YVO'S POV

THE Doctor said I'm already fine but I still feel the pain physically and emotionally. In three days that passed, Angelus did not showed up. I understand that he is mad at me.
Dada Tharn and Mama Type oftenly visits even though I already told them not to.

Adi was the one helping me around, I am really thankful on having an elder brother who's as thoughtful as him.
Our parents was busy with Aya, he's dealing with his own fear and trauma.

I miss Angelus... I wish I can talk to him and explain my part why I did it, though I know he won't listen, but I want to make myself clear that I didn't lose our baby intentionally.

My eyes darted at the door when it cracked open, a sudden hope grow on my heart that it might be Angelus but rays of disappointments flashed through me when I saw it was Brian.
My good for nothing, Ex.

"What are you doing here?" I blandly said.

"I visited Scarlet, she's still in the ICU, I saw your Mom outside so I opted to come here, flowers for you."
He handed me a bunch of fresh sunflower.

I look at the sunflowers, it made my day.
"Thank you, that's so thoughtful of you giving me this, how's Scarlet? No one told me about her condition."

"Still in coma, even the doctors don't know if she will still wake up or not, your Mom was very sad." He sat on the chair beside my bed.
"How are you?"

The sudden question caught me off guard.

Brian was once my very understanding and loving boyfriend, but before that he was my friend.
Thinking that I finally had someone to talk to, My tears starts to fell.

"I don't really know if I am okay."

"Where's your boyfriend? Why are you alone here?" he hold my hand, pressing it like he is calming me down.

"He didn't show up since then, he's mad at me, I understand." I wiped my tears using my free hand.

"He's that mad at you huh? I'm sorry for your lost, it's not that you wanted it to happen."

I nodded. "Still, I feel so bad, I just hope he will forgive me."

Brian gave me a vibrant smile.
"He will, if he really love you, he will. He might be mad right now but I know.. He will get over it and come back to you."

I look at him with awe.
"Where's my jerk ex boyfriend? Give him back! I don't need a philosopher!"

He laugh at me, his contagious laugh got me, we are both laughing and I felt good.

"Looks like you're having fun."

My eyes shifted from Brian to Angelus who's standing on the door with his grim and dark expression that made me shiver.

"D-daddy.." I croaked, my eyes turns misty.

"Bud, I was just visiting him, Since he's here, I will take my leave. Get well soon." Brian mess my hair and he got up.

But he stop right where Angelus is standing.

"Don't ever dare to hurt Yvo, I can always get him back."

"Try and die asshole. Dream on." Angelus snarled at him but Brian just shook his head and laugh a little then he look at me before leaving the room.

Angelus stood on my foot side, I feel scared on his entire demeanor.
I feel like he will hurt me at any moment.

"What was your reason why you do that drastic move? Are you not thinking that you are pregnant?! Or you were just using that opportunity to lose the baby so you can be free from me? We both know that the baby was just a fruit of that one steamy night that gave us the responsibility.. Did you lose it on purpose?!"

My mouth gape on what he had said.
I can't comprehend on what I heard.

"Now that the baby was gone, you wanted to be back together with your ex who cheated with your sister? Are you really that desperate?!"

My mouth gape open and close, those words felt like blades that slashes my heart again and again.

"How dare you?" I finally found my voice after breathing heavily.
"You thought that I did it on purpose? That I tend to lose the baby on my own will?! Are you fucking sane?! In three days, I've been waiting that you will come so we can fix this but you didn't, and now you're here spouting those painful words.. I admit! I was impulsive when I did that, but if given the same situation, I will do it again. Aya is half of me. If he is in pain, I am as well! We just knew and found each other after 24 years of being apart! Blame me if you want, hate me in your contentment, I will accept it, because I deserved it. But don't you dare say that I lose my baby on purpose. You don't know my pain!"

There, I said it all. I don't know where I get my voice and I said it straight despite that I am crying and sobbing really hard. My chest heave up and down, while my shoulders was shaking.

"Get out! Go away! We're over!" I look at him and pointed the door.
"The baby just binds us together.. And now he's gone. Leave! Get out of my life!"

His face shows a mad reaction. He strode closer to me with a powerful stance that made me shiver.

Angelus gripped my chin and I almost wince in the pain.

"Who are you to demand? I will decide whether we stay together, or you will remain on my side or not. Don't order me around.. I will decide when and where to dump and leave you.. You need to suffer being with me Yvo. You think I will let you off easily? Dream on!"
He let me go forcefully.

I felt my chin is painful.
He's that mad at me.

"I talked to the doctor and she said you can recover at home. Prepare yourself. "
He walked out without even looking at me.

I realized that I didn't just lose my baby, I also lost the man that once worship and loved me.

And I deserve this.