Great.... it's here again. I almost forgot how miserable it makes me feel. It reminds me of that one girl. She always seems so nice. Even though she'll turn to a beast in seconds. She always points out bad things about me and never apologizes. It's messing with me. I hate it. I hate hating her. I hate saying all those things I don't mean. And the worst thing is that she's not the only one. I feel betrayed. I always do. Some things just destroyed me and they keep getting worse. It is so idiotic. Everything seems so negative. It disgusts me. She makes me feel disgusted by myself. There's that other girl too. I adore her, I really do. But she ignores me sometimes. Just over seemingly hours. It just hurts. I don't want it to hurt. I almost cried today by simply doing nothing. I told someone to go die and then just had to go. I feel terrible. I really am. Sometimes I want to reverse time, start over as a child. Just go to another school and everything will be fine. I wouldn't have to deal with all those people. These two guys. They are amazing. Amazing but assholes. Fire and earth. I don't know why, but I always imagined those two bonded together. Like water and wind. Im still not sure why....... I can't believe I trust them. But I just do.

You did the wrong thing. I'm so sorry.