We had been driving for about ten minutes in silence, but a comfortable silence.

I was wearing a denim shorts with flip-flops and a crop top with my bikini underneath as Paul decided he wanted a lazy afternoon on the beach.

I was a bit anxious about all those people seeing us together but he told me not to think much about it. He wore a denim cargo pants and a polo shirt.

I loved staring at him while he drove, this way he couldn't tease me and call me a perv.

He smirked which meant he had noticed, '' Five more minutes then we'll be relaxing on the beach''

The beach was completely empty when we got there.

'' Paul, I think its closed..''

He just looked at me and smiled as he got our things out of the car and grabbed my hand so I could follow him.

'' No its not, I rented it out so that we could have some privacy and not be anxious, as you say, of who would see us together. ''

He was so amazing.

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I had just gotten out of the water and Paul hadn't taken his eyes off of me. He stood up and I jumped into his arms. He spun me around as I couldn't stop giggling. I needed this after last night.

Roman's face flashed into my head, was it wrong of me for having fun while he was in so much pain? I needed to speak to him tonight, no excuses.

Paul had laid me down onto the blanket and rested his head on my chest while running his fingers along my tummy.

'' Is it okay if I call Nikki and John them to join us?'' I asked while running my hands along his back muscles.

He turned his face to look into my eyes, '' Aren't you enjoying my company?''

'' Of cause I am. It's just that I haven't spent time with all of them together in a while.''

He leaned his face towards mine and kissed me, ''mmmm... okay''

I took his phone to call them while he went for a swim. I was shocked to see that I was his wallpaper; it was a old picture back when Paul and I were a tag team. I would have to speak to him about that later.

I phoned Nikki and Brie, they were still upset about what went down at the gym, I was prepared for the ultimate grill when they got here.

At least they would be coming I really missed our triple dates.

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'' So you speak to Roman yet since the gym?''

We were watching the guys swim.

'' I'll speak to him later. Nikki, please can we just chill?'' I pleaded.

'' fine.'' She rolled her eyes at me.

We headed back after watching the sunset. Paul had wanted me to go back to his hotel room but I lied and said I had a dinner. I'm so glad he didn't ask why I was upset last night, he was just giving me time to tell him and if I didn't I'm sure he would confront me about it.

I ordered some room service and went to shower. I needed to get all that sand off and salt water smell out of my hair.

I heard the doorbell, it must've been room service.

'' Come in!''

After a few minutes I got out and wrapped a towel around myself, I figured room service had to be gone by now.

I walked out of the bathroom to find Roman sitting on the edge of my bed. His hair was still wet and loose, he must've came here straight after he showered.

He wore basketball shorts and a vest.

'' Roman, what are you doing here? ''

Normally I wouldn't feel so awkward being in just a towel around him but considering things were not so great between us, I wish I had dressed before I stepped out.

He turned to give me some privacy so I put on my underwear and went to sit next to him and he turned to me.

'' I'm sorry for not letting you know I was coming but I came to your room earlier and you weren't here and then I asked the guy at the front desk to let me know when you were back. I wasn't sure if you would reach out to me again because maybe you thought things over and realized I was being a real ass and a hypocrite and then..''

''I don't, I was going to call you as soon as I was done showering. I really want to get this behind us, you are my Tarzan, my Samoan warrior and I want us to be happy again'' I had gotten onto his lap, and was now straddling him and wrapped my hands around his neck.

He was hesitant but he tightened his arms around my waist and kissed me gently, lingering.

He then moved back and stared into my eyes intensely.

'' I want that too, I hate seeing you cry and knowing I'm the reason tears me up inside..''

I wanted to say something but I could tell he didn't want to be interrupted. He wanted to share what he was feeling with me now.

'' Okay.. last night I know I said we would talk but then after Jenna and Lucy left. I decided to go looking for you because even though we said we'd talk later, Jenna pitching up caught us off guard and I just wanted to make sure you were okay before we had to head out for my match. But then I saw you were with Paul and he was comforting you. I know I shouldn't have been but I was upset that he was the one comforting you and probably making you feel better when he was the actual reason we were fighting...''

He ran his hands through his hair and then placed them on my thighs and just looked down as he spoke on.

'' Then when the announcement went off about ten minutes later saying that you guys needed to report and he pitched up after you, tying his belt and smirking at you, I figured you guys got busy and whatever. That fucking pissed me off even more, the fact.. the fact that you could be with him not even a fucking half an hour after we were fighting because of him!''

He lift me up and placed me onto the bed and paced up and down in front of me.

He was really upset now, I guess picturing that must've hit a nerve.

''Roman, nothing happened between Paul and I last night..'' I whispered.

He did not like Paul at all, he might've been calm when he came in but he wasn't now.

I really doubt we would be patching things up tonight.

He turned to face me , his eyes were full of hurt and anger, like he could murder Paul right now if he walked through that door.

'' If it wasn't for my match I'm sure that something would've happened ! I promised myself I wouldn't lose my temper but I despise that man so much. I know I should feel happy that you let me know that you have a thing and you didn't keep it from me but sometimes I wish you did, cause hell, every time I see you two together even if you guys just greet each other I feel like crap because in his eyes you are his and only his. As far as he knows you are with no one else. ''

'' Roman if you want me to tell Paul about us I will. ''

I got off the bed and walked towards him but kept a distance between us, I knew touching him now while he was upset would not help us.

'' No, that's not what I want. I want to know...fully know that I have a part of you. Paul intimidates me because I know his your first love, his your first everything and I can never compete with that. I'm sorry I treated you like shit in the ring but I was so upset and I didn't have time to cool down and then when I got to our room and realized you weren't there. I assumed you were with Paul, I barely slept cause every time I'd close my eyes all I could think about was that you two were probably together. ''

He looked at me, waiting, I realized he wanted to know if Paul and I were together.

I closed the distance between us, cupped his face and ran my fingers along his stubble.

'' We weren't together, I just wanted to be alone and you shutting me out made me even more upset. In that moment I didn't want to be near you, I came straight to this room. Roman I do love you and I am falling for you, but I love Paul too; sometimes I wish I didn't but I always will, that's why they are called first loves , look at you and Jenna.. but if you keep having these jealous outbursts I'm going to have to 'superwoman punch' this beautiful cheek of yours'' I gave his cheek a pinch , I was trying to lighten the mood.

He lift me up into his arms and placed me onto the bed and then he backed away a little.

I was a bit confused and sat back kneeling, '' What are you...''

He tilted his head back.

'' OOOOOH AAAAAAHHH'' he speared me, making me fall onto my back and I couldn't stop giggling.

He was lying on top of me, with a huge smile on his face.

'' I missed that smile'' his smile reached his eyes as I said that.

I traced my thumb over his lip and bit mine. I felt his hand on my thigh as he squeezed it, I wrapped my legs around his waist and went back to tracing my fingers over his bottom lip, it looked so kissable.

His eyes burned into mine and gave me a naughty smirk before he gently bit my thumb , I snatched it away and giggled.

I tightened my legs around his waist pulling him as close to me as possible and placed my hands on his biceps, tracing my left hand over his tattoo.

'' I missed being in this position with you'' he whispered into my ear and gently bit my neck and then trailed kisses until his lips reached the top of my red lace bra.

He groaned, '' Fuck fore play I need to be inside of you'' I could hear the urgency in his voice.

He threw his vest on the floor and kissed me hard. I could feel his fingers unclasping my bra while his other hand explored my body until it landed on my ass and squeezed it a bit too hard, but I didn't mind, it showed me how much he wanted me.

I wrapped my hands tightly around his neck and pulled him closer.

I heard something rip and realized it was my panties, he laughed. '' Sorry I did not mean to do that'' he couldn't stop laughing.

'' You are such a liar!'' I pushed him off me ,got on top of him and straddled him.

His hands gripped my waist and he pushed into me hard. His eyes never left mine.

'' You know I really didn't mean to do that'' his fingers were tracing circles on my back.

I could still feel his heart beating fast, I guess round two really wore him out.

I smiled and looked up at him.

'' I know'' he kissed the top of my head.