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So...it seems as though no one who ships Adommy,cares about the lost of Saulbert. Lol #noshadethrown. But this chapter will have you in your feels whether you ship both, one, or neither.

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*ADAM P.O.V.*

"Anymore questions?" The host asked as we neared the end of the interview. I could feel Tommy's eyes piercing into me from my side. Ever since we left the car he hasn't stopped watching me. I knew it wasn't a good idea to tell him how I felt...how I'm feeling right now.

But him knowing was the least of my problems. When we got back to the hotel I'd have to force myself to grow a pair and tell Sauli. He meant to much to me, for me to just keep him in the dark.

"Ok one more. Ya know what how bout you ask him directly?" The host said.

I watched as a young girl with flaming red hair began to move from her seat and to the front of the room. I smiled my normal smile as she wiped her tears of joy and tried to control her breathing.

"If-If your house caught fire, a-and you could only save three things, what w-would they be and why?" She asked nervously.

"That's a really good question, what's your name beautiful?" I asked making her blush multiple different shades of pink, nearly a crimson red. I couldn't help but smile at her reaction. I love my glamberts.

"It's-It's Yani, Mr.Lambert." She stammered, smiley brightly at me. I basically jumped off my stool to go and give her a hug. C'mon I just couldn't resist. I made it back to my seat, and glanced over to Tommy. His gaze was no longer on me though, as he stared confused into the crowd.

I followed his gaze and spotted Isaac standing in the back of the crowd glaring angrily at Tommy. Well that's just great, now I have two employees who were pissed at me.

I brought my attention back to the question as I began to falsely think about it, even though I had been asked this question at basically every interview or meet and greet.

"Ok well first, of course, I'd save my boyfriend Sauli--"

"He's to adorable to leave behind!!" Someone from the audience shouted, followed by an eruption of laughter. I laughed as well but inwardly winced when I saw the irony in those words.

"Your right." I said agreeing with whoever said it. "I'd probably just sling him over my shoulder and run out of the house." I smiled, looking once again at Tommy to find him glaring. I quickly answered the next two parts of the question so we could move on to the songs. I needed this interview to be over just as much as I didn't want it to end.

" Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid...
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn....
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me"

The last few strums of the guitar signaled the end of the song, as I held the last note a bit longer making the audience go crazy in applause. One song down...one to go. I had no idea what I was singing next but I refrained from looking at Tommy to discuss it. Whatever he played, I'd sing along to. He began with the opening notes to Runnin'.

''Steal to my tremblin' lips

How did the night ever get like this?

One shot and the whiskey goes down, down, down

Bottom of the bottle hits

Waking up my mind as I throw a fit

The breakin is takin me down, down, down

My hearts beating faster

I know what I'm after''

I thanked my fans and made my way out of the building with Tommy close behind me.

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As soon as I stepped out of the elevator I was bombarded by Ashley.

''Have you seen the guys? Did you know that there's a really hot blonde guy in your bed? Did you kick me out so you could have a hookup? If I go to the spa, your going to cover it right?'' She asked all in one breath.

I laughed grabbing firmly onto her shoulders.

''Yes, Tommy had an interview with me earlier but Isaac stole him after that. Yes, Ash that's my boyfriend sorry I didn't tell you he was here. No, of course not, your my favorite roomie. And sure, knock yourself out.'' I said in response to all of her questions.

She literally jumped on me, wrapping her legs around my waist as she screamed in excitement. ''Yay! Thanks bro!'' She said pecking my cheek lightly before hopping off of me and running into the elevator I just got out of. I smiled shaking my head. Well at least I knew she was'nt pissed at me.

I walked to my room, slipping the key-card in the door, and shutting it once I had entered. I found Sauli in the bed, asleep. He's so beautiful, how can I be so lucky and ungrateful at the same time.

Moving over to the edge of the bed, I began to gently run my fingers through his hair, making sure not to wake him.

I don't know how long I sat there, avoiding the inevitable as I admired him deeply. I leaned down to lightly place a kiss to his soft pink lips. I was'nt surprised that when I pulled away his eyes fluttered open.

''It's creepy to just stare at sleeping people, Adam.'' He said smiling. He sat up and climbed onto my lap, attaching our lips once again. My hands were on his shirtless back, feeling his warm smooth skin beneath my finger tips.

I could'nt bring myself to break away from the kiss as his tongue invaded my mouth, but instead of taking control like I usually do I let him lead as I felt his fingers carding through my hair.

I should tell him-I have to tell him how I feel. It's not right for me to do this to him. I feel like I'm just stringing him along as I pretend to be a perfect boyfriend. He's never made me unhappy, he's everything I could ever wish for and so much more it's just that for some reason deep down inside me I can't reciprocate it.

''Sauli, I can't.'' I say, as his lips leave mine and start placing gentle kisses to my neck. He ignored me and reached for the hem of my shirt, but I caught his hands in mine. ''Sauli.'' I said. ''I can't.''

''Adam.'' He said pulling his hands out of mine and grabbing my face, forcing me to look into his tear filling bright blue eyes. ''Don't please, I need this. I need you.'' He pleaded. I sighed, bringing my hand up to wipe the tear away as it fell, not even caring that my own were currently staining my face.

He leaned into my touch, placing his hand over mine on his face. ''I'm so sorry. I-I never-You are- You.'' I sighed giving up as a sob escaped my lips. ''Sauli.'' Was all that I could get past my lips before we both broke out in tears. We clung to each other for dear life as his arms found there way around my neck and I wrapped my arms around his waist pulling him close to me.

After the tears died down he loosened his grip on me. Leaning back to stare me in the eyes. I sighed as I looked at how much pain I caused him. His nose and cheeks were a bright pink, and his eyes were red rimmed from crying for hours on end. I could only imagine how much crap I looked like.

He leaned his forehead against mine. ''You broke your promise.'' He said in a low voice. I heard him sniffle and I pulled him closer, even though his hands were on my chest trying to stop me. I wanted him to be happy, I was hurting just knowing that all of this is my fault. That it was me he was crying over. I'm far from worth it.

''Unintentionally.'' I whispered to him. Feeling his chest rise and fall rapidly against mine. I ran my fingers through his short blonde locks, making him pull back a little and stare at me with a heart broken look.

''Unintentionally, but still very evident.'' He responded, leaning in to rest his head on my shoulder. He nuzzled his head deeper into my neck and we fell into a stoic silence. ''Why?'' He asked after a while.

I felt like there was cotton stuck in my throat. I could'nt answer it. I didn't know how.

''Your beautiful, Sauli.'' I murmured out, feeling a tear slip from my eye as I began to rub soothing circles on his back with my hand. He sobbed again, wrapping his arms tightly around my waist.

''But-But I'm not flawed. I'll n-never understand how you can o-only love someone who's broken.'' He stuttered out, barely finishing his sentence before he broke out into another fit of tears.

I lifted him into my arms, catching him slightly by surprise as I walked over to the small couch and sat him there. I got on my knees in front him, and used the pad of my thumb to wipes his tears away.

''I'm sorry.'' I said. He wrapped his hand around my chin, forcing me to keep eye contact while I spoke. ''I care for you, but I don't deserve you.'' I said honestly to him. Watching the tear as it fell from his eyes and slowly ran down his cheek.

I could'nt turn away, he would'nt let me. He wanted me to see his pain so that I would feel how he feels. And I deserved that and so much more. He let his grip on my chin fade as his hand fell to rest in his lap. I took his hands in my own.

''I'll always want you, Adam.'' He said just loud enough for my ears. ''I love you, and all of your bleak perfection.'' He said sincerely. I smiled up at him. He stood up, pulling me to my feet as well. I enveloped him in a hug, which he returned quickly.

''Thanks for loving me.'' I whispered into his ear. ''Your still doing it perfectly.'' I heard him laugh quietly. I'm so thankful for what he's given me of himself. I know that he'll never forgive me entirely, I cant even imagine how much I've hurt him.

He leaned up and stared into my eyes for a second. I met him halfway as he covered my lips with his. No one moved although we were both in perfect sync just standing there, with my lips on his. That had to be the best kiss of my life, and I felt like it lasted forever as he finally pulled away leaving me breathless.

''Promise me that won't be our last.'' He whispered against my lips, the fear in his voice very clear.

''I promise.'' I said, hugging him one last time, before he gathered his things and left.

My feelings were so mixed right now, they felt like mush. I sighed running a hand through my hair. One day I'll love him. One day I'll fulfill that promise.

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Ok so next chapter is all Adam+ Tommy based. Lol I just had to set up the back story in this chapter. I love you all glamberts!

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