The reason why people didn't usually get over the break up wasn't because they were being overdramatic, it was because they loved hard. In their minds, it wasn't fair that they had wasted years for someone that shattered their hopes and expectations.

I wasn't pained because of a break up more than I was about the tantalization of my heart; a special organ that I gave for someone to protect it and to love it.

Instead, it was utterly wasted. Destroyed. With nothing to ache for anymore.

Heavy with my petty sulking side, I treaded my way back after the snow storm got more violent like my mood. The class was over, and I would have to think of ways to cover myself from Lucas since I couldn't keep on being unattended for the course.

Becky was finally alone when she walked back. Her eyes shot daggers at me when she came to face me.

"Where the hell were you?" She inquired. I placed a hand on my arm and tried to look elsewhere.

"I was-" I started, Reign decided to make his presence known beside hers.

They were comfortable with their new intimacy, which caught me off-guard when the Tarazan-like boy placed an arm around her waist.

"Naya, why did you hide off this gem from me?" He accused lightly, Becky blushed and I could tell she was having a thrill being the center of attention.

I wasn't in the mood to talk at all. I just wanted to heat myself up in bed.

One more course to go. Art. I reminded myself as the duo were expecting me to talk back. I just froze, then snapped out of my bubble.

"Uhm, I didn't hide her." They both laughed at my innocent reply, and I dug my nails into my arm wanting a pause to collect my thoughts.

"You're too cute, Nays." He complimeneted.

It was the same nickname Lucas used to say. A shiver ran through me and I felt the sickness coming back to me.

"I am going to rest, I'll see you guys later." They looked at me in concern, and I gave them a tired smile before I walked in a haste, sneezing halfway through.

I didn't know how I managed, but the warmth in my room after I learnt how to turn off my air conditioner was bliss.

Tying my hair in an updo bun and taking off my boots to reveal my black socks, my brain was fried to the max. I snuggled under the covers when my bones rattled from the snow.

The door opened and I expected it to be Reign, so I peeked and my heart dropped when it turned out to be Lucas, I pretended to sleep when I turned the opposite in order not to let him see me.

There was a defeaning silence in the air, a short pause and the door clicked close upon the realization that Reign gave him a key to our room.

I was going to have the talk with him. He needed to give Reign back the key.

It was my first time keeping secrets and planning wasn't as masterful as I expected. I wasn't used to this manipulation, but my heart wanted revenege once and for all.

I left my mind to imagine what it would be like to have Lucas by my side; if he came and cuddled me under the covers as we whispered to each other about our thoughts and fears. My heart fluttered abnormally as if beat only for him, and my real smile was carved on my face.

The next phase descended: the benefit of the doubt. Lucas wouldn't waste a year of his life with me for a shallow bet, what if it was much more than that and Lucas was innocent?

I hated myself in these two phases. I was feeling pathetic and out of place. I felt like I was throwing myself down the Lucas net again and I didn't want that for myself.

Sleep consoled me from the burn I felt in my heart.

•••

Reign shook me awake right in the middle of my dream adventure. "Nays, wake up and take your medicine." I really loved the way he took care of me, he was what Lucas wasn't and I didn't understand how they were the best of friends.

"Thank you." My voice was scratchy as I took Claritine for my flu. He gave me hot tea and my heavy-lidded eyes thanked him.

"I told Lucas I didn't want to go to the party, I want to stay with you." He informed me when he sat next to me on my bed.

I laid my head on his shoulder when he bunched my hair from the fallen bun onto my shoulder, placing his hand on my back.

"You can go if you want." I soothed his guilt, and he gave me a hard-set glare to shut up.

"No, it's fine, Lucas makes these parties every day." He told me, his breath minty with a side of cinnamon. My throat brutally ached when I sipped my tea.

"I feel dead," I voiced out, "I can't believe I skipped two classes." I told myself more than towards him.

"I can gather your notes from Becky and  get them to you." He solved it out, and I gave him a grateful smile as he squeezed my hand in his.

After a moment of silence, the pill worked its way through and it made my headache a little better. I settled the tea on the table.

"Your friend came here, I think he was looking for you." I pretended to not remember his name, so Reign couldn't catch me.

"Oh, I gave my key to Lucas so he could grab the book that I forgot, sorry about that." He sincerely apologized and I was relieved that it was a one time thing.

"What time is it?" I asked. Reign showed me his watch.

It was an hour before midnight, and I probably looked like a junkie in hibernation.

"I will tell you one fun fact for the night." He started as his juicy wink made me chuckle.

"What is it?"

"Becky used to date Lucas."