ANGELUS' POV

WHAT HAVE I DONE? I woke up alone in the bed, feeling that I just have the best laid in my whole life, but flashes of memories came back from my drunken state and I perfectly know what happened and I clearly remembered on how Yvo cried and limped underneath me and I felt like I am really a demon,
An asshole and a complete bastard.

My name didn't suit me at all.

I just repeat the story of my parents on how Mama conceived me.
I followed the bad step of my father without knowing it.

And I am afraid that I might lost Yvo as well.

Will I lost him for real now?

I look around and calmed my raging headache, waiting for Yvo to come and slap me or enrage at me but he didn't arrive.
Thinking he might be in his room, I slip on my boxers and walk to his room, expecting to accept his violence but he was not there.

No trace of him at home, and this condo feels empty without him.

I mess up big time.
I'm so fuck up.

I took shower and dress for comfort before calling Alexus if Aya was there, but my brother told me that the twins are having some time together.

And I felt a little relief.

I will accept whatever the consequences will be if I will have Yvo forgive me.

***

It's been 24 hours and he wasn't home. I called my brother again and he's worried to death for Aya who had his phone off.

We met and go to the hotel where he sent Aya but they weren't there at all.

We already sent our men to stroll every where just to find them and we got nothing until Mama came three days prior to the twins went off the grid to my office and his hand immediately flew on my cheek, he slapped me that made my whole body numb.

My mom hurt me after years of my existence. He's fuming mad while looking at me, Dada held his arm.
I've done many bad things as a rebellious son back then but never did my Mama hurt me, just now.

"Baby, calm down." Dada shook his head on me.

"What was that for?" I quietly asked though I already know why.

"That's for being a complete package of a bastard son." Mama's voice was filled with hatred.

"Aya came after three days of being missing and was fuming mad, asking to call for lawyers because you harassed Yvo, showing photos of evidence that he was hurt and forced. What have you done Angelus? Are you crazy?!" Mama shouted at me.

He never raise his voice on me eversince, I know I fucked up this time.
Really, really bad.

"But he said, Yvo don't want to sue you, see? He's a gentle soul. I almost killed your Dada back then when he forced me out of jealousy." Mama glared at Dada who raised his arms in the air.

"I concede." Dada shook his head.

"Fix this Angelus. I don't want issues with Francisca. We've been good friends for God knows when. I don't want to destroy that friendship because I got an asshole son!" Mama stomp his feet, rubbing his 6 months belly while glaring at me.

I stood up and hold his hand.
"I'm sorry if I disappointed you again and again."

He just looked away.
"This is way too much for a disappointment. Fix your mess and consider it you are forgiven.. Until then, don't talk to me,"
He lossen my grip and walk to the door.
"Let's go daddy."

Dada hugged me quickly.
"Man up son, sometimes asking for forgiveness earnestly and sincerely isn't easy but we need to do it to set things right.. I know you can still fix this.. Don't risk things that can make you regret in the future. If you love him, make a move will you?"

"Thank you Dada," I smiled at him and he mess my hair.

"Daddy!" Mama shouted on the door.

"Coming!" Dada look at me again.
"Goodluck!"

***

I got home that afternoon, feeling the emptiness of our home. The place where Yvo and I laughed, talked and love each other. I felt frustrated. I don't know where to start.

I saw the door knob twisted and I immediately got up from sitting on the couch, Yvo is home!

"Where have you been?" I casually asked, he look well rested.

"I hanged out with Aya." I don't know but his plain words hurt me.

"The whole family was worried and even scrolled the whole country to look for the both of you." I step aside and allow him to get in.

He just shrugged his shoulder like he didn't care. Did I lost him already?

"We're home though, don't disturb me. I've got work to do."

He didn't even look at me as he slammed the door of his room.

He's here, but I can't reach him. How will I ever redeem myself?

***

I tried to follow what Dada told me on how I will man up in this situation.
I tried to reach out on Yvo, but he keeps on declining me. I cooked for him, writes notes, I tried to apologize but he don't want to talk to me. Yvo is avoiding me big time and it frustrates the hell out of me.

I ended up buying all the magazines he was the cover, the products he endorsed and even bought his design on a two storey 5 bed room mansion from J&T construction as I found out from Alexus that he bought a house for Aya.

I secretly called the firm and asked for their skilled Engineers so the construction will start immediately.

The idea of starting a life again with Yvo fueled my aim to settle our mess.
I just hope against hope that he will listen to me now.

I got home earlier than usual, remembering those good days back then when Yvo always met me at the door, removed my coat, get my attaché case and we walked inside together, talking about how our day goes on, but now.. I am all alone.

And the bitterness eats me in the inside.

'You're so fucked up, Angelus' a small voice mocked me in my mind.

I changed clothes and prepared dinner when Yvo came, he looked really pale.

Is he even resting?

"Are you okay?" I asked in worry when He look nauseous.

I tried to hold him but he push my hand away like I have a plague, but I didn't stop there, I hold his waist again and he limp on my arms.

"Yvo?!" I shouted when he's not moving.

I felt his pulse and I sigh in relief when I found out that he just passed out, I gently laid him in the couch after I got dress and decent before carrying him again and took him to the hospital.

I don't want to risk everything now, 2 months ago he was here and now.. He's now laying in the hospital bed again, with IV fluid in his wrist while waiting for the results of his overall tests.

I held his hand, feeling the fear inside me creeping me out.

"I'm sorry  for everything baby..but  I won't ask for you to forgive me.. I deserve all your hate.. I will gladly accept everything.. Just.. Just be well... Please. I love you. So much." I whispered while holding his hand gently pressing his skin against mine.

I know he's not listening but I keep on repeating those wordsike a mantra until the doctor came in.

"Mr. Kirigun?" She smiled widely.

"Yes doc?" what's with the creepy smile?

"Congratulations.. He's a month pregnant." her smile grew more wide when I look at her with disbelief.

"W-what? H-how? I-I.. I mean you clearly said two months ago that he wasn't capable of getting pregnant again and chances are just 50%.." I mumbled under my breath.

"Base on the tests, his MRI, ultrasounds, and bloodtests, he's really pregnant, and nothing is wrong with his body, what I said two months ago were true, I didn't expect him to be pregnant again either because of his single ovary and fallopian tube but miracles really do happen Sir, just take care of him because he is loaded with stress, we can't have him lost another baby, would we?"

I shook my head. No, I will not let that to happen again. I will be with Yvo no matter what.

"I should go, congratulations again."

I mumbled my gratitude on her, before looking at Yvo.

I kiss his forehead.

"You're a gem. Thank you baby."