Deritsyo akong pumasok sa kwarto matapos umalis ni Haze the smile all over my face is the evidence that I am pleased of what had happened today hindi alintana ang tingin kanina ni yaya Sil sa labas it was one of those moment that I don't wanna end the enthusiasm I did, felt so euphoric for me.
I thought I can't get the chance to be close at him and it didn't happened in fact it's the opposite now!

My heart pounded when I received his text telling me his already at their house I texted him back to tell him I'm relieved it's already night at parang uulan pa kaya nagalala ako.

The moment I turned off the light ay ang pagkatok naman sa labas ng pinto nagulat pa ako ng makitang si ate Sally ang kumatok basi sa suot nya ay ngayon lang sya nakauwi

"May kaylangan ka ate?" I ask her since nakatayo lamang sya sa harap ng pinto habang masamang nakatingin sakin

"What's wih you and Haze?" Deritsyo niyang tanong

"Were friends ate why?" I asked here back

"You know I like him right? I'm warning you Shine, don't you dare steal my man!" Mariin nitong banta na nagpagulat sakin

Really? Haze is hers?  Then why the hell would he join me for dinner and be with me the whole time they're taking their break for their report tomorrow? She's unbelievable!

"Then does he knows you're his? And he's yours?" Inis kong tanong rito marahas nitong hinawakan ang braso ko kaya napaigik ako 

"Listen Shine! Don't be a jealous little sister! If our father dislikes you a lot then don't ruined our supposed to be relationship it's out of your issue! I'm taking him seriously so don't you damn come in between us!" Matapos sabihin iyon ay nilisan nya na ang kinatatayuan at naglakd papunta sa kwarto nya while I leave with nothing to say

Ganun ba ang tingin nya? That I am stealing Haze from her because I'm jealous at her from  the unfair treatment of our father? If it is then she's wrong! And I'm not scared at her to ever think of disturbing them I mean for disturbing or ruining  her 'oh so called supposed relationship' with Haze never! I know she's lying she can't even stop playing with her boys para maging seryoso sya kay Haze

I stayed up late that night kaya puyat ako paggising I tried  closing my eyes to take a nap pero hindi na ako nakatulog nagdesisyon akong bumaba nalang para kumain just like yesterday ay kami nalang ulit ni yaya Sil ang nasa bahay my parents didn't came home last night and ate Sally is already at school wala akong ginawa buong araw kundi libangin ang sarili sa panonood ng kdrama o di kayay kausapin si Asha Haze seems busy, ngayong umaga lamang sya nakapag text greeting me a good morning and to eat my breakfast pagkatapos nun ay wala na kaya ng maghapunan ay hindi na ako nagdalawang isip na sabihin kina mommy ang planong pagbisita ni Haze bukas daddy seems suspicious he ask me kung sino pa ang makakasama ni Haze baka daw may iba pa na agad ko namang tinanggi our dinner ends with my fathers plan for his candidacy in politics kaya ng matapos na ay deritsyo agad akong kwarto para kausapin si Haze

"Kakatapos  lang din." Sagot ko sa tanong kung nakapag dinner na ako

" Mukhang busy ka talaga ah you sure you'll visit here tomorrow?" I ask him when  I heard his typing something while talking at me

"Hmm I'll go there tomorrow." He said casually

"You can bring here your paperworks or your laptop if you want dito mo na gawin." Paanyaya ko rito I don't want him to delayed passing his paperworks just because of me

"No need Shine I'll finish this today anyway." Sagot muli nito na ikinatuwa ko knowing his doing his works hurriedly just to  visit me here tomorrow makes me feel special

"Ok if that's what makes you happy." Natatawa kong sagot

"By the way how's Asha? I miss that girl!" We talked this morning  na miss ko ang kadaldalan nya

"Tss still busy with Carix." Walang gana nitong sagot
This past days ay madalas magkasakit si Carix kaya naiintindihan ko kung bakit medyo nabawasan ang sigla ni Asha even in phone calls ramdam ko ang lungkot nya

"Is Carix fine now? Heard what happened sana ay ok lang din si Asha." I sadly said

"Why would you ask me about that guy? Ako ba ang nanay nya?" Iritado ang boses nito

"Oy grabe sya I'm just asking hoping you'd know lalo na at kapatid mo si Asha." Halos umikot ang mata ko sa sinabi

"Let's not talk about them ako ang kausap mo don't mention anyone especially when it's a boy."

"Why? I'm just asking"naguguluhan kong sambit

"I just, hate it...." He said smoothly

"You sounded like a jealous boyfriend" I jokingly said

"Ngayon hindi pa so please stop making me jealous."
If Haze is here I'll probably embarrassing myself with my blushing cheeks my gosh why would he spit some words that could make my heart fluttered in a serious conversation?

"You mean? D-do you like me?" Halos sabunutan ko ang sarili sa pagsalita ng pautal-utal

I heard heavy sighed

"Let's talk about this tomorrow Shine we need to talk about this in person." Sa namamaus nyang tinig

Halos dumugo na ang bibig ko sa kakakagat ng mamutawi ang nakakabinging katahimikan samin

"Hindi ko matatapos ang ginagawa ko kapag dito sa tawagan natin to pag usapan." Rinig kong sabi nya

"Hmm I'm sorry for that I guess I'd hang this up na goodnight and see you tom Haze." I said as I ended the phone call hindi ko na hinayaan na magsalita pa sya agad kong pinindot iyon

Parang tanga akong natatawang nakayakap sa unan di he just confessed at me? He's jealous, and he wants to be my boyfriend! That means he likes me too! now that I figured this out how can I faced him tomorrow? Ang maisip na paguusapan namin ang tungkol rito ay nagpapakaba sakin

I like him so much kahit konting panahon palang kaming magkakilala ay nagustuhan ko na sya I can say time isn't really the measurement when it comes to our feelings.

Come to think of it, noon ay wala akong kagana ganang makipagkilala sa mga lalaki I've tried having MU(s) in social media when I felt boring but nothing change hanggang doon lamang iyon wala akong sinagot even when some are courting at me in person siguro dahil na din sa mga couples na nakikita kong nagbebreak din naman ganun ako ka negative when it comes to love even my own father doesn't like me so how come that those boys would like someone who's never been fond by her own father? Sarili kong ama nga ay hindi ko maramdamang mahal ako   sila pa kaya?

Thinking about those makes me believe that love isn't really that perfect but then I met Haze the strong negative thoughts I created faded smoothly,

Maybe love isn't perfect when you're not with the right person maybe those couples who broke up isn't really meant for each other I'd learned that love gives us happiness, hope and lesson and if Haze is meant for me I would be the happiest woman alive if he's not, then maybe I need to learn some lesson to explore more in life and hope for the right man to come...