Special Chapter

Hesitant and not confident enough, I let my quivering hand reach for the cold knob as I hardly willed myself to believe that I didn't have to feel insecure or inferior because he had long ago made me sure that in his eyes, I was the only beautiful woman, I was his only woman.

Assured naman ako roon. It just wasn't my thing to wear two pieces, with strings at that, as my swimwear. One piece was considerable enough for me.

Noong nagkaroon kami ng swimming subject noon sa school ay naalala kong rashguard ang gamit ko. I also wore slightly revealing clothes, those that only revealed my long legs, but showing my stomach, my chest and almost all of me was a different story. I would seriously need more courage for it.

Hindi rin ako confident sa katawan ko, sure my eating habit was monitored and maintained, but I didn't exercise often, I was actually too lazy to even do a run in the morning. I didn't have firm and big boobs like of those with most of the girls, I didn't have a round and big butt, the only thing I could safely flaunt about was my flat stomach.

One more thing, ito pa lang ang unang beses naming beach outing together ni Kuya Yoongi, noong nag-Malta kami noong nakaraang taon, hindi naman kami nag-stay sa isang resort at nag-swimming. Sa dami rin ng mga nangyari, hindi na namin maiisipan pang magsaya ng lubos, pero masaya akong nandito kami ngayon at binibigyan ng pagkakataon ang mga sarili namin.

He had also been telling me that he wanted us to go to somewhere, to somewhere refreshing and inhabited, he wanted us to get lost with ourselves in an island with only the two of us. And if he really wanted, he would really push through it. He just needed a perfect timing. Wala rin naman akong reklamo dahil kahit saan naman sasama ako, basta siya ang kasama ako.

"Baby, why are you taking so long—"

The moment I had myself revealed from the bathroom door that kept my very conscious self that was clad only in a pair of white stringed two piece, Kuya Yoongi's mouth instantly dropped open, his kitten eyes behind his spectacles instantly having the pleasure to roam around my body.

Ngumuso ako dahil kitang-kita ko mula sa mga mata niya ang hindi maitagong pagnanasa. I wasn't new to it, ever since he had my body claimed that one lovely Christmas night, he had been always so blunt about his perverted thoughts about me. Palagi niya akong pinapahiya kapag nagiging ganoon na siya sa totoo lang.

It wasn't like I was not comfortable, I was just embarrassed about topics like that. He just always made me a whole blushing mess every time…

I awkwardly strode towards the near closet when he seemed to never take his perverted eyes from my exposed body, his mouth soon would be dripping saliva from the way it was open, and I could only imagine all the dirty things running in his mind. At bago pa mangyari iyon, sasagipin ko na ang sarili ko dahil oras na magdesisyon siyang magkulong na lang dito sa kuwarto, hindi ko alam kung makakapaglakad pa ba ako ng matino.

For as much as I hated to think about it, I couldn't help but think about how he was so berserk and so rough every time he had me vulnerably under him while taking the life out of me. The darker his eyes were, the rougher he was, it was always like that.

Squealing in surprise when I felt his pair of strong and cold arms instantly wrapping around me from the back, I instantly tried getting away from him. Kinilabutan pa ako nang maramdaman ko ang banayad na pagdampi ng mga labi niya sa balat ng batok ko. It was too soft and too giving… but very tempting.

"Where are you going? Take responsibility…" he teasingly whispered to me, his soft lips hotly grazing on my skin as it left scorching trails all over my skin.

Halos panlambutan ako ng mga tuhod nang maramdaman ko ang mariing paninipsip niya sa isang bahagi ng balikat ko, ang malalambot niyang mga labi ay lumilikha ng kakaibang tunog na mas nagbibigay ng kakaibang pakiramdam sa akin. He seriously knew too well his way to me.

"K-Kuya, I want to s-swim already…" mahina sabi ko, hindi na muling sinubukang kumawala sa kaniya dahil mahirap iyon sa lagay ng higpit ng yakap niya sa akin, sa halip ay hinayaan ko ang katawan kong nakasandal sa katawan niya habang hawak niya ang baywang ko ng mahigpit para hindi ako tuluyang bumagsak sa sahig.

"Really? What about your business with me? Gonna leave me unattended with this painful hard-on?"

At kahit kailan hindi ako masasanay sa pagiging bulgar niya! Paulit-ulit akong nae-eskandalo sa tuwing may binibitawan siyang mga salitang talaga namang nakakawindang!

"But you just had me at the car earlier!" Halos isigaw ko iyon sa kaniya dahil hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan kung paanong may nangyari sa amin sa sasakyan kanina patungo rito sa The Park Beaches, kinalimutan namin pareho ang presensiya ng driver ng sinasakyan naming limo dahil pareho kaming lunod sa mga makamundo naming gawain! I could even still feel him all over me, so he should ease up and give me a break!

Kung hindi lang talaga muted ang likod na bahagi ng limousine na personal pang ipinahanda ni Kuya Jimin sa amin ay baka na-broadcast na rin sa driver na kasama namin ang mga pinaggagawa namin. He just had so much energy when it came to that thing, when all I thought he was just going to sleep all the ride. Sa speed boat pa lang talaga ay nagpaparamdam na siya, at baka kung covered lang ang speed boat na sinasakyan namin, baka hindi na kami inabot pa sa kotse!

"Ten minutes, baby…"

And no, that ten minutes turned a whole hour inside our room as he again filled me with praises and compliments, along with my gasps of sweet moans and screams of his name, as he also made me feel so ruined yet so breathtakingly satisfied with his pleasurable ministrations. At sa tuwing malapit na ako sa sukdulan, hindi ko mapigilang ipagsigawan sa kaniya kung gaano ko siya kamahal, na sa buhay na ito, kung hindi lang din siya, hindi ko na pipiliing magmahal pa.

I had again to wear the white two piece he took off me as he got his time changing into his own swimwear. Simpleng board short lang ang suot niya kaya kumakaway sa akin ang maputing katawan niya. His chest was firm and toned, that though he didn't have a packed stomach, it also looked hard from the way it had deep indents at both sides. Itim pa ang suot niyang short kaya litaw na litaw ang kaputian niya.

"You look sinfully beautiful…" With a smirk on his thin red lips, he raised one brow at me as his eyes once again roamed all over my body.

Isa pa, hindi ko rin kinakalimutang siya ang nagpumilit sa aking magdala ng mga two pieces swimwear gayong one piece dapat ang mga dala ko. Alam kong dala na naman iyon ng kamanyakan niya pero hindi ko siya magawang tanggihan. Takot ko lang na baka magalit na naman siya… just no one could guess how he always punished me every time I did something that didn't please him. It actually just became a thing about us, sometimes, it excited me pissing him off, thinking about the punishment he was going to give me, only to regret it afterwards.

His dominating personality always excited and tortured me at the same, to be very honest…

"I've also brought one piece—"

"No, no, baby… you're not going to need them, we have the island all for ourselves so no need to cover up. I want my sexy baby only for my eyes, hm?"

And I hated him for having such a flowery mouth.

In my pair of white two piece, pair of pink flip-flops and a brown summer hat, with his board short, pair of black sliders, and an orange shade sunglasses on his head, we both left our room to where the peaceful waves of the ocean could be heard, our hands tightly yet gently held each other as we finally left everything behind for ourselves' enjoyment.

Para sa amin ang araw na ito kaya dapat mag-enjoy kami.

Nang makalapit kami sa mismong dalampasigan kung saan malakas na humahalik ang hampas ng alon at nag-iiwan ng palatandaang nanggaling iyon doon ay bumitaw ako kay Kuya Yoongi saka mabilis na tinawid na ang natitira pang distansya ko sa dagat. Along with my giggles and jumpings were his giggles in between his subtle warnings…

"Don't go too far, Julie…"

Continuing with my advances towards the lighter deepness of the ocean, I happily nodded at him, taking my feet off my footwear and throwing my hat to the sand, my hands soon joining my lower half into dipping in the cold water to play with the waves.

I wasn't one of those people who love beaches, but I was one of those people who know how to appreciate and enjoy such a God-given beauty.

Huminto lang ako sa pagtakbo nang umabot na sa ibabang bahagi ng mga dibdib ko ang tubig-dagat, ang dulo ng ngayo'y mas mahaba ko nang kulot na buhok ay basa na. When I turned around to see him, I saw him already going into the water, a wide smile was spread across his thin lips, his gummy smile was competing with the bright sun above, as he had his kitten eyes on me, watching me lovingly. Nakikipagsabayan din sa pagkislap ang maputi at makinis niyang balat, ang malapad at tila matigas na dibdib ay unti-unti na ring nilalamon ng tubig.

It was too blessing in the eyes how beautiful he was accompanying another natural beauty. I meant, kung ganito rin naman pala ang makikita ko sa tuwing magbabakasyon kami ng kaming dalawa lang, siguro nga hahayaan ko na lang siyang dalhin ako sa kahit na saan. He had always been so good in handling our relationship, he was my dominant and I loved his every way.

"The coldness of the water is refreshing, Kuya…" I lowly said, feeling how the cold water was comfortably shielding my skin from getting burned by the heat of the sun. Hindi ko pa man nalalasahan ang tubig ay nanunuot na sa pang-amoy ko ang alat nito.

It was truly refreshing, like after the bitterness that came our way to the point that everything became tasteless for me, for us, it felt like the salty waters were giving us a new taste of life, that the salty waters were representing a new life ahead of us. It really was, we were already at the new phase of our lives, of our relationship. And we happily embraced all the changes it entailed, be it a growth in our minds, emotions, or in our souls.

Kusang humawak sa mga balikat niya ang mga kamay ko nang marahan niya akong higitin palapit sa kaniya, ang mga braso ay maingat na pumalibot sa baywang ko para maidikit ako sa katawan niya.

It had been long already since we started exploring each other's body, it had been long already since I let him touch every part of me in a very intimate manner but my heart and my body weren't still getting used to it. Paulit-ulit pa rin akong pinag-iinitan ng mga pisngi, paulit-ulit pa ring bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko.

For how much time would make us comfortable with each other, my internal organs would forever hyped up with his every advance, for his every intimate intention.

"Yes, but not cold enough to die down the heat radiating through my body, from your body…" he sensually whispered, lightly leaning to me so he could graze his lips on the skin of my cheek.

"Kuya, we're out i-in the o-open…" Ngumuso ako pero hindi naman gumagawa ng paraan para itulak siya palayo dahil nakakahiya mang aminin, mahina ako pagdating sa mga ganitong kilos niya.

He would just lightly touch my elbows, and I would come being submissive under his dominating motives. He would just lightly trail his fingertips along my skin and I would come caving into him like the vulnerable baby I was. He had that power over me, like since time immemorial.

Iyong mga ginagawa niya sa akin noon? Bukod sa dulot iyon ng hindi niya mapigilang galit, alam ko sa sarili kong dahil hindi ko siya kayang pigilan. I was a natural submissive for him…

"Yes again, but we're the only ones here, no one will see us." Mas idinikit pa niya ang katawan ko sa kaniya, ang maiinit na mga palad ay marahang lumalandas na sa likod ko. The simple grazing of our chest together, with my clothed ones, brought a sudden tight flick in my stomach, earning a low moan from my throat. "I'll just untie your panty, and it would be done, baby."

Suminghap ako nang maramdaman ko ang pagbaba ng isang kamay niya sa pagitan ng mga hita ko. "K-Kuya…" I protested with a not so convincing shake of a head, staring vulnerably at his kitten eyes that were already being filled with burning passion, overflowing desire was undeniable.

"No, listen to me… whenever, whatever, however, understand, baby girl?" His deep cold voice was filled with firmness and eagerness, an evident that he wouldn't accept any protest from me anymore.

Again, I was willing to be loved by him, let him show the sun how he made me feel so treasured as a woman and to show the ocean how he made me feel like I was the most beautiful of all, only if faint screams of our names didn't tune in our ears, the voices were coming from the distance.

Mabilis na nag-panic ang kalooban ko kaya nailayo ko mula sa kaniya ang ulo ko, ang mga mata ko ay kaagad na nahanap ang malapusa niyang mga matang tila lasing pa rin sa kung anong pakiramdam bago iyon nagdilim kasunod nang pagsasalubong ng mga kilay niya nang muli kaming makarinig ng mga sigaw. Ang kamay niya ay dahan-dahang nawala sa parteng iyon ng katawan ko at muling bumalik sa baywang ko.

It was a never-ending call of our names, from familiar voices.

"Kuya! Fraye! We're here!" The loud voice from afar was deep and very manly.

Turning to look at the direction of the tall rest house, seeing small figures becoming bigger as they ran towards the shore, our hearts against our chests that were hardly pressed together seemed to compete with each other, pounding hard and fast. I could feel him tensing against me, his arms refusing to let me go though those figures were already vivid for us to recognize.

"Bullsht!" He breathed harshly, along with a hard profanity.

"I swear, Kuya, they blackmailed me into taking them here!" Kuya Jimin's sing-song voice resounded from the shore, defensive yet excited. Kumikinang sa mainit na sinag ng araw ang matingkad niyang blonde na buhok, medyo mahaba na iyon at tumatakip na sa mga kilay niya.

"I knew it, they wouldn't just let us have our time alone!" galit na bulong ni Kuya Yoongi, muling humigpit ang yakap sa akin habang unti-unting itinutulak ako mula sa line of vision ng mga taong nasa dalampasigan. His big and broad body shielding me from their sight. "They can't see you like this!"

"Kuya! I brought floaters! Come, I'll let you use one of them!"

Hindi ko napigilang ngumiti nang marinig kong muli ang malalim na boses ni Kuya Taehyung. The guy was seriously too charming and too innocent for his sake. Alam ko namang sa pag-iisip lang naman talaga naiiba si Kuya Taehyung, punong-puno ng fun ang isipan niya at kung anu-anong mga bagay pa na hindi maiisip ng mga kaibigan niya.

"Tsk, that moron. Don't come near that guy," sabi ni Kuya Yoongi pero nang makita niya ang ngiti sa mga labi ko ay mabilis na sumimangot. "Why are you smiling?"

"Who doesn't want to play floaters in the water?" natatawang sagot ko, naisip na wala nga kaming dalang floaters o kahit na anong gamit pang-swimming.

"We will not play floaters in the water with them here, Julie. Aahon na tayo, but before that, I have to find out how to take you back to our room without them seeing you…" He almost snarled at me, voice dripping with irritation and eyes firing anger.

"You want me to wear this…" I pointed out, seeing the distress in his face. Bakit siya nagagalit ngayon gayong kanina ay tuwang-tuwa siya sa suot ko?

"Yes, but because I thought it would only be the two of us here! I swear, I'll have them thrown out of this island after this!" Kulang na lang ay isiksik niya ako sa katawan niya para lang maitago ako sa mga kaibigan niya.

It was Kuya Jimin, Kuya Taehyung and Kuya Namjoon who were at the shore, all dressed causally yet handsomely suited their own taste in fashion. Mainit ang sinag ng araw kaya halos kumikinang na ang mga imahe nila roon, si Kuya Taehyung lang ang may malapad na ngiti sa mga labi samantalang ang dalawa ay nakatakip na sa mga mata ang mga palad, pare-parehong nakamasid sa amin. They all had those different kinds of hair colours, blonde, pink and silver.

Colour pink hair suited Kuya Taehyung, he looked too soft and very cuddly.

"C'mon, Kuya! We brought foods, let's eat first!" sigaw ni Kuya Namjoon, bahagyang tumatalon na tila gustong-gusto nang maka-alis sa initan.

"No! You told me we'll swim first! Food can wait!" Kaagad na protesta na Kuya Taehyung na agad din naman nakatanggap nang hampas mula kay Kuya Namjoon, sa tabi nila ay ang problemadong hitsura ni Kuya Jimin habang pinapanood ang dalawa.

"I think we need to get out of the water before they all throw a tantrum," sabi ko saka marahang tinapik ang dibdib niya. He first stared at me, as if he was memorising every inch of my face, or maybe he was just thinking about how he would really take me back to our room.

Sighing deeply, he nodded at me before craning his neck to look at his friends. "Hey thugs, I need you all to go back to the house! And don't get out until we get to our room!" sigaw niya sa mga ito.

"What? But I'm already wearing my rashguard underneath! Let me swim!" Kuya Taehyung was about to really throw a tantrum when Kuya Namjoon quickly held the collar of his black button-down shirt and pulled him away, Kuya Jimin silently following suit. Naririnig pa ang mga sigaw ni Kuya Taehyung pero walang pumansin sa kaniya.

When he was already sure that his friends were inside the house, he then led me out of the ocean to go back to our room. Wala kaming kahit na anong puwedeng ipangbalot sa katawan ko kaya nakuntento kaming dalawa na magkayakap habang tinatahak ang buhanginan. It was awkward but bearable since it was him…

"Wear something warm, long sleeves if you may please." Iyon ang huling sinabi niya bago niya ako hayaang pumasok sa banyo para maligo. Hindi pa kami nagtatagal sa dagat ay nagbabanlaw na kaagad kami, hindi rin kasi naman inaasahang darating dito iyong mga kaibigan niya.

Wala naman sanang kaso kung nandito sila. The rest house was big, it had several rooms but we both wanted this getaway only for ourselves. Matagal naming pinlano na mag-beach ng kaming dalawa lang, ni hindi ko nga alam na may ganitong isla pala ang pamilya ni Kuya Jimin kaya tuwang-tuwa ako nang sinabi niyang si Kuya Jimin ang bahala sa islang pupuntahan namin. We left everything behind, my school, his work and all the people only for this getaway… which was now ruined by his friends.

Like he said, I wore a sky-blue vintage looking dress with its a-line tail and long sheer bishop sleeves, it had ribbon at the top as a design, and sheer raffles at the collar. Ayos lang na ganito ang isuot ko kung sa loob lang kami ng rest house magi-stay dahil malamig naman. Itinali ko na lang ang mahaba at kulot kong buhok na noon ko pa binabalak paputulan pero nasa labas ng bansa ang mga magulang ko kaya hindi ko magawang makapagpaalam kay Mommy.

Seemed like he used the bathroom in the other rooms since he wasn't around our room when I was done. Kahit nang lumabas ako ng kuwarto ay wala pa rin siya kaya dumiretso na lang ako sa living room kung saan ko naririnig ang mga ingay. I was met by his friends already eating the foods scattered on the coffee table in front of the couch.

"Fraye! Come, may pizza rito, grab a piece!"

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag nang makita ko si Ate Hannan na prenteng naka-upo sa harap ng coffee table, hawak ang isang slice ng pizza habang ngumunguya. Blonde pa rin ang buhok katulad ng kay Kuya Jimin. It was their thing to be honest. Madalas talaga silang mag-match ng hair colours. Seeing her in a mint two piece, the top being halter-top and the bottom with strings with only a see through dress to cover them up, heat instantly burned my cheeks.

Hindi naman sa hindi ko gustong nakikitang ganoon ang suot niya gayong mas marami ang populasyon ng kalalakihan ngayon dito, bukod sa hindi ako sanay na nakikita siyang naka-two piece lang, siguro ay naninibago lang akong tila wala namang problema kay Kuya Jimin ang ganoon gayong halos tubuan na ng kulubot ang mukha ni Kuya Yoongi kanina para lang hindi ako makita ng mga kaibigan niya.

I guessed, men do really have different personalities and perspectives.

Napansin kong sila-sila lang ang narito dahil wala sina Kuya Hoseok at Kuya Jin.

Tipid akong ngumiti habang lumalapit, mas nag-init pa ang pisngi ko nang mapagtantong mukhang hindi lang si Ate Hannan ang handa na sa pagsulong sa tubig pagkatapos kumain dahil maging sina Kuya Jimin at Kuya Taehyung ay nasa kani-kanilang swimming attire na. Kuya Yoongi's board short a while ago would shrink in shame with the both males' pair of tight rashguard short, outlining pretty clear what was supposed to be outlined but should have been hidden from plain sight…

Mabilis akong nag-iwas ng tingin, hindi alam kung mananatili pa ba o babalik na lang sa kuwarto, pakiramdam ko masyado akong overdressed dahil sa mga ayos nila. So when hearing loud footsteps coming from the grand staircase, my heart instantly went pounding so hard seeing Kuya Yoongi lazily walking down the flights, looking so neat and beautiful in his casual pair of beige loose shirt with a big FG letters printed in front and a black tight pants. Magulo ang basang buhok na tila kinatamarang suklayin.

Mula sa gilid ng mga mata ko ay nakita ko kung paanong lumipat si Kuya Jimin sa tabi ni Ate Hannan at nagsumiksik doon.

"Tsk, I rented this island only for the two of us, Jimin!" galit na sabi ni Kuya Yoongi, at saka ko pa lang naintindihan ang kinilos ni Kuya Jimin.

"I told you they blackmailed me!" sagot ni Kuya Jimin, halata sa boses ang takot.

"Or you got brainwashed again by your crazy woman?!"

"Why are you so mad again? You're scaring your girlfriend, Kuya…" natatawang sabi ni Ate Hannan kaya lahat sila ay napunta sa akin ang mga mata.

Pouting in embarrassment, I lightly turned my head towards Kuya Yoongi again and gave him a soft look. Bumuntong-hininga siya saka naglakad palapit sa akin, agad niya akong ikinulong sa mga braso niya at binulungan.

"You're scared?" he softly asked, his hot breathe fanning my cheek. Strawberry instantly soothed my nose with his closeness.

"N-No, just flustered." Umiling ako. "I also don't mind them being here…"

"You don't, but I do. Nandito lang iyan sila para sirain ang bakasyon natin—"

"I brought floaters, how's that ruining your vacation?! I can even let Fraye borrow one!" Ang pagsabat ni Kuya Taehyung na tila hindi pa rin tapos sa ipinagmamalaki niyang floaters ang muling nagpadilim ng anyo ni Kuya Yoongi.

I didn't want to ruin this getaway, I didn't want him to throw away his good mood so I smoothly brought my palms to his cheeks and gently caressed them. Ngumiti ako para ipakita sa kaniyang wala naman kaming dapat na ipag-alala dahil hindi masisira ang bakasyon naming ito. Hindi namin hahayaang masira. His friends could tag along, enjoy the place with themselves but we wouldn't let it ruin this getaway.

"You're with me, that enough makes this vacation more than perfect, Kuya…" malambing kong sabi sa kaniya, hindi na alintana kung nakikinig man ang mga kaibigan niya dahil siya ang pinakamahalaga rito, ang iniisip niya at ang nararamdaman niya.

Gusto kong malaman niya na hindi namin kailangang manatili sa isang isla ng kaming dalawa lang para masabi naming perpekto ang lahat, gusto kong malaman niya na kahit saan pa kami pareho magpunta, basta siya ang kasama ko, sapat na iyon para pagandahin ang lahat.

With him, everything was perfect, everything would be perfect.