Author note:
Hey guys I just couldn't wait for later in the week for this. This is the final chapter to this book! I can't believe it :(

Whether there will be a sequel or not all depends on feedback and votes :)

As I have noticed the amount of readers dropping and as much as I love this story I can't invest myself and my time if its just a waste :/

I hope you guys understand and if this is how you want their story to end? Then I hope you guys have enjoyed the rollercoaster ride of Mia and Roman <3

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I just won my match against Alicia Fox and entered the locker room.

Lucy jumped into my arms. '' Aunty won!'' her face was filled with excitement.

I smiled and looked over at Roman who had changed as his match was before mine.

He had lost his match, ''Luc.. let Aunty Mi shower quickly''

'' Okay'' I set her down and she went to watch John's match.

''Mia''

'' Yeah?'' I turned to look at him, he stood up and walked towards me.

'' I love you, you know that right?'' I nodded and walked out of the room immediately.

Even hearing him say it I still couldn't believe it. I had been doing good all these years and now I slowly felt my old self returning and I was losing control...

I had barely eaten or slept for the past couple of days.

I didn't really speak to anyone only Lucy, Roman tried getting me alone so many times but I would just sit and stare at him blankly.

We were in a limo with them heading over to the Hamptons for our engagement party. I wore a long flowy nude dress with my hair in a messy plait, Roman and John wore suits and Nikki wore a red flowy dress as it was a formal party. Lucy had begged her father to let her wear a purple dress as she wanted to match my hair.

As we reached the house and got out Roman reached for my hand and I gave it, he clasped it tightly and held Lucy's hand as well.

As we all walked, in everyone began clapping and I smiled brightly.

I was bombarded with people congratulating me and Roman's family greeting me.

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Roman and I were standing at the buffet table as Lucy was eating when Seth and Jenna came over.

''Mommy!'' she scooped Lucy into her arms.

Seth hugged me and took Roman's hand.

Jenna was saying things to us but I didn't even hear what she said as I was too busy looking at Roman and how he looked speaking to here. I wondered how he looked at me when we spoke, was it the same?

She looked so beautiful, why was I paying attention to all of these things now. I was at my own engagement party I was supposed to be happy.

I snapped back to reality but I could feel the lump in my throat growing.

''So have a wedding date?'' Seth asked Roman.

'' Well we have to discuss it with John them but I'm sure pretty sure neither of us want to wait long'' he looked over at me hesitantly.

Yeah rub it in that we are getting married soon so that Jenna can realize she's about to lose you.

My thoughts were making me go insane.

I could feel that my eyes would soon be filling with tears I needed to get away from everyone.

'' Sorry I uhm need to use the restroom''I smiled politely and walked away.

I was sitting on the beach as my tears were now falling. I pulled my knees to my chest and stared at the ocean.

Two years ago, Roman and I were here. Although the stars were not out yet as the sun was setting.

'' Why do I have to love him so much!''

I screamed out and put my head down onto my knees , I felt someone sit down next to me.

I looked up and saw a handkerchief being placed in front of me. I turned and saw it was Roman .

I wiped my tears and then rested my head on my knees and turned to look up at him.

''Who do you love so much?''

I could see the hurt on his face as he asked the question.

'' You..'' I turned and looked at the sunset.

He got up and sat in front of me, '' Wait, why don't you want to love me'' he looked so confused.

'' I just don't.. '' I stared past him.

'' We are at our engagement party and you are telling me that you don't want to love me, what the hell is going on Mia.. you've been avoiding everyone and putting on a front for everyone else. While I'm left feeling completely destroyed because my fiancé is broken down and I cant fucken do anything about it. You know how much seeing you like this kills me...'' his eyes were filling with tears .

'' The only time I have seen you like this was when you were with Paul and I know for a fact that you aren't. So please tell me because seeing you like this is killing me, I just cant deal with...''

"If you cant deal with me then leave..''

'' That's not what I was going to say! Mia I'm not going to leave you. I cant deal with you avoiding me and shutting me out and not knowing what the hell has done this to you''

'' You still love your ex and I don't blame you, looking at her tonight, she's perfect for you. You , her and Lucy are a beautiful famil...'' my voice became shaky.

'' Mia.. what are you doing to yourself? I do not want her. I want you, fuck this is because of last week..''

I got up and began walking to the water.

He ran in front of me, '' Mia listen to me, I was shocked that's it. I didn't even know that Seth thought of her in that way that's it. I see that they are good together now and I'm sorry that I went off on you. I used to get so pissed at Paul for screaming at you for stupid things and I went and did the same thing.''

He shook his head and looked into my eyes. '' Mia, I don't want to be with anyone else but you, perfect family? I want you! I want a family with you, I want our big house, our dogs and Lucy running around with her little brother or sister that's my future, you are my present and future.''

I hugged myself and looked down. '' I don't deserve you Roman, I'm a messed up woman, I slept with you the first time I practically met you because I was drunk what does that say about me?''

'' I wasn't drunk and I went along with it, you tried to stop it and I didn't. I'm the one at fault and I don't regret it at all, what the hell is so special that you don't deserve me? Right where I'm standing? We are perfect for each other, we are both pretty messed up, insecure human beings. But what's different is that you are the one who makes me feel better, whether you are the reason I am upset or not Mia. It kills me that I cant reassure you cause I can see by the way you are looking at me you are still doubting everything I am saying''

His tears were falling again, I didn't know what to tell him. I was so insecure and I had never felt this way concerning Roman before. I wish I never felt the doubt but it was just there like a dark hole.

No matter what he said, the feeling in my gut told me that I needed to end things with him.

It would be better for him, not to be associated with me. I took off my engagement ring and took his hand and put it in.

'' Mia, please... don't do this. Even if you are doubting or believe for some fucken reason that you don't deserve me, don't do this please!''

'' I shouldn't have kissed you that night. I should've just left and right now you would be married to Jenna and Lucy would have a stable home'' I walked backwards.

'' Mia, don't go..'' he walked towards me and I ran.

He tried to catch up but it was too late I was in a car already. It would be best for everyone if I just disappeared.

I was driving well over the speed limit, but I needed to get away from the place, from everyone.

My tears had begun falling again, I loved Roman so much and I just left him there.

I should go back , but no his better off.

I'll go to Paris for a few months he will forget about me and his feelings, get back with Jenna and then when I come back everything will be like they used to be.

Well besides me, I'll have no one.

Like they say when you love someone you have to do whats best for them and being with me? I'm not his perfect match, I don't deserve anyone.

I realized I was about to collide with a truck, my thoughts had caused me to drive in the wrong lane.

I swerved to avoid it but I just felt myself crashing into something and then everything went black...