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Hey lovelies, just want to say, from his Chp. on I will write on the Laptop, so some formats maybe change.

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Hyunjin POV

Felix and ignored each other in the past few days as good as we could. We just ate breakfast together and filmed, but also then we only talked when we had to because of the script. I don't remember when Felix and I learned to hate each other. I don't even know why we hate each other. He is not a bad guy. I just had the wrong friends in highschool. When we were kids we were good friends, but in high school we both changed and our friendship vanished like it was never there.

A message disturbed my thoughts.

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byunbai is a fictional character

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Byunbai

Hey, dude. I heard you play in a movie. With Lee.

Me

Lee-Bang.

I don't understand why I reacted like this. Why do I help Felix. I don't even like him.

Byunbai

Whatever

Me

Yes, I do.

Byunbai

Oh good. I have a good idea how you can wrack him.

Me

Not interested

Byunbai

WHAT? Who shited in your brain. That's Felix.

Me

I know, but I don't care.

Byunbai

Come on. Just one little thing.

Me

What do you need?

Byunbai

Just give me his number.

Me

What if I don't have it?

Byunbai

Then get it

Me

Why should I give it to you? What will you do?

Byunbai

Nothing. Just chat a bit with him.

I thought for a moment. I mean, what should go wrong. He can't do anything over the phone. I will just give him the number. Nevermind.

Me

+** ***/********. Here you go.

I turned off my phone and begin to walk back to our dorm. I was in a park, so it will take me about 20 minutes to go back.

Felix POV

Today it is my turn to cook. What should I cook? I think Japchae will do it. One good thing about having Hyunjin as my roommate is that he is also Korean, so I can cook Korean food. Eventhough I am born in Australia I lived in South Korea for a long time. I get all the things I need. Now I only need a knife for the vegetables. Let's take this one. At that moment I got a message.

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IMPORTANT

The following story parts may are not in your comfortzone. Please skip it if you are uncomfortable with reading about bullying (physical, also lightly sexual) or selfharm. You can read again at the beginning of the next chapter. I will also set the story as mature because of this. Also, if you get bullied, please talk to someone. Go to someone you trust and get help of an adult. If you feel scared that they wont understand you and you really have to fight with yourself to do this, then go to a psychologist. Don't think this is pathetic or something like this. It is brave and only for your best.

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Unknown Number

Hey babyboy.

Unknown Number

Do you still remember me?

Unknown Number

Don't be scared babyboy. Byunbai is here to help you. You know, just one cut and everything will be good.

Unknown Number

It will bleed a bit, though. but don't be scared.

Unknown Number

You know what to do, baby. Heaven is waiting.

My phone fell from my hand. Byunbai. I hoped I would forget him. My breathing got faster. My grip around the kitchen knife got tighter. All the emotions from that time came back. My medicine. I need my medicine. Or Chan. Where is Chan? Chan always helped me. He is the reason I still live. My sister never knew this. My eyes get wet. I fell the demand to just cut my hand of. I am scared to miss the right vein. Come on, Lix! You can do that.

I put the knife on my wrist and then I just pressed. It hurts. It hurts so much. The blood runs down my arm. Just one tear left my eyes. I did this so often before Chan found me and helped me. I am used to this. I can do this. I am alone here. I put the knife again on my wrist. Then I heard the door. Hyunjin! Why now!

"Lee? Is the food ready?"

"Lee-Bang. No. I can't cook this fast!", I tried my best not to stutter.

"As if! I am sure you can't even cook!"

That hurts. I feel the pain of another cut. One more. Please! One more.

"I don't want to be poisoned. Let me cook!"

Another cut. I don't feel my hand anymore. Hyunjin opens the kitchen door and comes around the corner.

"Fe-Felix?"

Weakly I turn my head to the left to look at him. Emotionless. That's what I am right at the moment.

"Leave, Hwang!"

"No, I will stay! Look at you. You are bleeding!"

"Nothing I hadn't before." I stand up with a groan and wash my arm. Then I get the bandages from a drawer in the kitchen aisle. It hurts a bit, but I am used to it.

"Felix, let me help you!"

"NO!", I hiss. "Leave me alone, Hwang!", I emphasize his name disparagingly.

He looks sad for a second, but I am sure I just thought that.