. It caused me to doze off several times but I never got to the point to actually fall back asleep again. Every small noise would drag me back awake.

Caroline sat down on my bed and smiled. Now I couldn't wait to hear the apparent good news. "Alright, the good news is that you're getting off tube feeding and the good news is that you get to spend Christmas and New Years at home."

"Wait, what?" I frowned, "I don't have to get tube feeding anymore?"

"Nope." She replied, tapping on the tube. "Which means we can take care of both of your cheeks as I notice the other one is starting to get irritated as well, and it also means that you can eat proper food again."

I wiggled my feet out of excitement, without actually noticing it, "Really?"

She nodded and I smiled, stretching my arm out and fist- bumping the air. "Woohoo! Finally, I thought I'd never get rid of it."

"Yes, Zayn. They don't think you need it no more." She smiled sweetly, patting my shoulder. "I'm happy for you. And what do you think about spending Christmas and New Years at home?"

I smiled again, "That's good, although it's still slightly far away. Did mum ask?"

"Not exactly.. I did this for you because I know how you're missing home and stuff. But it was based off Rose's idea, so you better thank her."

"Rose?" My eyes lit up almost automatically. Was it her idea?

"Yeah, Rose. She's clever, Zayn. She told me how she thought you were feeling. I was impressed and surprised, I think she was right. She told me that maybe you'd like to spend a weekend at home but just because it's a little short and it will be very tiring for you she suggested this. I made work out of this idea and they agreed to it."

I stared up at the ceiling and smiled slightly. "Wow." I licked my lips and played with my fingers as Rose appeared in my mind. "Thank you."

I sat up and wrapped my arms around Caroline's neck. She patted then rubbed my back and laughed softly, "Alright, alright. I get it. Now get off me because you smell like sleep and I think someone can't wait to get that tube out of him and eat a proper sandwich, am I right?"

"Yeah." I chuckled and took off my sleep blouse so she could take care of my wound and I'd be able to take a shower after that.

My wound was doing much better. It wasn't open anymore but they still had to be very careful as it could easily open again. She still had to clean it and put ointment on it, but I was okay with that.

After she was done with it, I stepped into the warm shower and stood under it for a while before actually washing myself. If there was one thing I'd be thankful for, then it'd definitely be warm water. I enjoyed it so much that it was hard to get me away from the shower.

Caroline had to tell me a few times that I had to wash myself because apparently Rose was going to take the tube out while being watched because of the paragraphs she had to get for university.

Of course when I heard her name I did everything extremely fast, hopped out of the shower, dried myself and put on some clothes and my Marvel beanie.

I stood in front of the mirror and put some of the cream on my irritated cheek. It was still flaming red and I sighed, knowing you'd see it on the interview Rose had done with me. I should've said it was a side effect of the tomato juice.

The door opened and Rose came in, along with- I suppose- was a teacher. She seemed sick nervous and I felt really bad for her. I wanted to take away her nerves because really, she didn't have any reasons to be nervous. She had always taken care of my like the already experienced nurses. She was so good, and I wasn't saying that because it was Rose. I was saying that because it was the truth.

"Good morning." Rose said, giving me a small yet genuine smile.

I smiled back. "Hey Rose." I looked at the teacher, she was already looking at me. I gave her a small smile which she returned widely. At least she seemed nicer than the last one she had.

"Uhm, I'm going to take out your tube. Would you mind sitting on the bed?" Rose said, barely making any eye contact with me.

She was so, so nervous. She wanted to sound professional because I knew school would criticize her on that. I didn't mind it, I knew she wanted and needed that paragraph. I didn't blame her.

I sat down on my bed, my back against the upper part of the bed as Caroline had moved it up for me. I took off my beanie, knowing it would be easier as the tube went from out of my nose, to over my ear all the way down where it was attached to my shirt.

"Thanks." She whispered, giving me another genuine smile while the teacher was talking to Caroline.

"It's fine." I answered, a small smile playing on ny lips. I softly touched her hands, "You shouldn't be so nervous, Rose. You're good at this, okay? You'll be fine."

"Thanks." She said again. It seemed to calm her a little. She then hesitated, "I just don't want to make you throw up or something, I hate to see you like that."

I smiled, "Again, don't worry about it. It's natural if it happens, okay? It wouldn't be your fault and besides, getting the tube out is less bad than getting it in, trust me."

Before she could answer me the teacher stood next to me on the other side of the bed and looked at Rose while crossing her arms over her chest. "Okay, Rose. You can start."

"O-okay." She gulped, trying to hide that she was extremely nervous. "First I'm going to detach the tube from his shirt, after I laid a medical pad on his lap." She laid it on my lap.

I stared at her face as I felt her soft fingers slightly pressing to near my collarbone as she was trying to detach the tube. Her fingers were shaky and I felt the urge to grab her hand and help her, but I couldn't do that.

So I stayed silent and didn't move anything, except my eyes which were roaming all over her beautiful face.

"Now I'm going to remove it from over his ear." She said, looking at her teacher in the hope she'd say it was good, but the teacher didn't give anything away.

Rose swallowed and frowned a little when she noticed it too that the teacher wasn't going to say anything. She removed the tube from over my ear and I could only think about how her fingers felt on my skin, my face, my ear and my cheek as she slowly took off the bandaid. I wanted more of her touch, in an appropriate way.

Then we came to the part where she had to get it out of my body. "I took off the band aid and I'm now going to take it out of his body. Zayn, the feeling is uncomfortable, if you want me to stop lift up your hand, okay?" She said nervously.

"Sure." I replied. It caused her to give me a smile but it faded soon after she started to focus on the action.

She started to carefully pull at the tube and I could feel how it was sliding from out of my stomach all the way up through my esophagus. It was really uncomfortable, it caused me to gag a few times.

I hated myself for doing it, because I knew it would make her even more nervous but I just couldn't help it. I couldn't hold it back. I started gagging and gagging, until I finally felt how it got through my throat and out of my nose.

It was out. She did it. I smiled by myself and started swallowing as I still felt the slight feeling of discomfort from the action before.

Then the smell of the tube filled my nose and I became nauseous instantly. I covered my nose and mouth and looked at Caroline. "That smells disgusting." I said.

"Thanks." Rose whispered. I wasn't sure why, until she spoke up again. "That's why I'm not going to throw it away in the bin but in a separate pedal bin bag."

She grabbed the pad with the tube on it with her medical gloves on and threw it away along with the medical gloves. She placed the bag on the floor and handed me a glass of water, looking at the teacher in hope.

I sipped my water and looked at the teacher as well.

The teacher cleared her throat and smiled, "Very good Rose. Well done. I can see that you're already experienced and been taught a lot around this department. It's great to see you grow. There's one thing you forgot, though." She said.

Rose frowned a little and she started to pick on her nails. She didn't know what she apparently forgot. "What did I forget?"

"You didn't ask the patient how he experienced the action. It is an important thing to do. I won't criticize you on this this time as the action you've done was very good, but it's an attention point for the next time." The teacher said while she grabbed a pen to sign Rose's notebook.

"Oh.. right." She sounded disappointed in herself. Rose tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and I felt like defending her.

"She doesn't have to ask because we all know she's good at it." I said, smiling at the teacher as she looked down at me.

She smiled back, "Oh, we know. It's just one of the things we need to test our students on. But I'm glad you think Rose is a good nurse. We'd all like to hear that from the patients as they are the one who see her and who get help from them."

Rose gave me a warm smile and when the teacher turned to Caroline to talk a bit about Rose I stepped out of bed, towards her.

She glanced at me and then at the teacher, slightly taking a step back from me. I didn't really know why, but I decided to ignore it.

I pulled my beanie over my head and stepped closer to Rose, "Hey, thanks for this. And uh.. I wanted to thank you for your idea. It's great that I get to spend Christmas and New Years at home." I smiled.

She smiled back and slowly nodded her head, "It's okay."

"Yeah, thanks Rosie." I stood closer to her and wanted to wrap my arms around her to give her a hug, just out of appreciation, nothing more.

But Rose didn't seem to want it and she took a few steps back, softly pushing my arms away. "Don't do that, Zayn. I don't want it."

I wasn't going to lie- her comment hurt and offended me. I looked at her for a while but she kept staring at the floor, until the teacher told her to come along as she had a conversation with her and Caroline. It felt like she had just crushed my heart into a thousand pieces, but I wouldn't admit it.

They left me all alone and when I heard the door close I stared at it for a while, wondering why she suddenly didn't want it. She gave me a hug before, was it that bad?

I lied down in my bed and tried to ignore the hurt feelings she gave me. It honestly felt like rejection and because of my feelings for her, it offended me and it stung really bad.

Did I go too far?

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Opinions on rose not wanting to hug zayn? :(

Do you think you know why she didn't want it?

Tube feeding free?!! 😍

Anyways, I'm going on holidays for five days (until friday) I'll be spending with my family aunts (my sick aunt too) and uncles and cousins,
So idk if I am able to write/ update. It will probably be just fine but so you all know in case I don't update!

Love u all 💙 your support is more than amazing!