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Chapter Thirty-one

♪ Soundtrack: On Top by James Reid ft. Sam Conception and King WAW ♪

Cody de Villa's pair of troubled round eyes quickly reminded me of those of Cali's troubled ones earlier. No one would seriously doubt the same blood running through their veins because they shared the same eyes, and now, even the same emotions.

Kung kanina ay naguguluhan ako sa ikinikilos ni Cali, ngayon ay unti-unti ko nang napagtatanto kung bakit ganoon na lang niya ako ilayo sa Kuya niya.

She didn't say it, but I now realized that she was just trying to take me away from her brother. She didn't want us to watch the battle of the bands because we would get to see the Boyz with Fun, and she was just really trying to protect Cody de Villa, not from the girls, she wasn't just being possessive… she didn't want her brother to see me.

She was protecting her brother from me.

I didn't want to assume about that, I would still need to hear it from Cali, but Kuya Yoongi wasn't having any of it. For me, Cody de Villa's silence was because he was troubled and confused, but maybe for Kuya Yoongi, it was different. It was an unspoken answer… an unspoken confirmation for his blunt declaration.

"Pagoda Blue." As simple as that, but stern and firm from his deep low voice, I felt Pagoda Blue lightly advanced to our direction and stopped just a meter from us, their big bodies instantly forming big walls around us as if keeping us from anyone who would see us. Tumalikod din naman sila kaagad.

Hindi ko iyon naintindihan kaya nagtatakang nilingon ko si Kuya Yoongi kahit na sa harap namin ay nananatiling tahimik si Cody de Villa pero mariin ang mga titig na pinapanood kami.

My heart pounded so hard when I saw Kuya Yoongi darkly staring at the vocalist, fear was quick to fill my heart thinking he would do something violent, I even readied myself because I knew, if ever, I wouldn't be able to stop him. Takot ko lang din sa kaniya kaya bahagya akong umatras para lang muling bumalik sa katawan niya dahil nasa baywang ko pa rin ang isang braso niya.

They weren't speaking! It wasn't easy to be in between their glaring battle, unaware of things to do with my heart still beating so fast, it already hurt. Hindi pa nakatulong na parehong nakakatakot ang mga aura nila, with Kuya Yoongi’s dark and primal one, while Cody de Villa had a menacing and superior look.

Who would want to get in between them?

"Look, Yoongi, I don't plan—" Cody de Villa attempted to speak, he was just about to get my attention again but the arm that was around my waist pulled me closer as I felt another hand daringly hold my nape, my breath hitching and my eyes fluttering close when pair of soft and warm lips suddenly came crashing against my unprepared and parted ones, engulfing my lips for a sudden heart-hammering ambush.

It was a delicate kiss that was enough to suddenly put me again into a very mind-blowing situation, a gentle kiss that was enough to send my knees into their weakest point, and a warm kiss that was enough to make my heart go pounding so hard than it ever was.

Nawala sa isipan kong nasa public place kami at hindi nag-iisa, nanghina ang mga tuhod ko kaya nahanap ng mga kamay ko ang gilid ng damit niya para kapitan at damang-dama ko ang mabilis na tibok ng puso ko.

He really had this power over me, that power where he could literally send me into the very mess that I was just because he was kissing me.

Hinayaan ko siya nang kasabay nang paghigpit ng braso niyang nakapalibot sa baywang ko ay ang bahagyang pag-angat niya sa katawan ko kaya dikit na dikit ang mga katawan namin, kinailangan ko pang tumingkayad para lang hindi maputol ang contact ng mga labi namin. My mind ignored the fact that my chest was hardly pressed against his hard chest because I was more focused on the way his soft lips were sensually moving over mine, teeth even leaving soft bites on my lower lip. His long pianist fingers on my nape softly caressing and pushing as if urging me to kiss back.

Just as I decided to kiss back, I felt him slowly withdraw from me causing me to open my eyes. Mahigpit kong hinala ang damit niyang mahigpit kong hawak saka muling tumingkayad para muling halikan siya pero nakangising umiling siya sa akin, nawawala ang mga mata habang lumalandas sa pang-ibabang labi ang dila niya.

His lower lip got even wetter and redder, it frustrated me.

"K-Kuya…" I desperately called to him, my voice sounded pleading and urging.

He slowly shook his head, his fingers on my nape lightly pinching. "That was just supposed to be a stamp kiss, baby…" he said.

"S-Stamp k-kiss?" I confusedly asked him, blinking at his kitten eyes that were staring back at me.

"Hm, to let people know whose baby are you…" he answered, nodding his head in amusement.

As my mind finally got what he was trying to say, my lips instantly parted for a loud gasp from my throat as I felt my whole system being thrown into a very embarrassing situation. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig para gisingin mula sa isang magandang panaginip.

Quickly snapping my head towards the vocalist who my mind forgot about, immediately meeting his dark and menacing round eyes, I suddenly sought for a hole from the ground to eat me whole.

Paanong kinalimutan ko ang presensiya ni Cody de Villa dahil lang sa halik ni Kuya Yoongi? Paanong kinalimutan ko maging ang presensiya ng Pagoda Blue sa likod namin at ang presensiya ni Cali sa loob ng sasakyan, lalo na ang katotohanang nasa public place kami? On the second thought, it was probably the reason why Pagoda Blue moved to us, and covered us with their huge bodies… to shield us from the public eye.

Pero nakakahiya pa rin! In front of Cody de Villa, someone I didn’t know personally, I let myself get lost in Kuya Yoongi’s kisses!

When I thought Kuya Yoongi was up for violence when he was jealous, I was all wrong. Hindi ko kailanman naisip na ganoon ang gagawin niya sa harap ni Cody de Villa dahil lang nalaman niyang may gusto ito sa akin. I didn't even know where he got that idea when I wouldn't have ever thought about it at all. Also, not when this was the very first time he was seeing me with Cody de Villa.

Kung paanong pumasok sa isipan niya ang ideyang iyon, hindi ko alam.

Nang dahan-dahang humakbang si Kuya Yoongi sa harap ko, ang braso sa baywang ko ay nagtungo na sa kamay ko at ikinubli ako sa likod niya na para bang itinatago ako mula kay Cody de Villa, mabilis akong yumuko. My cheeks were burning and they were getting out of control, even my heart wasn't still coming down from its high, still very hyped up about the kiss when here I was, feeling so embarrassed.

The first kiss I shared with Kuya Yoongi was around the safety of my leisure room, with only the two of us, and no other people around to watch! So knowing people witnessing that was too much to handle, I just really hoped there was a hole in my ground I could dig myself into.

He tilted his head sidewards, the sound of the clicking bones reaching my ears, his back was obviously tensing to the point that I could already feel the heat raging from his body. He was very tall and very huge for me, his body just completely covered me from Cody de Villa’s round eyes. Ni hindi ko na rin makita ang bokalista dahil ang buong likod niya ang nakikita ko. Pagoda Blue from behind us remained on their ground, backs still on us as they kept an intent watch around the place.

"Let's both be mature about this, Cody…" Kuya Yoongi started in a surprisingly calm but firm tone, his hands squeezing lightly on my hand so I knew, it was also hard for him. Pinipilit niyang maging kalmado. "I can't do anything about your feelings for her, bullshit I really can’t, but no looking, I won't tolerate any man looking at her around me so eyes down now…"

I slowly moved to his body, lightly clutching on the backside of his shirt when I hinted his voice going deeper and harsher. I let my face gently lean on his broad back, inhaling his sweet strawberry scent as if giving him the courage to hold himself and not do anything drastic. Hindi ko rin naman gugustuhing mawalan siya ng kontrol at makapanakit siya ng tao, lalong hindi kung siya ang masasaktan.

My heart welled when I felt his body slowly calming from being tensed.

"I admit, I like her—"

"And I hope you do something about it…" He quickly interrupted when Cody de Villa attempted to speak again. Marahan kong hinila ang damit niya para patigilin siya at hayaang pagsalitain si Cody de Villa. The vocalist was trying to say something, he couldn't always go cutting him off, he should also hear the guy out.

Hindi na rin ako nag-abala pang silipin si Cody de Villa dahil mas nagugustuhan ko ang lapit namin ni Kuya Yoongi sa isa't isa. The warmth of his body on mine was calming, I could also only listen to what Cody de Villa would have to say because for whatever it was, I knew my heart wouldn't look the other way from Kuya Yoongi.

Kung bakit palagi akong nakakatanggap ng confession, hindi ko alam. I wasn't that beautiful. There were probably lots of girls who were very willing to throw themselves to Cody de Villa or Daniel Kang, so what did they see in me for them to like me, I didn't have any idea. Hindi nila puwedeng sabihin sa aking dahil sa ugali ko dahil hindi ko naman sila kilala personally…

"Listen, Yoongi. I like her, but it never crossed my mind to pursue her… because I know—"

"You know she's mine." Muli kong hinila ang damit ni Kuya Yoongi dahil talagang hindi niya pinapatapos sa pagsasalita si Cody de Villa, pinarinig ko pa sa kaniya ang pag-ungol ko dahil hindi kami matatapos dito.

"I know because you always get so different when it comes to her, you're not so subtle about it every time you bring her to The Min's." Tinapos ni Cody de Villa ang sinasabi niya sa isang malalim at malakas na buntong-hininga pero kahit na gusto ko mang gumilid para silipin siya, hindi ko pa rin ginawa.

I was trying to give Kuya Yoongi a favour. He didn't want me being seen by other guys, it seemed possessive but I just tried to place myself in his shoes, I wouldn't also want him being seen or looked at by any other girl. Kung siya nagagawang kumalma, baka ako naman ang hindi makapagpigil. I would seriously cry to him over it, and that was embarrassing.

Pagdating pa naman sa kaniya, hindi ko kayang magpigil ng nararamdaman. When it came to him, I was always driven by my emotions, and that I couldn’t do anything because I was a weak for him.

"Hm, hm, that's nice to hear…" Tumango-tango siya na nagpangiti sa akin, nakakagulat lang na ganito niya i-handle ang mga ganitong sitwasyon dahil inaasahan ko talagang magiging bayolente siya.

It was still so clear to me all the punishment he did to me before every time a guy would come near me. Pinaparusahan niya ako pero pinaparusahan din niya ang mga lalaki. I could still remember all the families he got thrown out of The Park Villages because guys were trying to approach me, and Min family was close to the Park Family. I could still remember how he always got very angry every time… so I was very proud of him for being this calm and controlled.

Hindi ko rin naman nakakalimutang kumpara noon, mas controlled na siya ngayon.

"My baby's so beautiful so it's not a shock that stupid guys like her…” He lightly tilted his head back for me so I just sank myself into his back more, my hands slowly going around his waist as they met his hands in front of his abdomen. “I want you to do something about your feelings, Cody. Look at other girls or forget about Julie, I don't care, just stop liking her."

I couldn’t help but let out gasps of loud cries, thread of harsh breaths and sobs of starved moans for his very ministration. I was above him but I couldn’t ever deny that he had the upper hand, that my body and all of me was surrendering to him just because he was again bringing me waves of different emotions. Ni hindi ko alam kung paanong humantong kami sa ganito, pero hindi dapat ako nakampante na wala siyang gagawin.

Knowing him, he had ways to punish me. He dominated me like no other person did…

Shaking on top of him, my hands that clutched on the shoulder parts of his clothes went gripping tightly as I embarrassingly let my hips buckle forward against his hand that worked expertly under my skirt, doing delicious and pleasurable wonders in between my legs, despite the faint pain that still lingered on my core. My embarrassment didn’t end with that as I felt myself tightly clench around one of his long pianist fingers that sank and withdrew painfully inside me, it was frustratingly slow and painful.

Tears started filling my eyes but I still clearly saw how his lips slowly stretched into an amused grin, suddenly giving me several hard and quick thrusts as if caving into how my body sought for it, finally giving way to my tears.

Kung pinaparusahan niya ako, nagtatagumpay siya dahil hindi kinakaya ng katawan ko ang sensasiyong pinaparamdam niya akin. My body was seeking for it, my body was thirsty for it but at the same time, it couldn’t bare the pleasure and the overstimulation so I wanted him to stop.

Ang isang kamay kong nasa balikat niya ay dahan-dahang bumaba hanggang sa maabot nito ang braso niyang marahas na gumagalaw, ang isang braso niya ay nakapalibot sa baywang ko para panatilihin ang ayos ko sa kandungan niya. I was very aware how of a desperate mess I was on top of him, but I was more concerned about the pleasure he was about to deprive me again.

It would be very unbearable for me!

“K-Kuya… s-stop…” I managed to utter in between desperate gasps and cries of moans. Ni hindi ko matandaan kung paanong humantong kami rito. His car had seriously become one of our secret havens, I didn’t even want to think about what the people outside were thinking just because we were inside, for how many minutes now. Ni hindi ko na rin matandaan kung paanong nakarating ako sa ibabaw niya at paulit-ulit na inuungol ang pangalan niya.

My breath and my voice were owned by his name… just as my body and all of me were owned by him. He owned all of me.

The car was air-conditioned but the sweats dripping from my forehead, and the sweats forming on his forehead were products of our own intimate doings. And how convenient everything was for him for I chose to wear a dress instead of overalls. Mas madali para sa kaniyang hawakan ako dahil hahawiin lang naman niya ang dulo ng skirt ko at igigilid ang underwear ko.

Ni hindi siya nahirapang i-angat ako sa kandungan niya dahil bukod sa napakadali lang para sa kaniyang buhatin ako, agad-agad ding bumigay ang katawan ko sa kaniya.

“You want me to stop, baby?” he asked in a deep low voice, but the amusement that rang at the end proved me that he was loving what he was doing to me. His hand moved slower again, almost pulling his finger out only to sink back harshly and knuckle deep, my body nearly being pushed to the wheel only if his arm wasn’t holding my waist to keep me close to his body. “You want me to stop when you don’t have any idea how I was just barely holding back from throwing my fist to his face? Why do you have to be so beautiful, hm…”

That was it. He was jealous, and he was making me suffer because it.

I slowly shook my head, feeling my cheeks heat up for his compliment. “I… I’m n-near, K-Kuya. Don’t s-stop… don’t s-stop!” More tears fell down from my eyes when I felt my gut hardly clench, my stomach twirling together with the sudden fast movements of his hand, his one finger being accompanied by another one sending me to the edge.

Mabilis akong yumuko sa naka-arko niyang ulo para halikan ang nakangisi niyang mga labi. He warmly welcomed my eager lips, letting me make him feel how messed up and tortured my insides felt because of his punishment. The lewd and wet sound of his fingers that quickly thrust back and forth inside my slick heat was corresponding to the sound made by our tangled lips. My body was also desperately rocking along his torturous fingers, meeting the high of pleasure that was about to hit me.

“K-Kuya…” I cried against his lips when just as I was about to reach my high, just as I was about to finally hit that unknown pleasure, his hand stopped, just as my whole universe also stopped moving only to mourn for that died pleasure. Nanghihinang bumagsak ang katawan ko sa kaniya, basang-basa na ng mga luha ang mukha ko at nanginginig ang mga labi kong nasa labi niya dahil sa mga hikbi.

He slowly moved his fingers out of me, giving my sensitive heat light caresses that made me sob louder. Marahas kong iniling ang ulo ko dahil naiinis akong hindi niya ako hinayaang marating ang sukdulan pero hinahawakan niya ako! If he wasn’t about to let me reach the high, then he shouldn’t be touching me! He didn’t have any idea how painful and frustrating it felt!

Sa gitna ng mga hikbi ko ay naramdaman ko ang marahang galaw ng mga labi niya na para bang pinapagaan ang loob ko. His soft warm lips nibbled my lower lip, teeth lightly biting before nipping at the bitten part, his hand on my back went caressing gently, pushing my body closer to him if possible as his other hand gave smooth caresses on my inner thigh.

“I’m so sorry, baby…” he lowly said, his cool breath going its way inside my mouth.

“Why d-don’t you just let me?” umiiyak kong tanong, hinahayaan siyang paulit-ulit na halikan ako.

“I told you already, your first orgasm will be on our first. It won’t be on my hand or on my mouth, it’ll be over me… all while inside you.”

Staring at all the drawings I included into the Drawing Art Exhibit, I let loose of myself as small yet happy smile stretched into my lips. Hindi ako makapaniwalang matapos ang event sa school ay masisilayan ko pang muli ang mga drawings kong ito, kahit na kulang na sila ng isa ay sobrang saya ko pa rin dahil naibalik silang lahat sa akin.

I didn’t know what happened at the bidding day yesterday because I failed to attend school, I got a simple fever yesterday that got me sulking into the comfortable sheets of my bed and crying all day, occasionally getting my Mommy’s care because she also didn’t go to the office to take care of me.

Dapat ay hindi rin papasok si Daddy pero pinilit siya ni Mommy na pumasok dahil hindi puwedeng dalawa silang wala sa kumpanya. Mabilis din namang bumaba ang lagnat ko dahil hindi naman iyon seryosong lagnat. Though my Mommy was too worried she needed to have our family doctor called to visit us so he could have me checked. Iyon nga, simpleng lagnat lang na kailangan ng pahinga.

I also didn’t know why I suddenly got a fever yesterday, I just thought that it maybe because I was too high the last day I was with Kuya Yoongi and it consumed all of my energy. Kung man puwede iyon…

Christmas break na namin kaya wala nang pasok. Hindi ko rin inaasahang may darating na delivery ngayon sa manor dala ang mga drawings ko. The package was addressed from our school, named by one of the student body but the note it held spoke of the name of the man my heart was always caving in.

‘Miss Fraye, we were asked by your only bidder, Yoongi Min, to send you back these drawings. Thanks.’

Kung paano niyang nalaman ang tungkol sa mga drawings ko gayong hindi ko naman siya dinala sa Drawing Art Exhibit ay hindi ko alam, ang mahalaga, naibalik sa akin ang mga ito. They remained safely housed in beautiful frames and I could only imagine them hanging around the walls of my leisure room. I wanted to feel fine about the drawing that Daniel Kang’s manager had bought but I couldn’t help but feel sad because that drawings was not restorable, unless Kuya Yoongi would go back to being young so that I could draw him again.

It was an old drawing, much more precious than the newest ones.

Marami naman akong itinirang drawings dahil hindi lahat iyon kinailangan kong isali, inisip ko na lang na at least, marami pa rin mga lumang drawings ang natira. Isa pa, gumaan din ang loob ko sa isiping hindi siya galit kahit na nalaman niyang may mga drawings ako na puro siya. Mas marami pa yata akong drawings ng mukha niya kaysa sa nature…

Wala akong number niya kaya buong magdamag lang akong tumulala sa loob ng kuwarto ko habang iniisip kung anong ginagawa niya. The last time we were together when he drove me home after he made me a mess inside his car that night, he told me he would be busy because he needed to prepare for their Christmas ball. It would be around this week… sa susunod na lingo ay pasko na.

This would be our first Christmas together. It had become a family habit for the Min family and De Asis family to celebrate Christmas and New Year together, but this was the very first celebration with us being together. Ni hindi ko alam kung paano kami kikilos sa harap ng mga pamilya namin gayong sanay silang hindi kami magkasundo dahil palagi akong umiiyak huwag lang mapalapit sa kaniya.

Thinking about it now, it seriously amazed me and stunned me at the same time how quick everything had been moving in between us. Parang noong nakaraang taon lang ay halos isumpa ko pa ang buong pagkatao niya, tapos ngayon walang minutong lumipas na hindi ko siya naiisip. He was always in my mind, thoughts of him and even the memories of his touches and kisses were lingering in my heart, bringing me waves of emotions only he could do.

Nahihiya pa rin naman ako sa kaniya, sa tuwing may mga sinasabi siya o ginagawa sa akin pero ramdam ko ang mabilis na paggaan ng loob ko sa kaniya. It was a surprise because to other people, it would take me long enough before I eased up, but with him? Though slowly, I knew, we were moving so fast.

Ni hindi ko nakikita ang sarili kong magiging ganito sa ibang lalaki, nakakakilabot isipin. Every time I watched romantic movies on Netflix, my mind would always paint his handsome face and my heart would always scream his name. He became my own preference of anything related to… to love.

Kahit sa tuwing bumibisita ako sa IG at nakikita ko ang mga sweet posts nina Kuya Jimin at Ate Hannan, palagi akong dinadala noon sa kaniya. I would then think if we would ever be like his friends, not really open to public but free to do what we wanted without thinking about the eyes that looked at us. I wanted us to be like that, I wanted to show people I was his, and he was mine.

Or was he?

Scrolling on my phone, surfing on IG was one of my past times, I was again being open to Daniel Kang as he was again sending me messages that I was gladly replying back. We weren’t having long conversation like before because well, he was a busy celebrity. Minsan ay shini-share niya sa akin ang mga ginagawa niya, he was always in a set for photoshoots, if not, in a studio to improve his writing skills and his rapping voice.

School was probably already out of his priority. Sa sobrang busy niya, hindi na talaga siya makakapag-aral pa.

Umayos ako ng upo sa ibabaw ng magulo kong kama, naiwang nakabukas ang laptop sa isang gilid dahil katatapos ko lang panoorin ang panibagong episode sa series na pinapanood ko, may big plate ng pizza sa tabi nito na isang hiwa pa lang ang nababawas. A tray of glass of orange juice with pulps was also near my laptop, the drink was still untouched. Ibinaba ko ang mga paa ko sa sahig saka isinuot ang indoor slippers ko, ang mga kamay kong hawak ang iPad ko ay humigpit habang unti-unting nagsasalubong ang mga kilay ko.

I hardly pursed my lower lip, feeling the corners of my eyes sting because of what the screen of my iPad had for me to see and my heart clench tightly, not liking what my eyes what seeing. Alam kong masyadong immature kung iiyak kaagad ako gayong simpleng pictures pa lang naman ang nakikita ko pero hindi ko naman puwedeng sabihan iyong puso ko na tumigil. It didn’t have a mind, not when my mind was also a slave for it.

Nang bumagsak ang mga luhang namuo sa mga mata ko ay ginamit ko ang isang kamay ko para punasan ang pisngi ko saka nag-focus sa picture na nakikita ko. It was both Kuya Yoongi and Ate Mira. The background was blurred since the photo was in a focus but the way how Kuya Yoongi’s arm was wrapped around her small waist, his other hand held hers while her arm was around his shoulders as their bodies were so much closer to each other.

They looked like some couple dancing in an occasion. Hindi siya nakangiti pero natural iyon dahil hindi naman talaga siya ngumingiti pero iyong magandang ngiti ni Ate Mira sa picture habang nakatitig siya kay Kuya Yoongi na para bang silang dalawa lang ang naroon…

Magkaklase ba sila? Bakit ganyan sila kalapit sa isa’t isa? Why was he holding her like he didn’t want to let her go? Why was he letting her touch him like that? Was this jealousy again?

It was a photo posted by Ate Mira already an hour ago, it already had thousands of hearts and hundreds of comments. Hindi ko na kailangan pang buksan ang comment section dahil ang mga recent comments ay sapat na para mas pasakitin pa ang dibdib ko, panibagong mga luha ang namuo sa mga mata ko.

'stay strong!'

'my own kind of couple'

'bagay talaga kayooo'

Nanghihinang binitawan ko ang iPad ko at hinayaang malaglag sa carpeted floor. The streams of my tears were unstoppable as sobs started resounding from my throat. Gumapang ako sa kama ko, padapang nahiga saka isinubsob sa bedsheet ang mukha ko, ni hindi ko na ininda ang mga gamit na natamaan ng paa ko nang tuluyan na akong sumampa sa kama. Why I was so hurt, I didn’t know…

Could Cali be right? Mahal ko na nga kaya si Kuya Yoongi? Could my young heart be really feeling love already? If this was love, then why did it have to be this painful?

Growing up, I thought love was red roses, expensive yet romantic dates in some fancy restaurant, explosion of sweet nothings and promises, sweet and loving kisses, and tingles and fluttering. If this was love, then it never crossed my mind that pain was tangled with it. Tears, empty stomach and clenching heart would have never crossed my mind at all…

Itinoon ko ang natitira pang maghapon sa loob ng kuwarto, hindi para manood ng kung anu sa Netflix o mag-surf sa IG, inubos ko ang buong maghapon kaka-iyak hanggang sa mapaos ako at mawalan na ng boses na ihihikbi, hanggang sa manakit na ang mga mata ko at mawalan na ng luhang ilalabas pero hindi iyong sakit sa puso ko sa tuwing bumabalik sa ala-ala  ko ang picture nilang nakita ko. The bedsheet under my face was already soaked with my tears, snots and saliva but I wasn't still stopping, still feeling my heart clenching tightly for the pain.

I didn't know about how their ball worked but why didn't he tell me that he would be partnering with Ate Mira in a sweet dance?

Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras akong umiyak at nanatiling nakadapa habang nakasubsob sa kama. Kahit nang marinig ko ang ilang mararahang katok sa pinto ay hindi ako gumalaw. It went like that for several seconds before it stopped. Kung isa iyon sa mga kasambahay ay paniguradong aalis din iyon, kung dumating na ang mga magulang ko, paniguradong papasok sila kaagad matapos ang ilang katok.

So when I heard the door creak open, I slowly moved while wiping my face with the back of my arms before snapping my head to look at the door. My hurting heart jumped highly seeing the back of Kuya Yoongi as he gently closed the door. Nang humarap siya at masalubong niya ang mga mata ko ay mabilis na nagsalubong ang mga kilay niya pero ang mga matang nagkukumbli sa salaming suot ay nananatiling tamad na nakatitig tulad ng madalas mangyari.

I hardly furrowed my brows as my lips tightly pursed, I really wanted to speak and scream at him for the pain he was making me go through but not when he was again making my breath get caught up with his handsome look. Bago pa ako tuluyang mahulog sa kaguwapuhan niya at makalimutang galit ako ay muli ko nang isinubsob sa kama ang mukha ko.

"Go a-away…" I said through muffled voice against the softness of my bed, my fingers clutching tightly at the bedsheet as I felt my heart pound hardly for the awareness of his presence. Kung bakit siya nandito, hindi ko alam.

Hearing his slow steps, I shut my eyes close, too hard to deny that I was really expecting him to come near me and hold me like how he held Ate Mira earlier. On the second thought, it disgusted me thinking he held someone in his arms. Naramdaman ko ang marahang paglubog ng gilid ng kama ko kaya nahulaan ko nang umupo siya roon, nagmatigas pa rin ako kahit na ang gusto ng puso ko ay bumangon na at umiyak sa kaniya.

I wanted to cry to him so he would explain to me the picture I saw. I wanted to cry to him so he would tell me all the things my heart was hoping to hear from him.

"Baby…" he softly called me as I tried so hard not to react, when in fact, my heart was already getting out of control. "C'mon, you need to tell me what's this attitude for…" His voice was so soft and very pampering, though confusion was blending, I couldn't help but get pulled.

Mahina ako pagdating sa kaniya, kaya wala akong magagawa kung parati akong nadadala ng kung anong isinisigaw ng puso ko.

Slowly getting up, feeling again the tears brimming at the corners of my eyes and my lips quivering against the curling of my teeth, I instantly crawled onto him when I saw his arms spread apart as if welcoming me. Ikinulong niya ako sa mga braso niya, dinala sa dibdib niya habang maingat akong ipinupuwesto ko ibabaw ng kandungan niya. I cried against his hard strawberry scented chest, clutching at his cloth.

Mas naiyak pa ako nang maramdaman ko ang marahang paghaplos niya sa likod ko.

"Why's my baby crying, hm?" he softly asked, his face dipping on my shoulder as I felt him inhale my scent.

"Y-You were with A-Ate Mira, and you were h-holding her…" I honestly answered against his chest, voice muffled once again.

"I was holding her? Like how?" gulong-tanong niya.

"Y-Your arm was around her w-waist!" I frustratingly screamed, it annoyed me how it felt so painful for me and yet he was being unaware about it. Inayos niya ang posisyon ko sa ibabaw niya, ipinarte niya ang mga hita ko sa parehong gilid niya saka niya sinalo ang mukha ko para i-angat.

Saglit pa akong nagmatigas pero nang maramdaman ko ang pagyuko niya para dampihan ng halik ang ulo ko ay nagpadala na ako at hinayaan siyang i-angat ang mukha ko para matitigan niya. Once again watering, when my eyes blinked at his kitten eyes, tears came streaming down again.

His eyes softened as they flashed warmness and love, I knew, because it warmed my heart. "You're jealous?" He softly let his thumbs gently wipe my tears off my cheeks.

"I don't want you holding any o-other girls, Ate Mira the m-most."

"You're my only baby, so you don't have to get jealous, Julie…" Muling bumaba ang mga kamay niya sa katawan ko para ilapit pa ang katawan ko sa kaniya, ang mga kamay ay narating ang pang-upo ko na at doon nanatili. Feeling my cheeks heat up with what he said and with the way he manhandled me in his arms, I hesitantly dipped my face on his chest again, curling just so I could sink into his arms.

He had always been my favourite cave, my body always felt so comfortable inside his hold.

"Whatever it was that you saw to cry like that, I'm telling you, baby, it's nothing. I understand that you're still so young for commitment like this, that you'll really tend to be unreasonably handful and inexplicably immature, I'll settle for you because I don't want anyone else, baby. You may also be a crybaby, I'll settle because it's only you who I want."

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just in case no one has told you yet, you're so cute and so valid 💕