The angry man stood with his back against the glass gym door as he watched Noah who was doing squats with a barbell and he had Leon supporting his weight with both hands resting smoothly on his waist. Anger flaring in Andrews's face as every once in awhile Leon would whisper into Noah's ear and he would laugh. He didn't understand these feelings that he gets each time he saw the boy especially the ones he's getting staring at him flirt with another man.

No one ever made him feel this way, ever.

"I need to piss, and we could grab food and water, believe me, Adrian isn't coming down today." They both laughed and Noah made his way out of the gym leaving Leon to put things back in order before joining him.

Once Noah was out of sight, Andrew walked into the room.

"Hey, I saw you standing there, would you like some workout?" Leon smiled, His voice sounded calm but firm.

"Touch him like that again and I will break your arm,"

The menace suddenly in his voice and face scared Leon. It was like looking at him when they had first met and he had thought he was dangerous as hell. Andrew always has that first impression on people. Leon felt a shiver go through him, he even whimpered before he mumbled an apology and ran out of the room, keeping as far away from Noah as the walls allowed.

Noah who had just happened to have walked in at that very moment saw the fear in Leon's eyes and the way he had run out of the room in a panic. Poor Leon, he believed the threat and if Noah didn't know the nice side of Andrew, he sure would too. Noah watched as that side of Andrew faded and his normal expression reappeared, and it was like a mask coming off.

Andrew spun on his heels and halted when his eyes caught Noah glaring back at him. He averted his gaze and rather fixed it on the wall.

Noah walked towards the man, standing right in front of him.

"What just happened?"

"Nothing." Andrew retorted.

"You okay?"

"I should be asking you that."

"I didn't just go psycho on a nice gym instructor doing his job." Noah couldn't for the life of him understand this man.

"Sorry, I did get a bit extreme, it's just that, I didn't like the way he was touching you, it's like he was doing it on purpose to irk me."

"I'm sorry, but that doesn't make any sense to me. What's it to you, how someone touches me?"

"I..." Andrew held back his tongue from speaking any more unwanted words.

Noah has ruined him completely.

"What were you going to say?"

"Nothing." Andrew met his eyes for a few seconds before he looked away yet again.

Noah thought he saw a flicker of something when their eyes met. There was a second, a glimmer of something in Andrew's eyes, a quick intake of breath, and then it was all gone, so fast he couldn't be sure he wasn't just seeing what he wanted to see.

"Do you like me?" Noah dared the devil. He couldn't take it anymore. He didn't like how Andrew makes him feel and yet the man never showed even the most tin of interest and even if he did, he was extremely good at masking them so much that Noah feels he was beginning to imagine things or he's become so desperate that he would believe anything.

"I...I do, maybe a little too much and I shouldn't." Andrew sounded angry.

Noah got annoyed at his tone then. "Why the crazy then? Why bother Leon? What is your problem?!" Noah asked, irritated. Andrew has no right to interfere with anyone who shows interest in him when he was shut up so tight.

Noah kind of wanted him to snap back at him, but he smiled. Damn him being so decent when he was trying to wind him up. Noah stood and wandered across the room, heading for the door. Andrew was stood with his back to the door on his way but he didn't think anything of it until he tried to walk past and Andrew stopped him. Andrew's hand on his arm sent a shiver through him, but he just stared at it for a moment before looking at his face. Andrew looked confused, but there was something else there when their eyes met, something that made Noah feel uncomfortable and he wasn't sure if it was in a good or bad way. His voice was soft and gentle when he spoke.

"Please, I apologize for what I did, it's not my fault, you...you ruin me."

"Am I supposed to understand what that means because I honestly don't."

They held eye contact, and Noah was acutely aware that Andrew's hand was still on his arm. Not exactly sexual contact, but it was making him nervous. Noah swallowed hard and he knew Andrew saw it by the look that came in his eyes. There was an intensity there that he had only seen for brief seconds before, but now it wasn't going away, and Andrew's hand started to move, gently stroking his arm. Noah glanced at it, breaking their gazes, but when he looked back at Andrew his look was even more intense, and before he could get away, or wonder if he wanted to, Andrew changed everything. He kissed him.

Noah felt Andrew's lips on his and it startled him at first, but he didn't jump away. He needed it too badly to stop him, and when he felt Andrew's tongue against his lips he immediately opened up to let him in. It was soft but the intensity of that kiss had him shaking, the kiss from Andrew, the man who had been doing so much to him perhaps even without knowing. Noah played with him then, making sure Andrew knew he wanted this too, that he was enjoying every moment of them being together like this.

He almost expected things to get frantic, but they didn't despite his need. Andrew kept it slow, but didn't let up, it was pure passion. His arms were around Noah, and Noah's round him, pulling each other closer to get more contact and more pleasure for each of them. It was mind-blowing, having Andrew hold him and kiss him after all that he had dreamt of, and just as he was able to think straight and realize he didn't want this to end, it did.

Andrew broke away from their kiss suddenly, depriving Noah of the best experience of his life. Noah tried to pull Andrew back towards him but he disentangled himself completely and moved away.

"Sorry. I shouldn't have done that."

Noah's heart sank like a stone, and he knew he sounded annoyed when he replied. "Why the hell not?"

"I shouldn't be thinking about my dick. You're... You deserve better."

"What's that supposed to mean? It was just a kiss."

"That's why I had to stop before I couldn't and it became a lot more than a kiss."

"I want more than a kiss, dammit. You don't?" Noah questioned. Being hard and horny was stopping his normal reticence over what he said.

Andrew looked embarrassed. "Yes, I do. But I don't want to take advantage of you or this situation."

"Fuck that. If you don't want me then fine, but just tell me. I don't want cryptic comments."

Andrew took on a serious expression and was clearly up for the challenge.

"Okay. You're young and inexperienced. Completely inexperienced unless I've misunderstood. I'm older than you and I can't promise you anything at all because I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. I like you a lot, you're very attractive and I am always attracted to anyone I find slightly attractive. We have known each other for a while now so it's only natural that we'd form some kind of bond, but a sexual one doesn't seem like a good idea. Your first time should be with someone you love who can offer you a future together, not just because we're stressed out and horny."

Noah went red at Andrew knowing he was a virgin, although he guessed it hadn't been hard for him to work that out, he got cross with Andrew as he went on with his reasons. Noah felt like challenging him on every point but decided to leave out the argument over whether he was in love with him. He actually started laughing when Andrew finished, and it took him a moment to recover enough to tell Andrew why.

"Jesus, you're telling me I'm naïve, and then you come out with that shit about the first time having to be with someone special. I'm not stupid enough to think that. Maybe someday this mythical perfect man will come along, but I've not been sitting at home waiting for someone who wants to marry me. All I've wanted is someone I could trust enough to let myself go, who I knew would care enough to make it good for me and not just use me to get himself off and disappear before I've had a chance to pull my trousers up. I know this might sound crazy to you but, I trusted you. You even made my dick twitch when I first saw you. Sure that's just lust, but I don't care."

Andrew looked like he was going to argue with Noah but Noah didn't give him time to get a word in. He was clearly on a roll.

"As to being stressed, and being put into this position, I've been stressed because I didn't know what to do about you. You made this whole thing more complicated when I was already confused by the fact you turned me on, you give me these weird feelings and flirtatious glances, and then you had to go and run Leon out of the room which turned me on by the way and now he wouldn't even look me in the eyes. I know that we don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. I'd just hoped that you're that guy. I mean, you're best friends with Elijah and he is a good man."

Noah watched Andrew's face go through various emotions, although he couldn't pin most of them down because Andrew's expression changed so quickly. Noah definitely saw him wince when he had said he hoped he was that guy. Noah had worked himself up so much now that he was practically shouting at Andrew. He had also decided what he was going to do, and he calmed a little so he could make his feelings clear.

"I'm glad we kissed because at least I know why you've been avoiding me like the plague. Now that's sorted we can go back to pretending we don't want each other. That way you can protect both of us, and my honor, seeing as that is so important to you. I'm off to get dinner and go home, and from this minute we can just forget this ever happened."

"You can do that?" Andrew said with disbelief.

Now that Noah was riled he was stubborn. "Of course I can. You're probably right, I was just lusting over you in gratitude for looking after me the day you handed me a wad of cash and made my cock twitch. And you're definitely right about me deserving better."

Low blow. Noah could see in his face that the matter of fact way he said that hurt him a little, and he felt a perverse pleasure in doing it. In some ways, Noah knew he was punishing himself just as much as Andrew by pushing him away, but he was damned if he was going to beg for anything. He's clearly just made it known that he didn't want him that way.

"Noah, I need to talk to you." Andrew started the moment Noah reached the door.

Noah stood at the door but didn't turn around. "We agreed not to mention it."

"You decided, I didn't agree with anything."

"I think we agreed that it's best nothing happens. Discussing it seems pointless. You want to talk, find a therapist. Although, if you could talk to Elijah and find out what exactly is the matter with you, that too would be good."

Andrew's face showed hurt and anger. Noah tried to focus on the anger because hurting Andrew was making him feel awful.

"So you're not prepared to discuss what happened, but you are going to be pissy with me about it. That's just great."

"Nothing happened."

"No. Are you pissed at me because it didn't? Or because I want to talk about why it didn't?"

"We know why. I'm done talking."

"Well, I'm NOT."

Noah flinched at the shout. Andrew was back with his mean persona for a moment and that side of him still scared Noah. Even though he was already at the door with Andrew standing a few feet away, he still found himself backing off from Andrew when he started to look scared himself.

"I'm sorry. I just don't want things to be this way between us. I don't want you to hate me."

"I don't hate you."

"Do you still trust me?"

Noah thought about it for a moment. "Yes."

"You shouldn't. I haven't been entirely honest with you. Well, we haven't really talked but you shouldn't trust me. There are things I need to explain so you understand why I said what I said."

Andrew looked very lost, desperate for Noah to let him talk, and Noah was torn. If Andrew wouldn't let him go he probably did need to know what was going on, but if it was related to the kiss, Noah wasn't sure he could cope with that. He was putting up walls, but he really did want to understand Andrew because no matter how much he tried to deny it, he really wanted Andrew. Noah owed it to him to at least try and listen. So, he walked back into the room, found a bench and sat down.

"So tell me."

"I am exactly that guy." Andrew felt guilty. He has never felt this way before.

"What guy?" Noah asked confused.

"The type that fucks you and leaves even before you had the chance to pull your trousers up." Andrew has never regretted his lifestyle nor his actions more than he did that very moment. He felt as if he was about baring his soul to the soulless waiting to torture him. "I once had someone who loved me very much, so much that even when I would come home wearing the smell of other men and lipsticks of women on my shirt, he still loved me. Impulse control has never been my specialty, especially when I am found around anyone I considered attractive. Until now that I have met you, I never knew that one would feel this need to protect, this jealousy, to not have anyone touch who you care about and now I understood how Michael felt, so many nights and almost every weekend when he does laundry, I had caught him gripping onto my stained shirts and crying, it was so bad that I don't even ask him why he cried or even think that it was I who caused him pain. I adore you, Noah, but no matter how much I feel for you or I desperately need you, I know within myself that I am not worthy of your love, your body or your heart. I don't want to do to you what I did to Michael, he didn't deserve that, no one does. I wasn't interested in love or relationships. Hell, I don't even believe in love..."

Noah met the man's face and he didn't miss those tears of regrets that filled his eyes. This was whole new information, he didn't know Andrew was someone like that. He had thought that since he was best friends with Elijah that they probably rub off each other's good behaviors.

Well, that brings him to the knowledge that because one is friends with another doesn't mean they're the same person nor would they act alike.

Andrew paused and took a long hard look at Noah. It was a long time before he started talking again and when he did, he wouldn't look Noah in the eye as he finally spoke.

"Then I met you. I nearly forgot I didn't believe in love or relationships. I probably should not have agreed with Elijah when he bought you your studio so you could stay but he wouldn't have listened to me as he knows me better than anyone else. He knows what you do to me, he saw how I feel about you even when I was trying not to show it, and all of a sudden, I need you to know I was a good guy. I wasn't thinking sensibly, just that you had to know the truth about me."

This was starting to sound good, rather than bad. Noah relaxed a bit. Andrew had not quite admitted it but it seemed he'd liked him when he'd seen him, just as he had liked him. Andrew looked at Noah to check that he was still paying attention, but Noah couldn't wait to hear more of this story and he wasn't going to interrupt.

"When I returned I have immediately come here, not just because of Adrian but manly because of you. I couldn't have sex with anyone else as you were constantly in my head, like my heartbeats, I could feel you, here."

"So, you were thinking about me."

"You're not listening. I was thinking with my dick, not my head. Elijah says that about me all the time and it's true. I don't think with my head."

Noah just shrugged.

"Okay, irrespective of what I think with, I believe that you came into my life and you built yourself a home somewhere deep inside my heart where you knew I could never escape from."

"But..."

"No, let me tell you this. I hurt Michael, but even he was not able to mess with my head as much as you did. I needed you like the air I breathe. With you, I had to be cautious of all my actions, I had to present clean and...good. With you, I want to please. I didn't know someone could ever make me feel like that. But you do and that scared me so much because I know that I am not worthy of you and I could never be that man for you. I wouldn't want to hurt you but I can't make promises."

Andrew's head dropped and Noah saw his shoulders start to shake.

Shit, he really was crying.

Andrew couldn't believe he was actually crying.

He didn't remember the last time he's cried.

"Drew, you have feelings for me, real, actual feelings, you never felt this way before, and in all honesty, I feel special right now that I was the first one to bring out these emotions in you. What makes you think that you're not worthy of me or that you would hurt me even with these feelings that you have for me? I am safe with you."

"Not yet you aren't. I am still Andrew, I lack control."

"That's crap. You haven't had sex in a while even when you had the opportunities to, you just said so yourself. You do have control."

Andrew gave a choked laugh. "I didn't have sex because I wanted you, sexually. Its all I could think about. I hate myself for it, but the bottom line is I shoved every feeling aside and clouded them all with lust and that's my problem, why I can't get close to you. I can play pretend at that, but I can't offer it. I married Michael just so I could make him happy or prove a point doesn't mean that I wanted it. My life is too unpredictable to have a relationship with someone. And that's why I feel even worse about what I've done so far, what I did to Michael and what happens whenever I see you. I found myself staring and almost losing control and then I'm trying to seduce you despite you being a virgin. I feel like the biggest sleaze on the planet."

Noah laughed. "Seriously, you think you seduced me? What did you think when you saw me wearing this today?"

Noah gestured to his outfit and Andrew looked at him puzzled, and then shocked. "You did this deliberately?"

"I wanted to know what your reaction would be. What happened just a while ago, I was right here with you. I didn't stop it because I wanted you too. I may not have known all you've just told me, and thank you for explaining, but I knew what you had to offer. Even if you ended doing to me as you did to Michael and If all we ever have is a few days, just you and I, isn't it still worth having? Don't think for a moment I haven't agonized over what you said, the pains you must have caused your ex who needs your apology so to speak-- I've considered what the future could hold and the possibilities of you falling off that trains once again. But the bottom line for me is that you've been driving me crazy since I first saw you and even my fears and inexperience wouldn't stop me from trying for whatever we could have together."

Andrew looked right into Noah's eyes then, almost as Noah would, trying to see if he could believe what Noah was saying.

"I'm scared that with you a few days is not going to be enough," Andrew said softly.

Noah could see what looked for a moment like love in Andrew's gaze, certainly an intensity that went beyond lust and desire. Noah swallowed hard and took Andrew's hand in both of his now, increasing the slight connection they had.

"I'm scared of that too. But I'm more scared of never finding out and spending the rest of my life regretting not taking the chance we've been given."

"I'm scared of this feeling, of love. If I can't commit? If I can't give love?"

"I believe you can."

"You still deserve better."

"I want you."

It was as if his words flicked some kind of switch in Andrew. Noah could see on his face that he had gone from nerves and fear to strong desire and the look in Andrew's eyes made him shudder. Noah's cock went from vaguely interested in their conversation to upright and eager for attention. Andrew seemed to mistake his reaction though.

"Don't worry. I won't hurt you, and we won't do anything you don't want to."

"I'm not worried. I still trust you."

This time Andrew didn't even bother trying to persuade him, he was wrong. There was clearly only one thing on Andrew's mind, and it was all Noah could think about as well. He was finally going to have sex with someone other than himself, and even better, with the gorgeous man in front of him who had made him hot and hard more times than he could remember just in the short time he had known him.

Neither of them made a move though. Even having agreed they were going to do this the only connection they had was their hands intertwined. Noah watched Andrew's thumb gently stroke over his and wondered how such a small movement could still affect his body and make him want Andrew even more.

Did I have the same effect on him? Noah thought. One look at Andrew's face told him that he did, and Noah returned the smile Andrew was giving him, waiting for Andrew to make the first move.

Andrew moved closer, keeping his hand in Noah's, but exerting a little pressure so Noah knew he wanted him to get to his feet as well. By the time Noah had control of his shaking legs, Andrew was face to face with him, pulling him into his arms. Noah had to let go of Andrew's hand to allow them to wrap their arms around each other, but having Andrew in his embrace and him in his was well worth it. Andrew's body against his was hard and warm and his arms tightening around Noah made him feel so warm inside and so wanted Noah just snuggled against him. Andrew was a bit taller than him, but he could still get his head onto Andrew's shoulder, and he rested it there while Andrew started to nuzzle at his neck.

The feeling of Andrew's lips and then his tongue on Noah sent shivers through his body and he sighed with pleasure. Andrew's attention moved and Noah had to turn his head so Andrew could kiss along his jawline. Noah knew that Andrew was heading for his lips and he was happy to help him but enjoying the trail of kisses he left on his way there. Noah kissed his cheek when he could reach that and it spurred Andrew on to move right to his lips. God, it felt good having Andrew hold and kiss him, but he was still nervous that somehow even after all that had been said he would pull away from him again.

Noah drew Andrew's body as close as he could to his, letting a moan out into his mouth when he felt Andrew's hard cock pressing into his own. Noah wound one hand into his hair, determined that he would not escape him this time. Not enough though, Noah needed skin under his hands and against him. Visions of how gorgeous Andrew's body looked and how much he had wanted to touch it each time he had seen it flooded his mind, and he managed to work his free hand up under Andrew's t-shirt, sliding it over his soft, warm skin.

All the time Andrew held him gently and his lips moved over Noah's, his tongue playing with him. The kiss was intense but still gentle as if he was savoring the moment as much as Noah was. As much as he felt a desperate need for Andrew, he didn't know how to move things along and Andrew was the one with experience. Something more would happen this time, Noah decided just to enjoy what touches he was already feeling and let Andrew set the pace.

A moment later Andrew's hands were on Noah's sides and he could feel Andrew lifting his top up, starting to remove it from his body. Noah loosened his grip on Andrew just enough to create space between them so Andrew could strip him, but moved his hands so he could do the same to Andrew, thinking about how good it would feel having their naked torsos together and how much he wanted to see Andrew's toned chest again. It caused an awkward moment when they got stuck, arms tangled together as they both tried to get the material up over each other's arms.

"Let me," Andrew murmured, and Noah let go of him, watching intently as he pulled his shirt over his head. Noah's eyes didn't want to leave the beautiful sight, but he had returned to his top and Noah was prevented from seeing Andrew while he drew it over his head as he lifted his arms to help Andrew. Noah's eyes immediately returned to Andrew's chest, noting the movement as he breathed and the play of his muscles, some hidden in the black hair that curled around his nipples and in a trail down his stomach. Noah wanted to follow that trail, but not right now.

Noah looked back up to Andrew's face, wanting another kiss. Andrew's eyes were on his body, but unlike his perusal of desire, Noah could tell he was looking at the fading scars on his body. Noah could tell because there wasn't lust in his gaze, just his own upset, and anger as to how he had gotten them. Noah had to get that out of his mind. He stepped closer so Andrew couldn't see the reminder of what had happened, and took him back into his arms. Noah's head was at the side of Andrew's and he licked and sucked his earlobe for a moment before whispering to him.

"Don't think about that. It doesn't hurt me. You need to keep your mind on me, at this moment."

"Who did this to you? I want to know." Andrew said softly, with a catch in his voice that made Noah realize getting this out of his mind was going to be harder than he thought.

Noah let his tongue trail around Andrew's ear and slowly up his neck before he replied, choosing his words carefully.

"No. Right now all you need to know and do is to make me moan with pleasure. Don't you want to hear me cry your name, beg you to touch me, to suck me, to fill me?"

Noah heard a strange moan come from Andrew and smiled at the thought that his dirty talk, whispered in Andrew's ear in his sexiest voice was having the desired effect. Andrew wanted to know who dared touched the only one he loves and left their marks on him but Noah also needed him and so his arms came around Noah again and started to run up and down his back, making Noah shiver with his own desire. Noah's words were working for him as well and he continued to talk to Andrew as he held him close.

"Or maybe I'll be able to get you begging. Do some of the things I've been imagining since I met you because I've been dreaming about worshipping that amazing body of yours. You have no idea how much I've wanted to touch you and trace all those muscles with my fingers and my tongue."

Noah let his hand stroke across Andrew's chest and stomach slowly as he kept up his commentary, taking the opportunity to do some of the things he had been thinking about. Noah could feel the hard planes and lines and it just turned him on, even more, to know that he finally had Andrew to play with. As he finished his last sentence, thinking about what to say next Andrew let out a growl, and Noah was suddenly pulled around so he was pressed to Andrew's front again and Andrew's lips were on his. This time it wasn't gentle, it was needy and passionate and just incredible. Noah knew what he had said had caused this change in Andrew, and he would have smiled about it if he had control of his mouth, but Andrew was exploring every corner of it and letting him explore him back.

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Now Andrew's hands were traveling further across him, and Noah moaned when Andrew squeezed his buttocks through his jean shorts. Noah wanted there to be no clothes in the way there either, especially as he was hard as a rock and pressing hard against his zip. The fact that the short was tight too, wasn't helping. Noah was so desperate for some contact he started to grind his crotch against Andrew despite the clothes. Andrew's kisses increased in force and passion for a moment before he shot back gasping for breath and his hands went to Noah's waist to hold him still. Noah moaned his disappointment and Andrew just grinned.

"Patience baby. We're going to take this slow."

"I don't need slow."

"I need it. Please."

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"So, are you going to tell me how you got those scars?" Andrew kissed his hair softly.

"My father," Noah whispered.

"There are two things I hate in my life. One is parents who hit their kids, especially fathers..." Andrew was annoyed.

"What's the second?" Noah raised his head a little to meet his eyes.

"Salary," Andrew replied and Noah laughed. Andrew stared into the younger man's eyes and he knew he wasn't going anywhere any time soon.

He was home.

"Finally, you decided to think with your head for once."

Both lovers raised their heads to find Adrian and Elijah hand in hand walking towards them, quickly Andrew pulled his shirt from the tiled floor and used it to cover Noah while the other died in embarrassment.

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