It's there again. This constant pounding against the walls of my head. It reminds me of my situation. I just feel so damn stuck here. What even is the point of existence? One of my closest friends is hurting herself because of me! Or rather a boy...... he really is something special. Dark brown hair, almost black eyes, a confident, joy bringing smile. And still, he just doesn't seem to care. He opens up to her. I'm probably just in his way. He shot me with a football today. Again. Why doesn't he apologize? Is it so hard to let your pride fall down and feel? What did we do to deserve this? We're fighting over him for a year now and he doesn't bother to even try to help. He is better off with her. I don't want to disturb them. They would be such a pretty couple. But she has issues. Like a girl, I just met. She is probably the strongest girl I've ever met. And now..... she's different. I don't know why, but she doesn't seem interested anymore. I would've really appreciated, if she would've stayed. Everyone is distancing themselves. Some say I look broken and some just think I act rude and without respect.

I feel lost....