Adommy Shippers don't hate me, I'm sorry I swear it but I feel like there was just to much shade thrown in most Saulberts direction so...yea...no...ugh...kill me now.

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*TOMMY P.O.V.*

   I was awakened in the worst possible way as my body collided with the floor, forcing me from my sweet paradise of sleep.

''Dude! Get the hell up you gotta hear this!'' Isaac's voice yelled into my ear, as I lifted my head up from the floor, untangling my body from the sheets that fell with me. Is it sad that I didn't even have the energy to yell at him for pushing me out of the bed?

I looked around the overly spacious hotel room to see him with his ear pressed to the wall. I raised an eyebrow at him. Why do you have to be so stupid in the morning Isaac, it's seriously unhealthy.

''What are you doing?'' I asked boredly as I picked my sheets up from the floor and threw them back on the bed.

''Shh!'' He yelled. Which was stupid if you think about it, you can't possibly tell someone to be quiet if your going to scream while doing it. It defeats the purpose completely. ''Damn! If I were you, I'd get packing. Adams got company and trust me, his sunshine of a boyfriend is not here to congratulate you on tongue fucking his iconic bae.'' Isaac said with his ear still glued to the wall.

''Sauli's here?'' I asked confused. Oh god, I can't even begin to imagine how this must look to him. I hope he didn't freak out, I mean we were beginning to be close friends and he knows that I'm straight so I'm sure it's not my head he wants to rip off. Which means Adam is in a hell of alot of trouble. I sighed shaking my head.

All this, over just one simple kiss.

I sighed running a quick hand through my messy hair. Isaac moved away from the wall as the sound of yelling became much more evident, followed the sound of shattering glass hitting the wall.

''Shit!'' Isaac yelled moving his ear from the wall. ''Dude, I think I'm deaf.'' He muttered rubbing his ear and moving over to his bed.

''Serves you right.'' I replied laughing at him as I made my way over to the door. I might as well try to go help the situation, before one of the guest complains and hotel security gets involved. We all know how much the media would enjoy that.

Before I could place even a finger on the door knob Isaac's hand was on my shoulder pulling me back. ''I don't think that's such a good idea, dude.'' He said seriously. I scoffed shrugging his arm off as I opened the door.

But nothing could prepare me for what happened next.

*ADAM P.O.V.*

I let my head snuggle deeper into my pillow as I squeezed my eyes shut tightly trying to force myself into sleep. I sighed annoyed, before giving up and just laying on my back with my eyes closed as I let my breathing even.

I didn't get any sleep last night after Tommy left, but it's not like I ever do anyway. I guess I'm just so used to changing my sleeping habits to fit my work schedule that I somehow forced insomnia on myself.

I sleep great some nights, but that's mostly when I'm home in my own bed. Speaking of which, I should probably get up and ready for--

''Aye!'' The surprised yell of shock left my lips as the hard items hit me, before I even felt the coldness of it, letting me know it was ice. I sprung up, pulling my sheets off me and standing up watching as all the ice fell to the floor.

''Your love is as cold as ice.'' An all to familiar voice said. I've missed his beautiful Finnish accented voice so much. But those words...what did he mean?

''Sauli.'' I said, looking up to meet his red rimmed sky blue eyes. He was standing by the edge of my bed with his arms folded and a bucket handle clutched tightly in his hand. I stared at him confused as a single tear left his eyes.

I took a step towards him, but he took one back. I don't understand. Why is this happening? ''Sauli?'' I said, making sure to pronounce his name correctly. ''Babe, whats wrong?'' I asked taking cautious steps towards him, but it was useless seeing as though he moved away from me with every proceeding move I made.

His back hit the wall, and when he finally couldn't retreat anymore his tear filled eyes left mine to stare at the floor. I moved to him, placing my hand on his chin to make him look up at me. When I went in to place a kiss on his lips, he quickly jerked his head to the side.

I looked at him hysterically as my confusion turned to anger, then to sadness, and finally decided to rest at worry.

''You promised me you loved me, Adam. Do you remember that? Do you remember that I have feelings too!? There are so many things that I lied to you about saying I was ok with it, just for the benefit of your career and your happiness. But this Adam...this is something that I'm not okay with!'' He yelled, pushing me back and walking into the kitchen.

I followed quickly behind, watching him as he went to the fridge filling the bucket with ice. I don't understand. I would never do anything to hurt Sauli, I love him. I didn't know true happiness until I met him. He's my everything, I would never do something that would intentionally hurt him.

''I have no idea what I did wrong, but I'm sorry. Sauli I'm sorry, are you listening to me baby. I love you please just talk to me and --''

He turned around with his phone in his hand, tapping furiously before throwing the phone to me. I barely caught it, but when I did I'm pretty sure all the color had abandoned my face. What had I done? This is so wrong and I'm such an inconsiderate bastard of a boyfriend.

''We don't need to talk Adam. A pictures worth a million words.'' He said. I was still stuck staring at the photo on his phone. I should've known to call him and clarify things right after the show, but I was to busy being pissed about the Network canceling our performance.

None of that was important though. I shook my head as I frowned at the photo of me kissing Tommy at last nights show, the headline being 'Adam Lamberts' GAY Kiss Scandal!'.

I sighed as I looked up at him, just in time to dodge a glass that was aimed straight for my head. I watched as it shattered against the wall, then turned to look at him shocked. Ok he had anger issues, but never has he tried to hurt me.

Shattering and breaking things, sure that was normal when we got into arguments. But this was new for him, this made me wonder just how much I had unintentionally hurt him. I could'nt blame him for the way he was acting though. I promised him I would'nt hurt him, and even if it was accidental and unintentional I broke that promise.

''Baby.'' I whispered. Trying to ease closer to him, but keeping my distance as well. I had to let him calm down, it was just so hard not to want to hold him close to me as I watched yet another tear fall free from his beautiful blue eyes.

''You love me?'' He asked in a low voice. I could tell he was trying to hold back his tears. I wish he would just let me explain, let me be here for him, let me comfort him. I just wanted to be his, why could'nt he see that? No one else made me feel the way he did. In reality he was only reason I was still me right now, he was my anchor. And I'm just praying he won't drop me so quickly.

''Of course I do. Your my everything. I love y--''

''Fire him, Adam. Not only does this make me- make us look like a joke but its making me question your feelings for me. This whole time, through this whole thing you've been apologizing for hurting me, but you haven't yet apologized for kissing him in the first place.'' He said.

Ok, I could understand this. He was acting on impulse, not thinking straight. But I was not about to fire the best bass player the band had ever had. And I won't ruin Tommy's career because of my relationship problems. I heard the ice in the bucket clank around as he shifted it from his right hand to his left, and as if on reflex I immediately took a step back fear coursing through my body at the thought of being hit with the freezing ice again.

I sighed, looking up at him and running an uneasy hand through my black stained hair.

''I love you Sauli, but if I were to do that not only would I be sacrificing my career but I'd also be responsible for the rest of my band members losing their jobs because our best guitar player and lead bassist would'nt be able to play at our next concert.'' I said, watching him with careful eyes. His face grew even more hurt if it was humanly possible.

He brought a hand up to his face to wipe away the fallen tears. ''So once again your...'' He stopped as he tried to hold back a sob but failed miserably. ''Your choosing your job over me and my feelings and showing me that your career and the careers of your employees is more important than our relationship.''

I didn't even get a chance to tell him how wrong he was about that, because he stormed out of the hotel room, still holding the bucket of freezing ice. I chased quickly behind him but I wasn't fast enough.

By the time I caught up with him he had already made into the hall and just as Tommy opened his room door, Sauli threw the bucket of ice directly in his face. From the sound of Isaac's cursing from inside the room, I'm guessing he was right behind Tommy and a few pieces hit him as well. Tommy just stood there, immobile as the thrown pieces of ice fell from his still figure.

His eyes locked with mine and I was just standing behind Sauli with shock covering my face. Any ounce of calmness that was left in my body had faded away along with my solid stoic expression.

''I trusted you, but only now do I realize how stupid I was.'' Sauli said to Tommy in a low strained voice. ''I don't care if your straight, he's mine got it?'' He said before dropping the bucket and walking back into my hotel room.

''Tommy I-. I just, I'm sorry for this. Please-''

I didn't get to finish my pointless rambling as he was pulled back into the room by Isaac and the door was slammed shut in my face. I can't believe this. I may have just lost my bass player and my guitarist.

Ugh!

I mentally smacked myself. The only I care about, or at least the only the I should be caring about is the fact that I may have just lost my boyfriend...the love of my life.

I walked back into my room, thanking god that there wasn't an audience here to watch that traumatic show. I found Sauli tugged into a ball on the floor as he cried his heart out. Just that sight was enough to have tears pooling in my eyes. At a moment like this I was suddenly happy that I let Ashley book a private room, I would have hated for her to had to of seen this misunderstanding fight as well.

I knelled beside him, scooping him in my arms and bringing him to the bed where I layed him down and wrapped my arm around his waist pulling him into my chest.

''I hate you. I hate you so much Adam, but I just can't stop loving you...I love you, yet you hurt me like no one else.'' He mumbled into my chest, fighting weakly against my grip.

''I love you too, I never meant to. I swear Sauli, it's only you. I'll never hurt you baby, I promise.'' I said to him, hearing his cries and feeling as his tears stained my shirt. I held him closer...tighter. I knew I had to fix my relationship but I wasn't about to fire Tommy to do it. Sauli meant everything to me...but so did Tommy in a way.

And that look on his face in the hall way. It's like he was just pleading for me to make it all stop but I could'nt. I couldn't even wreck my brain to figure out why I was thinking of a different man when Sauli was in my arms right now. I love Sauli, it has to work...it just has too.

''There might have been a time when I would give myself away. Oh, once upon a time I didn't give a damn. But now here we are.'' I sung quietly to him. Soothing him, getting him to relax in my arms.

''Just don't give up, I'm workin' it out. Please don't give in, I won't let you down. It messed me up, need a second to breathe just keep coming around.'' He slowly wrapped his arms around my neck clinging tightly as I layed on my back, letting him climb on top of me. I started to rub rhythmic circles on his back.

''Yeah, it's plain to see...that baby you're beautiful and there's nothing wrong with you. It's me I'm a freak. But thanks for lovin' me 'cause you're doing it perfectly.''

'There might have been a time when I would let you slip away. I wouldn't even try but I think you could save my life.'' I place a kiss to his head as his breathing evened and I knew he was asleep.

''I love you.'' I whispered to him. But it broke my heart when I realized that it sounded more like I was trying to convince myself rather than state a fact.

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A/N

 Does anyone ship or has anyone shipped Saulbert? This is still about Adommy but I just had to give you all that spoon full of drama lol I hope you did'nt choke on it...just ignore that terrible pun.

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Sorry Glamberts, glitterbaby has to shed some tears before he see's a rainbow...