H E' S M I N E

C H A P T E R – T EN

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The banging music from downstairs is seeping through the floors and carpets and mattress to where I am. I hug the pillow and face my back to the door. I planned to go down there, but the two guys who I really want there with me, aren't here and I'm alone. I mean I could obviously find someone to hang out with in an instant, but I prefer Jay and Troy.

However, I could really use a drink, and I totally expect Spencer to have beer down there. I want to go, but I kind of don't. I mean it's not like if I get drunk and pass out, I'd have to walk home or whatever, I'll be home. So there really are no downsides. Plus, Jay and Troy would want me to tell them how awesome the party was...

So it's settled, I'm going.

I throw on a black, leather skater skirt, a Mickey Mouse top, which was a bit big, and a pair of simple flats on my feet. To help my problem with my top, I stuck it in the skirt and rolled up the sleeves. It looked okay, to me. I put a chain around my neck, with a strange pendant and some bangles on my hand. My hair was left down and I quickly fixed my face. I grabbed my phone and left my room. The music is ten thousand times louder when I actually get down stairs. Out of all the drunken and dancing people, Spencer was the first to greet me.

"Ah you finally made it!" he passed me a beer, which was my inspiration for coming down here. As usual, the house was a mess. Every time Spencer hosts a party, we always have to spend the entirety of the next day, cleaning. One time we even had to hire help. Gosh, teenagers are the worst...

I take the drink form his hands, "Yeah, I just had to see my gorgeous brother tonight," I shout back at him over the music. Spencer grinned, "I am very handsome..."

"Fuck you, Spencer!"

"Don't worry, you're a little pretty."

I rolled my eyes and walked away from him. I had finished my beer so I went to get more. However, I was stopped and tugged at before I could reach the kitchen. "Oh my gosh! Shae! You look so nice!" It was Chelsea, except she wasn't awkward and boring, she just seemed so happy and confident; she must be drunk. She ran her fingers through my hair, which isn't changed at all, "Your hair is so nice... it's totally better than mine... How...?"

"Well uh dye..." I shrug. She burst out laughing and I rose a brow. She gripped my wrist and began to walk with me. I hit a lot of people and had to dodge a bunch of crazily dancing teens, but eventually we made it to a clear spot and Chelsea began to dance with me. I'm not even drunk yet, but I guess I could dance now.

"Oh this feels so good, you know!" she exclaimed to me and I still had no idea about what she was speaking about. "I fucking love being drunk! I feel so free!" she screamed at the top of her lungs. No one here seemed to care but It really affected my eardrums along with the banging music. After a while of dancing with Chelsea, I decided to go for another drink.

I haven't seen Xander for the night and I don't know if I'm thankful or upset that he didn't show up. Isn't he supposed to try to win me back? Why are guys so stupid? I grab a beer and down in in some seconds. As you can clearly see, I really want to get drunk. Like drunk until I'm fucking passed out and my body is numb to the world. I met a group of random people taking shots and I decided to participate also.

Approximately half an hour later, I'm stumbling around, my head feeling light and I have not a single care in the world. I'm singing loudly, and dancing crazily and grinding on guys and kissing girls and it's all normal to me. The music is pumping in my head and I close my eyes as I drunkenly moved my head to the beat, with a beer in my hand and a lollipop at my lips, I don't know where I got it though.

It's getting really late, or maybe I should say early as it is nearing morning. Chelsea was sat at my side on my bed, while there were a few other people on the ground, playing a game. When she realized they were playing, she squealed and went down to the ground. I stayed on the bed, sipping my beer. Not long after, Spencer and his best friend entered the room, both of them as drunk as me. Spencer crawled on the ground and Xander sat with me.

He immediately took the beer from my hands, and I took his cigarette. He laughed softly as did I. I pull in then blow out smoke in his face. "You're a fucker," he says to me. I shrugged my shoulders and went to say something but was interrupted by Chelsea. Who basically jumped on Xander and kissed his lips. I furrowed my brows at the bitch then looked away. What is her issue? He's mine.

I rolled my eyes and moved down to the floor with the others. They were all drinking and smoking, as me and talking complete shit and laughing. I don't know why I don't hang out with these guys on a daily basis. They all seem so cool. Everyone seemed to pair off, and I decided to make conversation with the guy next to me. It started out like a normal conversation involving the basic information like name and age and how I'm doing and stuff, then he asked if I was in a relationship. I stumbled with my words for a while until I finally shook my head. The blonde guy smiled at me and I smiled back. He offered his drink and I mumbled a thanks as I took it from his hands.

I'm intoxicated as fuck, but I can totally see this guy isn't ugly. In fact, he's like really good looking. I think his eyes are blue, which is a good match for his blonde hair. I wonder if he has a good body... or if he can kiss? I mean, I'm just curious to know if my new friend would make it in the world out there. Good looks aren't the only things girls are looking for, he should be able to kiss right?

I lean over to his ear and whispered, "Kiss me..." I bit my lip and remained close to him. He stared at me for a while, before eagerly smashing his lips on mine, automatically cupping my cheeks. I couldn't help but smile in the kiss, then soon began to kiss him back. I opened my mouth for his tongue to go in and all I could taste was alcohol, but it wasn't any different from mine so I liked it. I could use another can of beer.

"What the fuck!?" the guy was abruptly tugged away from me. I furrowed my brows as I looked up, to find Xander slamming him against the wall. My eyes widened and I quickly yet clumsily stand to my feet. "Xander stop! W-what are you doing?!"

By now, everyone in my room had their eyes on him as he held the guy against the wall in the most violet way. His eyes held fury. I've never seen Xander get like this and honestly, it's a turn off. I'm not scared, I'm just shocked. My sweet, kind Xander turned into a raging bull because a guy kissed me.

Now that I'm thinking about it... it's kind of sweet.

But I'm still pissed.

"He fucking kissed you!" he shouts at the guy as his grip tightened.

"Dude, I'm sorry! I didn't know she's your girlfriend..." The guy mumbled and I shake my head. I was about to deny it, but Chelsea spoke, "I'm his girlfriend." I bite my bottom lip as Xander let go of the guy. He fell to his knees and began to breathe quickly, while Xander made no hesitation as he exited the room. I look around, suddenly feeling a little less drunk now.

Chelsea was staring at me but I had nothing to tell her. I can tell her right now if I want, it's not like she would even remember tomorrow morning, but I really can't take that chance. Plus, I think it would make sense for Xander to tell her... I think...

I go to the guy, cupping his cheek softly. I mumble, "I'm so sorry..."

"Are you sure that's not your boyfriend?" he asks me and I shook my head. I know all eyes are on me, so I try to look as convincing as possible. Spencer was the one to tell everyone to take the party downstairs. That is actually a pretty good idea. Sleeping off all this seems impossible tonight, but completely needed. Everyone left my room and Chelsea was still staring at me. I can't decipher what she's trying to tell me or thinking. I don't know if she's upset or shocked. Or maybe she's figuring it out...

About ten minutes after, when the room was empty, Xander came in. He closed the door behind him and I looked up at him from my phone. I guess I was sort of expecting him back. I stand up and walk to him. He opened his mouth to say something, but I kissed him.

After I pull away, I say, "You nearly beat up a guy for me."

Xander sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. He walked passed me and I turned to look at him. My back was pressed against the door and my hands behind my back. "Why did you do it...?" he asked.

I shrug my shoulders, "Because."

"Because what, Shae?" I could tell he wanted to raise his voice, but the music has been lowered and his voice might probably be amplified.

"Because he was there and you weren't. You were with your girlfriend and I couldn't kiss you. But I could've kissed him and no one would care."

"I would care! Did you not think of me?"

"Do you think of me when you're with her? Do you think of me when you're being all cute and shit with her? Do you fucking think of me when you refuse to just dump her?" I quarrel in a whisper shout voice, "I kissed one fucking guy, Xander, while you flirt and kiss and I don't know probably fuck another girl and the worst fucking part is I have to sit and look at you act like that with her. I have to fucking pretend to hate you because you don't have the fucking balls to dump her."

"Shae, you don't get it! I cannot just dump her. There's more to Chelsea than the shy girl you see."

"Well great! You can stay with Chelsea, and discover the 'more to Chelsea'. We're done."

"Shae, shut up, you're fucking wasted."

"Drunken words are sober thoughts. Get out," I step away from the door and hold it open for him. He stared at me for a while then finally began to walk to the door. "Fuck you," he cursed. I showed him my middle finger, "Yeah fuck you too!" I slammed the door behind him then immediately ran to my bed.

I hug my pillow and a stupid, unwanted tear left my eyes.

What the fuck did I just do?

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