I'm not lazy. Just tired... very, very tired...
  My eyes strain as I write this. The light of the screen blinding me as I continue to type. My arm hurts and so does my head. I want to go to sleep. I wish it was like in the stories I read... "As soon as her head hits the pillow, she's out like a light."

  I don't like this. I don't want to be like this at all.
 

  My room is hot and I can't sleep and I can hear the t.v. playing out in the living room, as well as the pounding and ringing in my head.
  The fan is on, it's not quiet, and my head pounds like a person beating on a drum. Sleep is not easy for me. Never was, never had been, nor will it be easy now.
 
  I just wish I could go a while with a normal sleeping schedule...

  I'm going to bed... goodnight, my lovely stars...