At 5:00 in the morning my alarm went off and I whined at the interruption of my sleep.

I slammed my hand down on the box and felt Ashton move behind me.

"Is it morning already?" He asked.

"Mhmm." I nodded and sighed before literally forcing myself out of bed.

I fumbled over to the coffee maker and started it before then making my way to the bathroom and starting the shower, waiting a few minutes before getting in.

I was midway through shampooing my hair when the curtain moved and Ashton got into the shower with me.

"This early?" I asked, knowing what he was up to.

"That's kind of our thing isn't it, we do it before one of us leaves and then when they get back? And then try to hit every night of the week." He smirked at me and I rolled my eyes, lightly laughing.

"Give it to me then, rockstar." I leaned against the wall waited for a moment as he got ready and then began to make love to me.

Afterwards we finished showering off and then got out. I wrapped a towel around me and began to blow dry my hair while Ashton wrapped one around his waist and then began to shave.

When he was done he went to get dressed while I curled my hair, and then he pulled out Gracie's suitcase to finish packing it.

I hurried to get ready since Harry was picking me up at 7:00, and I wasn't done packing yet.

I took over packing for Gracie while Ashton went to wake her up so he could dress her and fix her hair, the sleepy little four year old sitting there with her eyes closed while Ashton braided her hair.

I finished Gracie's suitcase and then moved on to mine, pulling out the clothes I needed in between the times Becca would style me and folded those before throwing my cosmetics and toiletries in as well.

When Gracie was dressed Ashton laid her back down so she could sleep again while he and I then sat down at the sofa to drink the coffee we needed.

"I'm still turned on from earlier." Ashton said as his hand slid up and down my thigh.

"I can't tell." I joked and he leaned in for a lingering kiss.

When we pulled away I leaned in to rest my head on his chest.

"I wish I wasn't leaving so soon."

"I wish you weren't either, but you've gotta do what you've gotta do."

I nodded.

"I'm gonna buy tickets for a footie game and surprise Ender." He then said and I smiled. "We can have some father and son bonding time."

"He'll love that."

"And Gracie will love getting to play dress up for two days straight." Ashton chuckled.

"She'll have a blast."

We finished our coffee and then I looked to see Harry would be here any minute.

I walked over to the bed to wake up Ender so I could tell him goodbye and he sleepily sat up.

"Hey, i'm about to leave so I just wanted to tell you bye and that I love you." I caressed his face.

"Okay." He nodded.

"I love you." I leaned in to kiss his cheek. "I'll see you in a couple days."

"Love you too." He replied before laying back down and closing his eyes.

I then looked over to see Ashton hugging Gracie, kissing her cheek.

"I'll see you in a few days. I love you sweetheart."

"Love you, Daddy." She mumbled.

He set her on her feet and then put Baby Bear over her shoulders and placed Mr. Carrots, Ellie the elephant, and blankey in her arms.

A moment later there was a knock at the door and I went to get it, answering it to Harry.

"Hey." He smiled.

"Morning." I let him in.

"You ready to go?"

"Yeah." I said and went to go get my suitcase. I rolled it over to the door and then Harry took it from me, so I then turned around to say goodbye to Ashton.

"Call me when you land and we'll facetime tonight." He said.

"Okay. I'll text you from the plane."

"Alright. I love you." He moved in to hug me and I squeezed him before moving up to kiss him.

"Okay, one kiss for tomorrow." He kissed me. "One kiss for the day after that." He kissed me again. "And then another for this morning because-"

"Shh!" I put my finger to his lips, giggling at him before kissing him once more.

"I love you." I said when I put my heels back on the ground.

"Love you more." He smiled.

"Okay Gracie, lets go." I bent down and led Gracie to the door.

"Bye, Daddy!" She waved her hand.

"Bye baby girl!" Ashton grinned at her and I mouthed that I loved him again before the door closed.

Gracie did good until we got to the elevators and then realised she was leaving her Daddy for a few days and began to cry.

"You'll be okay." I hugged her. "You have me and Uncle Harry, and we'll call Daddy as soon as we get to the car so you can talk to him. Alright? You'll see him in a couple days it will be okay baby."

She nodded tearfully at this and then Harry bent down to talk to her too.

"I have a surprise in the car for you." He told her with a smile.

"Surprise?" She asked.

"Mhmm. But I need you to give me a smile and then we can go see it." He said and she gave him a grin.

Harry and I laughed and then stepped into the elevator.

Downstairs fans and paps were already at the door and Harry's bodyguards were ready, having a path for us to walk so we could get straight in the car.

Harry passed mine and Gracie's suitcases to the driver and then we got in where I noticed Jupiter was waiting inside.

"Jupiter!" Gracie grinned when she saw him and I buckled her into the car seat and then sat down before bringing Jupiter over to her.

Harry sat next to me and placed his arm around my shoulders.

"I thought you'd both like to see him." He smiled.

"Yes, I think this made her day." I laughed.

I then pulled out my phone so Gracie could talk to Ashton.

"Did you forget something?" Ashton asked when he answered.

"No, Gracie didn't realise she was leaving until we got to the elevators and started crying, so I told her we would call you in the car so she could talk to you."

"Aw." He chuckled. "Put her on."

"Gracie, its Daddy." I handed her the phone and she held it up to hear ear.

"Daddy?" She asked and then a bright smile took over her face. "Daddy I miss you."

She cheekily smiled as Ashton talked to her and she told him she loved him before she gave the phone back to me.

"Hey."

"Don't forget to call me when you land." Ashton said.

"I won't."

"Okay, I love you."

"Love you too."

We ended the call and I went to stow my phone in my purse.

I was then watching Gracie pet Jupiter when I felt Harry take one of my hands in his and then felt his nose lightly bump against my temple.

"What are you doing?" I turned my head to the side to ask him, leaning it away so I wouldn't be so close.

He hummed a response as he shrugged.

"Look, i'm happy to see you too but you're being a bit inappropriate."

He sighed at this and let go of my hand and moved his head away but kept his arm around my shoulders.

He remained that way the rest of the drive too, and when the car stopped I noticed we were literally on the tarmac by a smaller plane.

"What is this?" I asked him.

"The plane?" He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and then seemed to realise my true question. "Oh. I didn't tell you, we're flying on my private jet."

"You have a private jet?" I asked him in awe.

"Yeah." He chuckled and I looked back at the plane before the door was opened so I could get out.

I moved over Gracie to get out of the car before reaching in to unbuckle her and then set her on the ground before placing all of her toys back in her arms.

I double checked to make sure we didn't leave anything in the car and then Harry came around to me, Jupiter in his arms as someone grabbed our luggage.

Paparazzi were behind a fence a ways away, snapping photos of us, but I let it go and focused on Gracie.

"We go on airplane." She bounced up and down and I laughed at her before Harry nodded for us to go.

I nudged Gracie along and helped her climb the stairs, Harry following, until we were on board and she ran over to a chair and climbed up in it.

"Good girl." I smiled at her and set down my bag before going to buckle her in.

This plane was definitely nothing like the commercial flights I had been on.

This was so much more spacious and felt like a lounge.

There was a mini fridge and bar, a sofa and a few lounge chairs like the one Gracie was in, and then further back down a hall was what looked like a bedroom.

Harry and I sat down in the other two chairs for take off and I realised I had always held someone's hand when we took off, whether that be Ashton or Ender. And as the plane began to move faster I reached out for Harry's hand which he immediately took, squeezing my fingers.

Gracie covered her ears at the noise and then I felt us lift into the air.

I let out my breath that I had been holding in, and then looked at Harry who was watching me.

"Sorry, that part and landing make me nervous."

"It's okay." He gave me a small smile.

After about ten minutes we were aloud to get up and so I unbuckled Gracie who took Jupiter and began to explore the plane.

I unbuckled my seatbelt as well and escaped to the bathroom for a moment before coming back and getting the photo album Ashton and I had bought and the photo box before sitting down on the floor.

"What are those?" Harry asked as he moved to sit in front of me.

"Oh! Ashton tracked down where Gracie used to live and found her old neighbour who had a box of her baby pictures. He surprised me with them yesterday."

"That's nice." He commented and then began to watch me as I put them in the book in chronological order.

"Mommy, I have to go to bathroom!" Gracie ran out from the bedroom after about ten minutes and so I got up to help her in there before she came back out to look at pictures with me.

"Hey Gracie, I have games on the television, do you want to play?" Harry asked her and I smiled as the two of them began to play Just Dance.

I watched them while I organised the photos and once I was done I managed to get a cute little video of them.

After that Gracie was tired and she ate a snack before going back to play with Jupiter.

Harry then came to sit next to me,

"So you and Ashton are good now?" He asked me.

"Yeah." I nodded.

"What happened in there...you guys solved that really fast."

"Well I mean, we had a conversation and he apologised, and I told him that this was his last chance. And he knows that. I really don't think he's going to mess this up."

"So you forgave him?"

"Well, mostly yeah. I mean i'm still getting over it but he's so sorry and still feels awful about it. He's doing everything he can to make this up to me and I know that he didn't mean what he said."

"But what if he does mess up again...?" Harry asked, "What are you going to do then?"

"I don't want to talk about that." I said. "I'm thinking positive and right now I have faith in him. And I think everyone else should too."

He nodded.

I then stretched my arms and sighed.

"I think i'm going to go take a quick nap." I said.

"Okay." He replied and I headed back to the bedroom where Gracie and Jupiter were playing with his bone on the bed.

"Hey, Mommy is going to take a nap in here, do you want to take one with me?" I asked her.

"I want to play." She said.

"Okay, then go play in the front room." I said and she nodded before sliding off the bed and running to the front.

I laid down on the bed and got under the blankets, allowing myself to sleep.

What felt like seconds later I woke up to movement and opened my eyes to see Harry laying down next to me.

"What are you doing?" I mumbled.

"Thought i'd join you." He said and I nodded, scooting up to get closer to his warmth.

"Carter you're freezing." Harry said and pulled me closer to him.

"You're warm." I responded and he smiled as he pulled me even closer to where I was practically on his chest.

I couldn't go back to sleep then and let him hug me for a while before getting up to check on Gracie.

It was time for lunch so I made her a peanut butter and jelly sandwich from the groceries available on the plane and after she ate that I went to put her down for a nap in the back room.

When I came back out Harry was sitting sideways on the sofa with his feet propped up.

"Come sit with me." He waved me over.

"Where, you're taking up the entire lounge?" I laughed but he reached forward to pull me on top of him.

I fell forward, landing on his chest.

He and I both burst into laughter and he adjusted me so I was between his legs, leaning against him.

"You're touchy today." I commented as he put his arms around my waist.

"So." He shrugged and I rolled my eyes before turning forward.

"So have you been on any more dates?" I asked him.

"No." He said.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Haven't felt like it." He replied. "So I have a question."

"What?"

"So do you really like being a parent?"

"I love it." I smiled. "I wouldn't want to be anything else. I love being a mom." I said. "Why?"

"Well I was just asking...I never wanted kids but maybe I could be a dad."

"You're good with Ender and Gracie, I think you'd make a great father." I patted his hand. "What would you want? Boy, girl, both?"

"A girl. Just one." He said. "What about you, what do you want?"

"Well Ashton and I have talked about it and we want to have three more."

"Three?" His voice went higher.

"I like big families, and we want to be able to experience both a boy and a girl again and then have one more."

"That's a lot of babies." He said and I laughed. "I don't think I could do that many."

"Ashton says he's ready for more kids and I say i'm not, but i'll be honest, I'm excited to get pregnant one day."

"You'll just be crankier than you are now." He replied.

I smiled at him before he asked me another question.

"When is your birthday?"

"April 15th." I said and he frowned.

"I missed your birthday."

"I didn't even know you on my birthday." I laughed.

"But still." He said and I shook my head. "You know what, we're going to celebrate it anyways."

"We are?"

"Yes. I'm going to get a cake and a present and we will have our own celebration."

I laughed at this.

"Okay."

I then closed my eyes and leaned my head on his chest, taking a deep breath.

After a few minutes I felt Harry's hand rest on my arm and the felt his other one raise up.

I ignored it though and rested until I heard Gracie come in and opened my eyes.

"Hey baby." I smiled at her.

"Hi, Mommy." She climbed up in my lap.

"Did you have a nice nap?" I asked her and she shook her head no. "Why not?"

"Jupiter snoring." She said and Harry and I both laughed.

I played dolls with Gracie the rest of the flight and when we were about to land I buckled her back up and then prepared to land as well, Harry holding my hand again as we hit the tarmac. After we had landed, Harry and I walked around to make sure Gracie had all of her toys and cleaned up her mess before I put her toys back in her arms and put Baby Bear on her shoulders before picking her up.

Harry put Jupiter on his leash and then the door was opened and the stairs were lowered.

We waited for the SUV to drive up and then began to walk off the plane and down the stairs. I could see the fans and paparazzi waiting and Gracie waved at them before we got in the car so it could take us to our hotel.

The hotel we arrived at this time was a bit more extravagant than the ones I had stayed at before, besides the one in Paris, and Harry and I checked into our separate but adjoining rooms before heading up to them.

Gracie and I headed into ours and I set her down, letting her run to look at everything before pulling out my phone to call Ashton.

"Hey baby!" He answered quickly.

"Hi." I smiled. "Im here."

"Great. How was your flight?"

"Good. How has your day been?"

"Its been good. I got Ender and I tickets to a footie game tomorrow which he is very excited about, and then we had a meeting for the new merch designs. I'll send you the photos, I think you'll like them.

"Oh yay. I can't wait to see. So Ender's pretty excited huh?"

"Yeah. He's ecstatic. He hasn't stopped talking about it all day."

"Well i'm sure you two will have a blast." I smiled.

"Yeah. How was Gracie on the plane?"

"She did good. She liked being able to run around and play."

"Run around?"

"Oh, we took Harry's private plane."

"Oh." He said, his tone changing a bit.

"Everything okay?" I asked.

"Yeah. Sorry. Alright, well Ender is already asleep but FaceTime me when you can."

"I'll call after dinner. I love you."

"Love you too. Bye."

"Bye."

We ended the call and I took a deep breath before gathering Gracie and getting her settled down so I could change her into a nicer dress for dinner.

I then slipped into the closet where Becca had obviously been because I had dresses there, and I sent her a message that I was here before knocking on Harrys door.

"Yeah?" He opened it.

"How nice do I need to dress for dinner?"

"Nice." He said and I nodded before heading back to the closet.

Soon there was a knock on the door and I opened it to Becca.

"Hey there gorgeous!" She smiled as she hugged me.

"Hi." I laughed. "Its so good to see you!"

"I know! It's been too long."

"Aunt Becca!" Gracie then ran up to her and Becca took her in a hug.

"Gracie! How are you?"

"Im happy!" Gracie giggled and we laughed at her answer before Becca and I headed into the closet to pick out what I should wear.

"Oh I picked this up just the other day." She held up a tight looking red dress.

"Sure." I said and I took off my shirt and jeans and a few moments later Harry appeared at the door.

"Hey what color dress are you wearing?" He asked.

"Oh my God, Harry! I'm not even dressed! Get out!" I exclaimed and closed the door.

"Seriously?" He called back at me and I rolled my eyes.

Becca just shook her head and I took off my bra so I could put on the dress. It pushed up my breasts to make them look bigger and I looked at myself in the mirror as Becca then began to re-curl my hair.

"Do you think this is too sexy?" I asked her.

"I mean its sexy but you're not wearing it to look sexy for Harry, you're wearing it to look good for yourself, and give your fiancé who's half way around the world the hots."

I laughed at this.

When she was done with my hair we went to the bathroom where I sat in a chair, Gracie in my lap as Becca re-did my makeup, and Harry then walked in.

"See, red. Thats all I needed to know." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"Mommy we go eat now?" Gracie asked me.

"We are going to go eat in a little bit." I answered her.

"Oh, um, kids aren't allowed at the restaurant I made reservations at." Harry said quietly.

"What?" I looked at him. "Then why would you make reservations there?"

"Well...I was hoping Becca could watch her." He said.

"Harry you need to tell me these things ahead of time so I can make plans. Because now I have to find someone to watch her, and Becca might have plans."

"I dont." She replied as she continued to do my makeup.

'See, she can watch her!" Harry defended himself.

"Luckily! What if she hadn't been able to? You have to think, Harry." I said and he sighed before leaving.

"Im sorry." I said to Becca. "I'll pay you extra."

"Thanks. And it's fine." She gave me a smile.

"He drives me crazy sometimes."

"Well he is a boy." She said and I chuckled.

Once my makeup was done I sighed and walked into Harrys room where he was sitting on his bed, scrolling through his phone with a untied red bow-tie around his neck.

"I'm ready when you are." I said and he looked up at me.

"I'm sorry for not telling you. Sometimes I make plans and forget that the kids can't always go. I'll try and do better next time."

"It's fine." I said.

He stood up and followed me back into my room where I grabbed my purse and went to Becca.

"Okay, heres my credit card, you guys can order room service for dinner and buy movies if you want, and call me if you need anything."

"Alright, we'll have fun." Becca smiled and me and I then went over to bend down in front of Gracie.

"Be good for Becca and I'll be back soon. I love you."

"Love you Mommy." She kissed me and I kissed her back, hugging her to me for a moment before letting go.

"Have fun." I smiled to Becca and she waved as Harry placed a hand on my back, leading me from the room.

He and I headed downstairs to the SUV and I got in first, Harry getting in next.

"You look nice." I commented to Harry as I looked over at him.

He had on a suit with his bow tie still undone, the colour matching my dress.

"So do you." He smiled.

"I think this dress is a bit much."

"I think it's perfect." He said.

As we drove we noticed the paparazzi cars again and when we arrived at the restaurant they swarmed.

"I'll get you in a second." Harry said to me and I nodded, watching as he got out of the car. After a moment my door was opened and I got out, the flashes blinding me, and Harry placed a hand on my back as he began to walk me to the restaurant doors.

"HARRY, DID YOU PROPOSE TO CARTER?!"

"CARTER DOES ASHTON KNOW YOURE WITH HARRY?!"

"HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN DATING?!"

"ARE YOU JUST FRIENDS OR ARE YOU MORE?!"

"CARTER DID YOU LEAVE ASHTON?!"

I told myself in my head to tune their words out.

There were fans waiting outside, how they knew we would be here I had no clue, and a few slipped through the paps to try and take selfies with us as we walked.

A guy showed up next to me to try and take a selfie and suddenly he fell into me, grabbing onto my arm and I gasped as I tried to pull my arm away but felt Harry do it for me instead.

"Don't touch her." He said harshly and soon the body guard came around to my side and Harry had us walk faster until we were inside and the doors closed behind us.

"Are you okay?" He asked me.

"Yeah, he just grabbed onto my arm really tight." I said, rubbing at my arm.

He nodded and then we stepped up to the desk where Harry said his name and the guy nodded before taking us back to a private room with a table set for two.

"Woah." I said as we walked in and Harry smiled before pulling out my chair for me. Once I sat he pushed it in for me and I adjusted the chair as he then sat down.

The waiter handed us our menus and then Harry ordered himself a scotch while I stuck with water.

"This is a bit romantic Harry." I smirked at him.

"I thought we could have a nice dinner together." He said and I laughed.

All of the sudden my phone that was on the table began to explode with messages and I picked it up, looking to see Ashton was texting me.

'Call.'

'Me.'

'Now.'

'Carter.'

I sighed and picked up my phone before saying excuse me to Harry and standing up, going across the room as I called Ashton.

"Okay, can I say something to you and not have you get pissed at me?" Was the first thing he said when he answered.

"You can try." I said and he sighed.

"Look I know we just had that big fight and I drunkenly accused you of cheating, and I know you're not, don't think that's what i'm saying, but I don't think it looks good when you go out with Harry while your fiancé is halfway around the world and without our daughter which is my next question, in dresses that give me a hard on by just looking at the pictures online. Does it make sense what i'm saying?"

"Yeah, i'm starting to understand that." I said, keeping my voice quiet.

He sighed in relief.

"I'm sorry, but I had to tell you how I felt."

"No, that's what I want you to do."

"So where is our child?"

"At the hotel with Becca."

"Okay then."

"Oh and um, I wore it for you by the way."

"What?"

"The dress. I wore it for you. I wanted to see if it did what I wanted it to and I guess it worked."

"Now you're just being a tease." He said and I lightly laughed.

"I'll call you in a bit." I said.

"Okay. Love you."

"Love you too. Bye."

I ended the call and then turned around and went back to the table with Harry who was watching me.

"Sorry." I said as I sat back down.

"What did Ashton want?"

"Just to talk." I said.

He nodded but I noticed he was a lot more quiet than he had been.

"Hey, what's your deal?" I nudged his leg with my foot after a few minutes.

"When it's my time with you I just wish you'd actually spend it with me, not on the phone with him."

"Well I'm sorry but when he calls i'm going to answer."

He nodded again.

"Look, i'll put my phone up and we can enjoy the rest of our dinner together." I put my phone under my leg and he gave me a small smile before sipping the drink the waiter had brought him.

"Okay, tell me about the shoots you set up for me this week." I said, starting the conversation, and it seemed to work because he smiled wider before giving me the details.

"Well one is going to be for L'oréal which is a makeup brand, another will be for Ralph Lauren, and the last one is a bit of a surprise."

"Okay then." I laughed.

He and I took time to look at the menu and since my stomach was still being weird I decided to stick with something light and not too spicy, and ordered the lemon chicken while Harry ordered some lobster thing.

I noticed the waiter kept eyeing us as we ate and once we were done Harry ordered us dessert and he and I shared a creme brûlée.

Harry paid for the meal and tipped the waiter before he and I went to leave. His body guards walked ahead of us and Harry kept his hand on my back but the fans kept trying to reach through the paparazzi and Harry moved his hand to my arm to move me in front of him as we walked.

I let out a breath after we got in the car and Harry sighed as well.

We headed back to the hotel and when I got up to the room Becca and Gracie were watching a movie on the television.

"Mommy!" Gracie grinned when she saw me and ran up to me, hugging my legs.

"Hey sweet girl, did you have a good time with Becca?"

"Mhmm." She nodded.

"Good. Well it's bath time." I said and she ran to the bathroom.

"Thanks for watching her." I thanked Becca who stood up.

"It was no problem."

I found some cash in my wallet so I could pay her and then she said goodnight and left.

Harry went to his room to change and I slipped into the closet to change my clothes as well, and then went to get Gracie in the bath.

Once she was bathed I then put her in her pyjamas, and then took off my makeup, put my hair in a messy bun, and then put on my glasses before getting Gracie on the bed and face timing Ashton.

He answered and smiled when he saw me and Gracie on the screen.

"Daddy!" Gracie smiled.

"Gracie!" Ashton laughed. "How's my baby girl doing?"

"I miss you." She said and I awed at her.

"I miss you too baby, but i'll see you in a couple days."

"Okay Daddy." She said.

"Okay Gracie." He chuckled. "Car, how was dinner?"

"Good."

"Good. Okay well it's late, and I wanted to see your faces, but i'll call you guys tomorrow."

"Alright. Talk to you then. We love you."

"Love you Daddy!"

"Love you guys too." He smiled and blew us a kiss each before we ended the call. 

I set my phone on the charger and then went across to Harry's room where he was sitting on his bed with Jupiter.

"Goodnight. Thanks for dinner." I smiled at him.

"Goodnight." He said and I closed the door before going back to the bed with Gracie.

She and I curled up beneath the blankets, and I fell asleep to her breathing.

I felt the bed dip behind me, waking me up, and I opened my eyes as I felt someone get in bed with me.

I looked behind me to see Harry laying down.

"Harry, what are you doing?" I mumbled.

"I can't sleep." He said and I put my head back on the pillow.

"Take a melatonin." I whispered.

"Shh. Go to sleep." He said, and I tightened my arms around Gracie before feeling Harry put his arms around me. 

This was weird, but I was too tired to talk to him about it now, so I would talk to him tomorrow.

Yeah, tomorrow.

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Sooooooo.....

Harry....

Yeah, um, what do you think is up with that, and will Carter actually say something him about his behaviour?

More to come!

Much love xx-m