"I hate you because you make me feel so so stupid. I know I was stupid for believing you in everything you said and I  know I am stupid because I still love you, even after everything you did to me. I hate you because you're making me feel bad for you because I see you scream in the corridors in school after your failed attempts at trying to find me. Why am I feeling bad for you when I'm the one that got hurt the most? Why do I want to stop telling you how much I hate you just because it hurts you? Why is it that I feel a knot in the pit of my stomach whenever I see you with your head in your hands in the old hockey field? Why does the fact that you are hurting make me want to cry? Why are you doing this to me? How are you doing this to me?"

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double update again because Vidya commented "my heart hurts" on note 7 and I felt bad (lmao) so I thought I'd update again :D

wattpad is such a bitch I swear it tells me before I publish every part "Your story part takes __ seconds to read. Are you sure you want to publish it?"
Like thanks for the vote of confidence wattpad ffs -_-
It makes me want to punch my iPad lmao
okay okay sorry for the crap I wrote above I'm going
~au revoir mes amis~