H E' S M I N E

C H A P T E R – T W E L V E

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My life doesn't exactly feel complete right now, but it feels pretty damn good. Xander is mine again! He loves me again! My fingers slowly run up and down his body and my head rest on his chest. Xander was awkwardly massaging my head which made me smile. I really wish we didn't have to get up to go to school and pretend we hate each other. Today is going to suck, I can already foresee it.

It's around six in the morning and we're both up. Spencer hasn't arrived home yet, neither has my mother. I don't know when she's coming, hell I don't even know where she went. Spencer only told me that she won't be home for two days. Why wouldn't she tell me? I'm like her favorite child, why would she tell Spence that she's leaving and not me?

"Good morning," Xander says softly. I laugh, "We've been up for hours..."

"Yeah, but its morning now."

"It's been morning since like twelve," I roll me eyes.

"Well I couldn't tell you good morning then," I look up to see a smirk on his face. I blush a bit and softly laugh. Xander continued to rub my back and I began to softly kiss his chest. I feel so happy when I'm with him. Like it's so serious, I don't feel this way with anyone else. I hate the world and everyone in it, besides Xander. He makes me feel different and I can't deny that feeling no matter how much I try, which is why I just embrace it.

When we first met, I really did hate him, and I tried to ignore the feelings I got when I was around him, but it proved to be really fucking hard. Our story is really unlike any other, hopefully we'd be that couple telling our grandchildren about the shit we did in high school and how we met. I don't usually think about those things because it's just not me. I don't think about what's going to happen fifty years from now. Whatever is going to happen, will happen. It doesn't matter what I say, it's just how it's supposed to happen. Like us.

"Hey, did you fall asleep?" Xander tapped my shoulder. I shake my head and let out a sigh. I got up and looked down at him. He stared at my eyes for a brief moment, then went down to my body. Typical guy. I take a pillow and shove it in his face and I stepped off the bed. Xander began to laugh. "I don't get what you're hiding for..."

"Hmm," I hum. The irony of his statement. I glance at him and shake my head a bit as I wrapped one of the covers around my body. I walked to the door, across the hall and into the bathroom. I wrap a towel around my body instead, then walk back into the bedroom. Xander was on his phone when I threw the covers at him. "Get up, go shower and get out."

"Is that how you're going to talk to me? The love of your life?" He smirks at me. I laugh, "Okay, baby, can you please go shower so you can leave before we get caught?"

He smiled and nodded, "Sure, babe. Will you be joining?"

"I don't think you deserve it..." I plop down on the bed. Xander walked to the door, "I totally think I do." He left the room and I rolled my eyes. I picked up my phone and dialed Troy. I know it's early in the morning, but this is basically the time Troy gets up. Jay on the other hand wakes up around seven thirty to eight and is always late. It surprises me sometimes.

When I called his phone, it went straight to voicemail. I groan, I need to go see them. If I don't see one of them this morning I'm going to find them. I'll seriously go to their houses and find them both. They live right next to each other, how could they possibly still be vex with each other. They're supposed to make up by now and come to school. I miss them so much, you won't believe.

"Shae!" Spencer's voice boomed throughout the house and my eyes widened. He's home, and Xander is in the bathroom. "Uh hey, uh Spence!" I quickly get up and rush across the halls to the bathroom. "I'm in the shower!"

"Okay."

Xander pulled the curtains and looked at me with raised eyebrows. I motion for him to shut up and continue showering. I took a seat on the toilet and let out a soft sigh. "Can you hurry up, Shae. I need to pee."

"Use mum's bathroom!" I call.

"Fuck no. She has a bunch of shit in there that we aren't supposed to see..." Spence shouts from behind the door. That's disgusting, mum. "Just use it, Spencer. I have to wash my hair and shit."

"I need to fucking pee! It's not like I'm going to watch you."

I groan and glance at Xander. He looks like he could care less. I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do. Why is Spence even home now? "Shae, unlock the god damn door or I'll fucking pee on you."

"Eww, Okay, okay, I just have to stop showering and open the door..." I shout at him. I dropped my towel and ran in the shower, getting myself wet the wrapping the towel back around me. "Lay down in the tub," I whisper to Xander then quickly close the curtain. I bite my lip softly as I went to open the bathroom door. Spencer rushed in and I immediately turned away from him. That's one thing I definitely don't want to see, I just hope he doesn't decide to look behind the curtain. After I stop hearing his pee, I turned and ran my fingers through my hair. As Spencer washed his hands he glanced at me with a strange look.

"What's your problem?" he scoffed.

"Uh I want to shower."

"Well I want to wash my hands properly," he smiles at me, with a bitchy/evil glint in his eyes. I groan loudly and shut off the tap. I stared at him angrily then pointed to the door, "Get out."

"Okay, fine. I'll leave," he rolled his eyes and walked to the door. He flicked my hair, which was tied up in a messy sort of bun thing. After Spencer left the room, I let out a deep breath and pulled the curtain to find my naked boyfriend lying in what seems like a really uncomfortable position in my bathtub. I flashed a sorry smile and he sat up, "You should go."

"Yeah..." he nodded his head. I passed him and walked to the door, opening it slowly to make sure my idiot brother isn't lurking like a fucking hungry eagle around prey. He isn't there, probably in his room or in the kitchen. I opened the door wider and Xander ran across the hall into my room. I wanted to laugh at the way he ran, but now wasn't the time.

"Okay, get your clothes and just please don't get caught... or fall down or something..." I say to him after he was dressed. He laughed and shook his head. He stood up and run his hands along my waist and leaned down to kiss my neck softly. "I love you."

"I love you, too," I nod. He stepped away slowly in the direction of the window. After he was gone, I turned and went back into the bathroom. I was glad to see that Spence was nowhere close so I could shower in peace. It's really early, so I decided on a long shower. However, after like fifteen minutes of my shower Spencer was banging on the door. I really need to start complaining about this sharing a bathroom shit.

"Shae, are you still fucking showering?" He banged on the door. I was actually finished doing the main things like washing my hair and lathering my skin, I just like standing here and having the water trickle down my body. It's so relaxing and it just takes me away. But it has to be cut short. I step out of the bathroom and smugly smile at Spence, who was shirtless and a towel wrapped loosely around his waist.

"You smell disgusting, by the way."

He scoffed, "Like you smell any better."

"I do. I just showered."

"That don't mean shit. Everyone knows you suck at things like that, you know, showering and looking like people," he grinned at me and I rolled my eyes.

"Wow, Spence, You proud of that one?"

"Very," he answered and walked into the bathroom. I pulled the door shut and slammed it only for dramatic effect. He can be so annoying at times. I swear, if he wasn't my brother and my mother actually loved him, I would totally kill him in an instant. I pad to my room and close my door.

So, I've been thinking, and I decided instead of going to see Troy after I go to school or something, I'll just go now. I'll tell his mum I'm giving him a ride to school. Jay, on the other hand, I'll have to wait until he comes to school, which is a long time from now.

"Spence, I'm leaving okay?" I call to him.

"Yeah sis, sure thing. I'll see you at school," he says. I grab my bag and stuff for school, although I doubt I would even go to school today. I just want to hang out with the guys... Or at least one of them at a time. I pick up my phone and slip on my shoes then headed down stairs. I grab an apple before I leave the house. Mum always pressure us to have breakfast because its 'the most important meal'. Sometimes I really don't feel for breakfast.

I leave the house and quickly get to my car. I bite into the apple before I began to drive to Troy's. When I was like a corner away from Troy, my phone began to ring. There's a slight chance it could be either Troy or Jay, but I feel like reaching for my phone would be such a burden. Plus, it will be a really cool surprise if it actually was Troy and I show up at his door. I parked on the street and exited the car. I should have bought an apple for Troy also... or I shouldn't have eaten mine.

My fist came in contact with the door three times then I waited. I fiddle with my keys in my hand for a few seconds, then got impatient and knocked again. I sighed softly, but soon had force a feign smile as his mother opened the door. She greeted me then allowed me in. She directed me to Troy, although I already know this place like my own. She explained that he says he isn't feeling well so she's allowing him to stay home.

I nod at her, not believing Troy's lie for anything. I know him, he cannot tell me that shit and expect me to believe him. I guess his mother is a bit gullible. The back of her short, black head of hair, went into the kitchen and I climbed the stairs to Troy's room. I'm pretty sure he is not expecting me, which is great. I want to see the look on his face when he sees me standing at his door.

I knocked, on the door, although I know I am welcomed to just walk in. After some seconds of standing there, I became impatient and opened the door. The room was completely empty, just his messy bed. Troy's room is neat, besides the bed. He actually has things where they're supposed to be. Both of them are like that and they always fuck me up for having such a messy bedroom or eating like a pig.

I walk through his room to get to his bathroom which he was obviously in, since I heard him singing. Strangely enough, Troy can sing, like really good. But I don't fancy singing much. If I had a choice between singing and dancing, I'd probably pick flying. I take a seat on his bed and sit facing the bathroom so I would see when he came out. His singing grew a bit louder as he walked to the door of the bathroom.

As he opened the door I wore a huge smile, but he screamed and basically dropped his towel.

"Oh my god!" he screams breathlessly as he bent to pick up his towel. To be honest I wasn't fazed by his nudity, Its normal. I'm not interested in Troy's nude body, so it doesn't bother me.

"Why are you here?" He was still gasping for air. I laughed softly and shake my head, but soon got serious. "You guys aren't coming to school and I miss you! Why did you leave me?" I whine.

"I needed some time off..." he replied softly and took a seat next to me on the bed. I reach over to take his hand and he leaned his head on my shoulder. I'm taller than my friends so it's pretty simple for them to do things like that without any strain. Basically, I'm the guy in the relationship. "I planned to go to school today... but then I decided against it."

"Why?"

"I don't know, Shae. I just feel different... Like a whole bunch of feelings and I don't know what to do. So I thought maybe if I hid from them, they'd go away."

"Troy, why don't you just tell him? Both of you would feel better and happy. And don't tell me shit about you aren't enough for him because we all know Jay loves you, with all your messed up flaws." I'm helping a random girl with her confidence issues, when my own best friend is going through the very same thing. I feel horrible with myself. I left him when he was obviously in need for her, and I barely even like her.

"Troy, I'm sorry," I say after a while of silence.

"For what?"

"Because I wasn't here with you guys and I'm a really bad friend," I admit. He chuckled softly and shook his head, "You're a great friend, Shae. I don't care if you weren't here yesterday or the day before, what matters is that you're here now. So thank you."

"You're welcome..." I mumble as I kiss his cheek. He let out a breath.

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Hi guys! I know, late Chapter and I'm sorry. Yesterday was super busy. But there's a new chapter today, so be thankful.