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"My name is Alec Washington."

He gave me a warm smile, and i just sat there.

Feels like that name is similar to Alex..

Stupid me, over thinking everything.

"Oh Sorry.. Im John."

"Wanna talk about it? It's fine if you don't."

"Im ok.. Thanks for caring."

"No prob." He grinned, and stuck his hand out for me to pull on to get up. I did so, and fixed my shirt and wiped my eyes awkwardly.

A gush of anxious vibes was filling my stomach, because i swear his face looks just like him...

Blood.

It's everywhere.

Can't fix what's been done.

Monster.

"Hey, ya wanna go grab a coffee?" Alec offers, dragging me away from the voice in my head.

"Um yeah, sure." I reply shakily, plastering the best friendly smile i could muster.

"Alrighty, I'll pay by the way. I know a place that's pretty good and not to far."

As he leads the way, i follow suit. A billion thoughts swirl my head, as the anxious bubble inside me blows up bigger.

How does this kid look and sound so similar to Alex?? His name is even the same almost. Just has a dumb "C" at the end instead of a "X".

I stray further and further from paying attention to reality and him leading the way to a coffee place i don't wanna go to. I only said yes so he wouldn't feel bad. Beginning to regret not saying no now.

"This place has some killer muffins." Alec says, and chuckles.

Killer.

Kinda like me.

I squeeze my hands into a sweaty fist, as he opens the double door to this so called "great coffee" shop. The instant smell of coffee slapped me in my freckled face, and the cold as fuck air. It was pretty cold in here for a coffee place.

I don't even drink coffee. Tell me again why i agreed to this?

"You have any perfences you like?" Alec questioned me, yet again dragging me back into reality.

"Um.. Just a muffin. Any kind." I mumble.

"Alrighty, you can go pick a spot while i order."

I shuffled away and went to sit down at a booth for two. I felt so out of place, and i really wasn't in the mood for a muffin anyways, i just didn't want to be rude. My stomach was churning enough as it is, just from being super anxious. When Alec came back, he had a coffee and muffin in hand.

"Here ya go, it's blueberry." He says and hands me the muffin.

"Thanks." I mutter and once again fake smile.

He smiles back, and sits across from me while sipping on his coffee.

So awkward.

"Wanna do 20 questions?" Alec suggests, breaking the silent tension.

"Sure.."

No.

"Alright I'll go first."

..........

*many questions laTer*

"20th question, do you have a crush on anyone?"

I almost felt my heart stop.

"C-crush?" I stutter.

His face instantly goes to a lenny one.

"Got your eyes on anyone? It's fine if you don't. No pressure to answer." He reassures, maybe noticing my shocked reaction.

Alex..

I forcefully blink back tears, but my hands decided to shake instead.

You killed the one you loved.

He just wants to expose you.

Maybe he saw you.

Maybe he saw you stab him till his thick blood covered your dirty hands.

M o n s t e r.

"I-i gotta go nice meeting you thanks for this!" I sprint up and dash out of the cafe.

My legs were wobbly and i couldn't stand properly, i desperately run across the small field to my dorm. When i rummaged for my key and unlocked the door, i fell in and crashed..

I can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't breathe i can't-

Black.