싸다- to be cheap

Fake it until you make it.

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"I guess you're coming out from the closet?" Jungkook said in a mischievous tone. I was facing the window, wondering what the world would look like now. I faced forward because the thought of me facing the wrong way while talking to this kid could probably be the death of me.

"What do you mean?" I asked, obviously not getting a grasp on the situation. "You're gay aren't you?" He chuckled. "Jungkook!" His mother hissed. His father remained silent and continued driving. I put a hand in the direction of her voice and shook my head. It meant that I could handle this. I sighed.

"Jungkook, I'm not gay. "

"What do you mean? We all saw you kiss that guy. " He pressed.

I felt my temper rising. "He's like a brother to me. "

"The fuck? He kissed you. And he's a guy. " I wanted to curse but I realized how stupid he sounded. "When you were younger, your father would kiss you, right?" Jungkook hummed in response. "Are saying you're gay? I mean, your father is a male and he kissed you. "

He was quiet for a moment but shot back, "But that's different! I'm actually related to him. You and that tall dude aren't. "

"Alright quit it!" Jung-hyung yelled with a slap to his brother's head. "Ow!" I exhaled a sigh of relief. You got to be more careful, I reminded myself. If not for Jung-hyung, you would have shown your true colors. You need to remember to shape yourself into something that will be able to survive in this world.

"Taehyung?Taehyung?" Jung-hyung poked my side, causing me to jump. I blinked a couple of times. Deja vu? "Oh, sorry!" I gave a bow. "No, no! It's fine. I can tell that there's a lot of things on your mind. " I nodded. "Um, was there something you needed from me?" I honestly didn't want to be bothered. Sang-hoon's request was still playing in the back of my head. "I'm gonna need you to find my sister. " Why would he give me of all people such a task? "Huh? Oh, yeah. I was thinking of taking you to meet some of our friends. "

"Our friends?"

"Jungkook and I."

I heard someone shifting in their seat. "Oh hell no! That. . . . thing--"

"Jungkook!" His mother warned.

"Is not coming with us to hang out! You're bad enough but I really don't need him coming along with us!" I pursed my head and tilted my head. "It's OK, Jung-hyung. I don't think I'd make your friends comfortable anyway. " To be totally honest, I couldn't really stand Jungkook anymore as it is and keeping a smile around him was one of the hardest things to do. "No!" Jung-hyung whined. "Come on! Please!"

"Taehyung, you should go out, meet new people. " Mr. Jeon stepped in. I was a bit startled. For 30 minutes, he hadn't spoken a word. "I'm just saying. . . . it would be nice if you met new people. . . .cause sooner or later, you're gonna have to meet lots of new people. Just. . . .think of this as practice for the real world."

Mrs. Jeon beamed. "Well said."

The real world, huh? I had to hold back an eye roll. The real world only accepts fakes. If I'm gonna survive here on Earth, I have to fake a smile to make it. Biting my tongue a couple of times will be worth it soon enough. For some reason, I don't really know what I'm trying to achieve in life. A huge company? A mansion? The rich life? Maybe not. Maybe it's as simple and small as happiness. I pursed my lips and drew a smile on my lips. Once again, it wasn't sincere but at least it was something.

"OK", I said finally. "I'll go with them. " I thought of Jungkook, who was grumbling under his breath but rested my head on the window.

Shut up kid, I thought. It's not like I'm found of you either.

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