Mitch Grassi as Troy Hayes <3

_________________________________________________________________

H E' S M I N E

C H A P T E R – T W E N T Y - F I V E

<><><>

I don't feel bad for her at all. I mean, I know she's a friend and I should have a heart, but I'm also a certified bitch and I don't give a fuck. I don't want her going to Prom with Xander anymore. She can totally find someone else. He's mine and she needs to stay away. I have gone through so much shit with her to finally have Xander as my own, I can't have her butting in now that I actually have him still.

Chelsea needs a boyfriend. I would volunteer to help her, but I really can't take that pressure. I just don't want her around Xander. That's understandable, right? I mean, it's okay to be possessive. Keeping her away will be easy though, we only have three more days and then summer. I can repel her like a bug for the entirety of summer, that's not an issue. Those three days are short, however, they will still be together; school.

The suckish part is that Xander probably wants to go to Graduation. Chelsea will be there and I won't.

Gosh, I sound so psycho.

I shouldn't even be this worried. Xander is over her...

But then again it's not Xander I'm afraid of, it's her. Who knows what she might do when I'm not there?

Thankfully, I have him here. And I guess it's here and now that matters. I don't even know if we might survive for tomorrow. For all we know my mum could walk in right now and kill both of us. She's cool and all, but she would flip if she saw us together like this, although we didn't have sex (might have done some other things, but no sex).

Tonight Spence is at a party, living his last days in high school to the fullest. And by that I mean, getting wasted and staying over at a friend's house then coming home the next afternoon. I'm so curious to see him in college. I won't be there but I wish I was.

College...

"What's going to happen to us in college?" I ask him softly.

"Uhm, I guess we won't be really far away from each other."

"I hate that. Why can't you go to my college?" I pout. Xander's chest vibrated as he laughed, "I already got accepted to mine."

"I'm totally going to miss you," I say.

"Hey, it's not like you'd be in china or something. I'll visit you almost every fucking hour," he says and I laugh. If only that could happen...

"That'd be great."

"Plus, you'll have Troy. Didn't he get accepted as well?" he inquired. I nod my head. Jay and Troy will be in the same position as Xander and I. It's sad what education takes away from you. I'm going to miss having Jay around. I'm glad I'll actually have Troy with me. And Chelsea won't be close to any of us. I'm not rejoicing or anything, I'm just stating. I don't have a problem with her as a person, I have a problem with her around my boyfriend.

"Yeah... But I'll still miss you like fuck," I tell him honestly. How could I not miss him? He's my Xander.

"I'll miss you too, baby," he replied. I couldn't help but grin from ear to ear. I look up at him, still smiling. He looked confused as to why I was smiling so much, but it's merely because of what he said. Those simple words had such a major effect on me, it's amazing. I pecked his lips and smiled at him.

"Well we still have the entire summer, so." I grin.

"Yeah, you know how much things we can do," he smirked, and I just had a feeling he was thinking dirty. I rolled my eyes and rest my chin on his chest, "I'm so eager to find out..."

"Great. I looked up some websites where I found perfect outdoor activities," he says with a silly grin. I slap his chest, and he went on to question, "Wait, what were you thinking of?"

"Ha-ha, you're so funny," I stated sarcastically. Xander laughed softly and I rolled my eyes. Sure, make me sound like the pervert of the relationship. Everyone knows that's his role. I lay my head on his chest, where I began to smile because I know he can't see my face. Xander ran his fingers through my hair soothingly. It's really late at night, and sleep is calling me, but I really like staying up with Xander. However, him playing in my hair like this is really making me fall asleep faster.

"What are you doing tomorrow?" I ask him, trying to keep myself up. I'm accustomed to staying up until really late hours, but I'm tired from being with Xander and his fingers in my hair. It's just so relaxing right now.

"I don't know. I'll figure it out tomorrow..." he says, as expected. Guys never change, do they?

"Wow..." I mumble, "Good night."

I think I fell asleep so quickly after that, I didn't even hear what he replied with.

<><><>

"Shae, honey? You up?" I hear my mother's voice from outside of my door and my eyes immediately open. Fuck sleep, I need to get Xander in some clothes and out of my room. I shoot up like a fake plant on a children's cartoon and began to kick Xander's leg.

"Uh, I'll be downstairs soon, mum," I answer before she actually opens the door. Xander hasn't awoken yet and I was trying my hardest.

"Can I come in? Aren't you going to purchase your dress? I have to give you money before I leave."

"Uh, hold on..." I say and just decided to go to the door. I open it halfway and quickly step outside. Mum stared down at my body and rose her eyebrows. Only then had I realized I'm only in an underwear and a bra. I smile sheepishly at her, "Good morning, mum..."

"Uh good morning, honey," she mumbled, "I'm not even going to begin to fathom what you were doing to yourself in there-"

"Eww, mum, no. I don't do that," I groan, wishing she would just hurry this process up. She chuckled, "It's okay, love. I read somewhere that when you masturbate it-"

"That's okay, mum, I'll look it up myself," I cut her off. Why is she like this? Isn't she supposed to be strict parent? Well at least she used to be. Now she's all open and it's weird. After dad died, she was so closed up and barely communicated with us. I'm glad she's happy now, but damn, stop being so weird.

"Okay, okay," she giggled, "Here's the credit cards. Have a blast. But not too much of a blast because you still need to eat and live tomorrow."

"yes, ma'am," I smile at her as I accept the credit cards. She rolled her eyes then stepped forward and engulfed me in a hug. "Have fun, sweetie."

"I will."

"Oh and please don't ever do that again," she says as she pulled away, her hands on both my shoulders.

"Uh what?" I ask.

"Honey, I know you know, what I'm talking about. Mama knows it all. And I'm only letting you slide now because you're graduating tomorrow," she says. My jaw drops and she winks at me. "Tell him get some clothes on."

"Uh...yeah..." I'm still shocked... THAT I'M STILL FUCKING ALIVE! She gave me credit cards and she didn't freak over Xander being here, in my bed, half naked. Wow, she really is changing. I'm fucking blessed, I swear. I slowly went back inside my room and closed the door behind me. I still can't comprehend what the hell happened, but I'm sort of happy it did.

I furrow my eyebrows at Xander, who was up and sitting on my bed. "What is it?" he asked me.

"My mother knows you're here," I say to him.

"What?" he sounded just as shocked as me, "And she's not in here?"

"Strangely enough, no..." I answer. I think I just need a moment to breath and think. On the bed, I could hear Xander chuckling softly and I looked up to see him running his fingers through his hair, with a relieved expression. I rest down the credit cards on my dresser and got a big T-shirt to put on. I need to go down stairs to see if she's still here and ask her what drug she's taking and why.

As I reached the very last step, I notice the front door closing, which means she just left. After using my precious energy to get to the front door to at least tell her good bye, I realized she wouldn't want me out in just a big T-shirt. I guess, I'll just text her later. I skip back up the stair to my room, which was now empty. Xander is obviously in the shower so I guess I just have to sit here and wait.

I decided to call Jay, who is probably at Troy's place so it would be like I'm calling Jay and Troy. Just as expected, the phone rang a few times, then Troy answered in his cute morning voice. I smiled, "Good morning. Please wake up your husband and tell him we're going shopping today!"

"Oh my gosh, you and I both know Jay isn't getting up now," he replies with a chuckle.

"Wake him up!" I exclaim, "Find a sexy way to do it, and get the guy up!"

"Sure thing sweetheart."

I laughed softly and hung up the phone. Those two are hilarious. They're so fricking weird it's cute. After my phone call with Troy, I lay back in bed and waited for Xander to come out of the shower. But because I'm impatient as fuck, after about two minutes of waiting I got up and went to the bathrooms. I took a seat on the closed toilet and listened as the water fell.

"You were showering for centuries," I grumble after another two minutes.

"You're wrong."

"I want to shower!" I sigh loudly. Xander's laugh filled the bathroom and I only rolled my eyes. I have a day of shopping and girl talk ahead of me, I need my long shower. I sat there for like another millennium then he finally stepped out. I slapped his ass as he walked away from me. How dare he take five hundred years in the shower?

I stripped down to nothing and finally had my time in the shower. The water trickled down my body and I felt free and clean and just at peace, at last. Showering is my 'me time'. I think about random shit and plan out the shit I might tell people. I get to stand here and do nothing, which is just perfect for me. See that's the best part, when I'm showering, I can't be bothered. Mum can't call me to do the dishes, because I'm showering and by the time I'm done, it will be no use. It's practically an easy way out of every chore.

After my shower, I go back to my room to change, where I found Xander already dressed, with his phone in hand on my bed, looking as comfortable as ever. I picked up my phone from my bedside table and took a seat on my bed. I'm supposed to be ready by nine in the morning. Which means I have an hour and a half to get ready.

I can totally check my notifications and still be on time. Xander is doing the same thing...
I have time, plus its only like six social media apps I'm going to check. That's not much. I'll just have to retweet or repost some stuff. It doesn't take much time... plus there are a few Instagram posts I have to like, and I cannot forget Snapchat.

After doing everything there is to be done on my phone, I decided to just check my trends and then I'll turn my phone off. Somehow, I managed to get sucked into the catchy trends and now I'm mindlessly scrolling through and liking tweets in a trend.

"Babe, aren't you supposed to meet Jay and Troy in like twenty minutes?" Xander snapped me out of my phase and I looked up at him. I glanced down at the time at the top of my screen and cussed silently. This is so fucked up! How did time pass so quickly?

I dashed up off the bed to my closet and fished out the first top I saw. I was still in my fricking towel! They are going to quarrel so much, although it's totally expected. "You're so fucked up," Xander laughed as I tried to get into a pair of black skinny jeans with cuts at the thighs and knees. I rolled my eyes at him and plop down on the bed to get my foot through the stupid hole.

"Give me my top," I say to him. He chuckled before asking, "You aren't planning on wearing a bra?"

I groan and buttoned the jeans. I am always like this. I could never get dressed on time and I'm usually left just hopping around my room trying to put clothes on my body. After finally getting a bra and putting it on, I grabbed my black top. I was too busy to pay attention to the print on the top. I just went for a pair of black converse. After putting those on successfully, I got a silver chain and put that around my neck to hang in front of my chest. I grabbed a beanie, just so no one would see the real mess that's called my hair. I comb out the ends so it looks a bit presentable. I turned to face Xander who was cracking up. I ignored that, "So, how do I look?"

"Really good."

"Thank you."

"No make-up?" he asked and stood from the bed. I shook my head, but picked up a tube of lipstick, "Just this. Make-up takes too much time. Let's just go."

"Okay..." he says. Xander opened the door for me and I stepped out. After reaching about half way down, I realized I forgot the credit cards. How smart. I am just not myself today this morning. I think my mum fucked me up this morning. I blame her for all my mishaps.