(Y/n) would always love and adore her and Haxus’ babies no matter what, they were too cute for their own good and they slept long enough for her to get sleep all night as well, but every so often she felt trapped in her own home and depressed, not to mention her body hadn't gone back to its usual shape yet. She had to remind herself that it would take longer than the past three months for her form to return to its pre-pregnancy shape, if it would, and the only issue was that she thought Haxus didn't think she was sexy and desirable anymore. The last time they had sex was before she gave birth; he was still affectionate with her, although he never seemed in the mood to even fool around with her when they were alone and their triplets were napping. There were times when (Y/n) felt a little jealous of the amount of attention he gave Farla, Huz and Harlow; she felt embarrassed for getting jealous since their babies needed attention from both her and Haxus, but sometimes it made her feel worse than she already did. Living in an isolated area didn't help (Y/n's) mental health and the paladins weren't always available to chat, she honestly really missed living with them.

Haxus definitely noticed how his significant other had become more depressed by the time three months passed since she gave birth, he wished that there was more he could do to help her. He was still affectionate with (Y/n) because he still loved her, although he didn't want to have sex with her because she still needed more time to recover and he hadn't quite received his spermicide shot yet. Haxus felt bad that (Y/n) had to experience postpartum depression, it seemed to have gotten worse within the past few weeks and it bothered him that she wasn't her usual self. Never once did he raise his voice or take offense when she got agitated and he was always there when she needed him the most, even though some of the things she said when she got angry really upset him. Haxus became more concerned about (Y/n) after he read about postpartum depression; after he put their triplets down for their nap in the living room he went upstairs to their bedroom where his lover had been resting, and he was concerned when (Y/n) didn't acknowledge him.

“(Y/n)?” Haxus softly called out to his mate, but when she didn't answer or even acknowledge him he became more worried than before; he knew about the dangers of postpartum depression and he didn’t want to see his lover go through any of it.

(Y/n) heard Haxus call out for her, but she was too depressed to answer him; usually she would have been more open about what she was going through, but at the moment she didn't want to talk about, though, in fear of him judging her for being too emotional. She was ashamed of the way she looked after giving birth and that she couldn't satisfy him like she could before she got pregnant, a part of her was afraid that he would be like some of the human men she knew about who dumped their girlfriends or wives shortly after having kids. The thought about Haxus forsaking her scared (Y/n) more than anything, deep down she convinced herself that he'd fallen out of love with her. Haxus silently crossed the room and sat on the bed right next to (Y/n), his heart broke when he saw her flinch. He carefully scooped her up in his arms and sat her on his lap so that he could snuggle with her, hoping to remind his significant other that he still loved her.

“Why are you here?” (Y/n) questioned, her voice barely audible when she spoke since she felt overly depressed.

“Because I want to spend time alone with my beautiful mate. Tell me what's wrong, darling.” Haxus whispered as he pressed a gentle kiss to the top of her head, hoping to get her to open up to him.

“I don't know why you care so much, now that I'm fat and ugly you should just move on and find someone better looking to marry. I'm not worthy to be with you anymore.” (Y/n) mumbled quietly, feeling a sense of shame sweep through her.

“Darling, you just carried a litter of three hybrid kits for several of your Earth months, you should be proud of that fact. I think that you're just as attractive as ever, but if you're bothered by it so much you know that you need to allow your body to fully heal on its own since we don't have access to a healing pod.” Haxus confided lovingly; he really wanted (Y/n) to know that he still found her very attractive even after she'd given birth, he understood that women's bodies changed after pregnancy and he honestly didn't mind those changes, but he also didn't want her to feel ashamed by her body's post pregnancy changes.

“Then why don't you touch me the way you used to? Before I gave birth. Y- you know, like touch me…” (Y/n) responded bitterly, barely able to stop herself from crying when she suddenly felt emotional.

“I'll admit that I'm hesitant to touch you like that because your body needs to heal fully and I don't want you to experience any discomfort, it wasn't my intention to make you feel as though I don't still desire you. It's not like I can just climb on top of you and, you know- And I haven't received my spermicide shot yet. I don't want you to think that I don't want you anymore; when I said that I would love you forever, I meant it. I love you, (Y/n), and nothing can change that. We can still do other things together, things that don't include penetration.” Haxus explained wholeheartedly, nuzzling the top of her head with the tip of his nose while also pressing the occasional kiss on her head.

(Y/n) wasn't sure how to respond, but the clarification of why her fiance’ didn't touch her more intimately made more sense; he was right about her needing to allow her body to heal more and his concern about accidentally getting her pregnant so soon after she gave birth was absolutely valid, his reassurance made her feel a little better. Their triplets would be asleep for several more hours which would give her and Haxus some time alone with each other as a couple, the snuggle time would do them good. Her postpartum depression was far from done and she would have to do her best to get through it, (Y/n) was glad that she didn't have to go through it alone. She felt hot when she felt one of Haxus’ hands delicately groping her right breast, she didn't even feel embarrassed when she felt her nursing bra become a little damp on the inside. Haxus loved how full (Y/n's) breasts were, he hoped their little ones would keep napping for a while.

“Do you promise that we can fool around a little sometime in the future? I really miss being intimate with you.” (Y/n) shyly queried as she began to feel excited, hoping to receive a little extra attention from her boyfriend.

“I don't see why we can't now; our kits are still fast asleep and they will be for a while. I want to remind you of exactly how beautiful you are.” Haxus purred seductively with the intention of making her feel better about herself.

(Y/n) let Haxus cradle her against his chest before he laid her comfortably on their bed, only to hover over her body. She reached up and rested her hands on the sides of his face, then she closed her eyes when he leaned down and brushed his lips against hers; he might have not been evil like he was before she saved him, but he could still be a tease when he wanted to. Prior to going upstairs Haxus put one side of the baby monitor set on an end table in the living room next to the bassinet in case one or all of their babies were to wake up at any time, the other half was always on Haxus’ nightstand so it wouldn't get lost. Haxus was excited to spend a little one-on-one time with (Y/n) and he could smell her excitement, he couldn't even remember when they did anything intimate with each other. (Y/n) tried to chase his lips as he teased her a little, both of them laughing when she accidentally bumped the tip of her nose against the tip of his; she felt better after Haxus reassured her that he still thought she was beautiful, and their moment alone together helped boost her mood.