Chapter 13

"You don't understand, Namjoon. I-i want to give my f-first kiss to the one that i love... but seems like it is not p-possible now, 'coz you already took it away" his voice cracking at every words he throws.

He chooses to be positive and strong as always but sadness will also make it's way to effect on him. It has it's own way to make his life mesirable. And that is why the very brave, sassy and happy person named Jin is now crying...not minding if Namjoon's infront of him to witness how vulnerable he is right now. He just want to release his emotions this time, nothing more. He needs shoulders to lean on, but it will looks like he's bipolar if he hugs Namjoon after blaming him from stoling his first kiss. So he will have to wait until they gets better again.

"I know and i'm sorry!~" Namjoon replied, placing his warm hands over Jin's cold ones.

Watching Jin as he cry is indeed the least thing Namjoon wants. It's his first time seing Jin cry, 'coz he will always sees the brave, sassy, annoying, funny, and jolly side of Jin, but he doesn't know... such enthusiastic person like Jin can also be hurt and it literally hurts to see him in this situation.

And ofcourse as a human, he knows that Jin can also hurt. But what he's pointing out is that... he never knew Jin would also broke down despite him being an cheerful kind of person.

"But now that i already stole your first kiss away... Can i own your lips now and also you? Don't you love me?" now-- he regretted asking it.

"I still am not sure if i really love you or not! So stop asking!" he suddenly yells, walking out of the lounge and go to their room. Planning to cry on his sleep --even if it's just noon-- because that is the only thing he is capable to do at the rough times like this.

He still can't believe that Namjoon would kiss him eventhough he already said that he can't. He really wanted to save his first kiss for the one that he really loves and loves him back but the thought of him giving it to the one he loves suddenly fade away, with a flick of a finger.

Namjoon sat on the couch, elbows resting on both of his laps. He shouldn't have kissed him when he heard Jin resisting. If he just did not do it then Jin and him should've be having fun until now and would spend their day together. Processing what happened this day, his mind became a more and more mess, thinking of what happened earlier leads Namjoon to hate himself. Why?---- first, he and Jin ate breakfast together, laughing and giggling as Jin throws some corny jokes...second, they planned to go on a amusement park to have some fun...third, they ate their lunch after hearing their stomachs growls in hunger...then, they went on a Karaoke booth and dueted a song, the audiences asked them to kiss and so-- even if Jin doesn't want to, Namjoon still did. And finally, that's the story why the two friends or must i say...husbands were not really in a good condition right now. And Namjoon clearly know that he will be spending his night on the couch, tonight.

Because Jin uses their bedroom tho.

He still can't understand why in a minute they're happy and friends, then in another minute they are back on being rivals as hatred got the best of themselves. And somehow, Namjoon can't help but to ask himself... Are we bipolars?.

Because the hell, that is what they think of themselves being such moodies. As always.

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"Mom, i want to go back there... as soon as posible. I don't want to stay here with Namjoon anymore" he cried.

After he got into their room, he quickly grab his phone from his pocket and dialed his mother's number to tell her that he doesn't want to stay at Paris with Namjoon anymore. Namjoon who stole his first kiss, was now devastated-- but little did he know it was already the second time Namjoon kissed him.

He didn't hesitate to call his Mom immediately, because at times like this the only one he could lean on was his Mom and he's very thankful to have her as his precious mother. Sometimes he can't help but to wonder, how is he going to live his life without her.

"Why my son? Something's wrong?" Jin cries louder than before.

"Mom... Just-- please... i don't wanna stay here anymore." he says, him sniffling makes his mother's heart clutch.

"Isn't Paris your dream destination? You are there now-- so why drop your opportunity to enjoy your stay there? Isn't it good there? Does Namjoon hurting you there? Or what? Tell me what happened"

"Namjoon didn't hurt me, but i want to go back. I badly wanna go back." his mother sighs on the other line.

"Fine! I'll tell Mrs. Kim and Mr. Kim that you're planning to come home. Get your things tidy up this night. We will think if we can get ticket for the both of you" Jin smiled at the sudden outburst.

"Thank you, Eomma. I miss you. Tell Jungkook that i love him, hmm?" he heard a 'yeah' from the other line and ended the call after hearing that word.

He laid on the bed, hugging the pillow as he hid his face against it. He doesn't know what makes his self to think that Namjoon's a bad guy or a maniac despite him being a mighty company holder just by that stolen kiss. And that one kiss-- that one kiss was already enough for him to believe that his conclusions were right.

That Namjoon just befriended with him was because of his body. But there's something that's telling Jin that don't just believe at what' that simple kiss brought to him. Because the hell-- he felt love and passion in that short kiss, and it had sent millions of butterflies fluttering inside his stomach the time it happened.

And--- he is afraid. Afraid that he might completely fall inlove with Namjoon just by that move.

Yeah, let's say that Namjoon abused his lips's virginity. But he can't just push to himself that Namjoon was there-- close to him, being all lovey-dovey to him was just for him to be his. Because he can't and won't let Namjoon claim him.

He was mad at Namjoon for stealing his first (?) kiss,yeah, but he also believes-- that how bad and sinful is that person are... he/she still has the right to love someone and to be forgiven by their sins. Not at all times Namjoon was bad and stubborn with him. He now understands that the reason why Namjoon kissed him was for the audiences request.

Yet he doesn't want to stay at Paris with him anymore. Because he's scared that maybe there might be another sweet moment will happen to them and he can't let that happen. He can't and won't kiss Namjoon anymore. Not again.

He wouldn't let himself develop more deeper feelings for Namjoon anymore. Developing some light feelings for him was just right, but developing some more deeper feelings for him isn't right. He can't love a friend and he won't let himself be broken-hearted again.

But for now-- he will be forgiving Namjoon for now. He would be forgetting that the incident happened lately actually happened in real life. And just think of it as a dream. --a sweet dream-- and not a nightmare anymore.

Because everyone deserves a second chance.

Everyone deserves to be forgiven by anyone.

And he was part of that anyone while Namjoon was part of that everyone. And he is willing to forgive him, for the sake of their friendship. He can't let their friendship to become crumpled just because of that simple-- yet mesmerizing kiss. He might just think of himself as a childish graduating college student if he end their friendship just because of that non-sense matter.

He's all grown up now, 24 years of age, understanding the situation he was in and is ready to forgive his dear friend. No matter how serious his sin was--

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Hello yeorobeun?
How was your Day?

I know i've said that i'll be posting next week, but since i've wrote this chapter---i decided to update it already.

Sorry for this short chapter. I'll make the next chapter longer than this one, promise.

Here's my deleted book..

Title: Sincerely Yours-Taekook FF

I'm planning to rewrite and publish it again, what'cha think?

So--goodbye guys, see you~