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Chapter 35

Later that day. Jin continues to be jealous and be suspicious. Let's say that when he got out of Namjoon's office to let him and his employee discuss some things out---he was calm and is finally ready to forgive his husband that time as he think that he had already forgotten the earlier's events.

Believing that he could easily forgive someone that for him---cheats behind him.

Yet when he got home, he continue to doubt Namjoon's love for him. He let himself fall into his thought of that girl sitting above his desk and his husband doing some nastiness during working time.

Behind his back. Without his watch.

And as he doesn't have any further works to do, he just stay inside their room. Afraid of loneliness yet now he's alone, didn't even bother to call his friends, parents or any relatives to stay with him until he fell at ease---because he thinks that he will just be a nuisance or somewhat burden to them.

Especially it's already ten o'clock at night. And probably they are already sleeping. So Jin has no plan on contacting even just one of them.

He stays put under the sheets of their bedroom, curled into a ball as he cries silently. First, because of the darkness caging him. Second, because he's lonely, afraid that he will find something creepy.

For now---he'll just cry all of his unwelcomed emotions out and later---he'll accept Namjoon's apology. Still has his little doubts about the ravenette's love for him but is ready to forgive.

Little did he know that on the other side, Namjoon is carefully staring at the pictures that Sungjae had sent. For the nth time since it was handed over him.

Still wants to make sure if it is just edited or is it real. Because he---doesn't want to doubt Jin's love for him--just like how the latter doubts his pure and sincere love to him.

Not so long after Jin calmed down from crying and it's just the hiccups leaves his lips now---no more tears in his shimmering eyes and no more sobs and cries, when he heard such thunderstorms coming from the outside.

He immediately sits on the center of the bed, eyes and mouth wide open. Both his knees are reaching his chest as he hugs them---tucking his head in between them. He might doesn't want to admit this one but one of his biggest fear was lightnings and rains.

Also---his ombrophobia had started when he was five years old. When they were on a vacation at his granny's house on their province, they are exploring the mall when he got separated from his parents and little brother as the crowds squeezes him in between.

Making it hard for him to follow his parents anymore. So he tried to find a way to get out of the mall, hoping he will gonna see his family waiting for him outside.

He ran and ran that time with his numb little limbs until he reached the entrance of the mall, only for him to notice that his parents and brother wasn't there.

And that's when the rain had started to pour and it gets heavier at every passing seconds. Leaving the poor little him wet and soaked in rain. Crying as he calls his parents and brother's names, in hope to be with them again.

They did found Jin---the Jeon couple found their five years old son, and immediately headed back home. Yet that event when he got lost in a very dark night and in between of heavy rains stayed inside Jin's mind. That up until now---he fears darkness and heavy rains.

The reason why now---he is having Ombrophobia and Nyctophobia. The reason why he hates being alone, because he believes that when he is alone, no one wants to be with him and will just leave him.

The thunderstorms and lightnings has become more stronger and louder, along with the pouring heavy rains that has Jin gotten more scared as severe panic has begun to build inside of him.

He roams his eyes around their bedroom, hoping to find at least one thing to make himself be protected---since his protector still aren't here.

He tried his best to find such thing without moving out of the bed as it's only the bed that makes him feel at ease right now. His eyes got stuck on the bedside table when he saw his phone above it.

He reached for it with his trembling hands and immediately goes to contacts and pressed over his husband's number. Waiting for Namjoon' to pick up his call, he eagerly puts the phone on his right ear.

Sometimes dropping the phone or covering both pf hos ears tightly whenever the lightnings would go insanely loud.

He called multiple of times, only for him to repeatedly hear a girl's voice telling him that the number he was calling couldn't be reach.

He just hope Namjoon will come back home soon, or even just answer his failed phone calls to at least calm him down at times like this. Doesn't matter to him if he's busy or just doing something that wasn't even that important.

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"Aren't you going to answer your phone, Sir?" Ryujin asks as she stood beside the center table of Namjoon's office' lounge area where the phone is neatly placed.

Namjoon looked up from the papers he's checking to see Ryujin's confuse face. Then he diverted his gaze to the center table---looking at his phone that's resting there. "Just let it be. I'm sure it's nothing important!"

Ryujin looks at the caller's id and her frown deepens, about to tell Namjoon that it's his husband that's calling him but Namjoon didn't let her finish her words.

"Decline the call and mute the phone for a while! Can't you see i'm busy here?"

"But---" she stops when the CEO glares at her. "Yes, sir." she declined the call then muted her boss' phone. Hesitant to do it at first but couldn't help but to oblige to her boss' demand.

She left the office room, thinking that she might disturb Namjoon at all while he was busy doing all of his works. She tells him that Namjoon could just call for her if she's needed, as she decided to stay inside her own little but cozy office.

Feeling a little bad for her boss's husband. She guesses that Jin must be needing Namjoon right now---yet Namjoon didn't even answer his calls.

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Namjoon headed back home from work. Too tired to watch on his steps anymore, and he was even close to tripping near the doorway. It was already 11 o'clock, making him to be drowsy any further.

When he entered, he noticed that the entire house is being filled by silence and his eyebrows knits into each other by that.

Usually, Jin would be rushing down the stairs after hearing the front door creaking. Signalling him that Namjoon's already home.

Yet what he usually expects to see almost everyday became a failure when he didn't see his husband sprinting down to kiss him, hug him smile at him and take away all of his stress of the day.

He has a frown drawn over his face when he went upstairs. Standing in front of their room (that's most likely---his room) about to twist the door knob when he heard such small whimpers and sobs inside of it.

He halts on his tracks before pushing the door open, leaving no mercy for it---that even if it broke because of the force he used to open it, he doesn't really cares.

What matters to him right now is what he heard from inside their room.

When he reached the room, and unwanted sight shows in front of him. It was his husband, Jin, sitting on the floor and has his back pressed against the bed. Knees reaching his chests as he hides his head between them.

Still covering his ears even though the rain had stopped from pouring.

Jin cries, sniffles, sobs, whimpers as the memories of when he got lost back when he was younger played inside of his mind----as if he's now watching a movie. A scary and traumatic movie.

He was too lost in his own trance that he didn't even noticed that Namjoon was already standing on the doorway of their room.

Once he felt two strong arms engulfs him into a comforting hug, that's when he got out of his trance and came back to reality. His eyes widen at first when he didn't saw the man's face but his eyes starts to brim with tears again as he realized it was Namjoon.

The one he has been wishing to come back home earlier just an hour ago.

Namjoon has begun to rub his hands gently on the small of Jin's back to help him feel at ease. Why Jin is crying? Did something not nice happened while he wasn't here with him? Does Jin cries because of the fear of seeing a ghost again?

He doesn't know what was Jin's reason to cry.

"Hey! Did something wrong happened?" Namjoon asks as he continued to calm the latter down. Jin responds to his question by nodding against his chest.

"Then what----"

"Joonie. I-I was scared~"

"About what, baby?" He asks and Jin looms up to him, his teary eues meeting Namjoon's brown and concern ones.

"I was s-so terrified by the rain e-earlier. I tried t-to call you m-multiple of times already but you di-didn't even bother to answer any of my calls." Jin sobs out and Namjoon's frown deepens. So it was Jin who had called him an hour ago?

"I tried to comfort m-myself even though i s-still am not feeling any be-better just by h-hugging my knees!" Jin says

"All i need that time is you t-to comfort me, hug me. Yet when i-i was calling f-for you---you didn't e-even let me h-hear you say he-hello to me!" He cries louder, and Namjoon's heart scatters into pieces.

He was too focus on doing his paperworks the time Jin called him, more than ten times. But he doesn't know that it was Jin who was calling and just demanded Ryujin to decline the call and mute his phone for a while.

Now he regretted cutting Ryujin's words when she was about to tell him who was calling him. He really regretted it---up until now.

"Sorry, Jinnie. I really am sorry, i didn't mean to not answer your calls. I'm just too busy that time." Namjoon said, tightening his grip around the younger male's waist as he brings Jin closer to him.

But to his surprise. Jin tries to push him away by his chests and that's when Namjoon's eyes widen as he looks down to the crying male. Jin had stopped from crying though his eyes are still teary and there's still some sobs and whimpers that are leaving his lips.

Jin then stood up from sitting on the floor only for him to stand a few inches away from Namjoon. Putting soke distant between the both of them as he thinks deeper before he speaks again.

"Ohh---so now you are choosing to be in your office and do your work, while i am panicking here? Alone?" Jin yells, Namjoon too, stand up and about to walk towards him when Jin signals him to not walk any closer.

"Jin. Let me explain---it's not like what you think! I---"

"Choosing your work over me also means that you prefers being with that whore of yours all day instead of me! Your husband!!"

"What are you even saying? Whose whore?" He asks and Jin just chuckles. Though Namjoon could hear his voice cracking behind his sarcastic yells and laughs.

"Don't try to hide it from me anymore, Namjoon!" he says in a mere whisper "I know that the girl that was sitting above your desk tonight is your slut."

"Jin---what are you talking about? You mean, Ms. Lee?" Namjoon sternly asks and Jin goes back to being sassy--but still, he's hurt.

"Who else?" He pretends to roll his eyes out of anger, but what's true is he did an eye roll because of he's trying to blink his tears away.

Namjoon attempts to approach him once again and Jin didn't walk backwards this time. He just let Namjoon to walk towards him and engulf him into a hug.

"It's not what you are thinking, hmm?" Namjoon said in such calm voice, but deep within him---he just wants to shout at Jin for being this hysterical.

He tried to calm down so that this little (?) fight of them--again--wouldn't go any bigger than its already is.

But the next word that Jin said makes him want to explode and just shout at him----or even worst than that....

Because the point where he just wants to hurt Jin has already came. And now is the time, he wanted to------hurt him.