"Hey! Are you alive?" Maddie snaps in front of my face. We were in the middle of doing a project at my house for Language Arts and it was taking 60 million years.

"Yeah sorry, I just can't stop thinking about my date with Blake tonight."

"Harm don't you think you are going a little too fast."

"What do you mean?"

She rolls her eyes and gives me 'The Glare Of Doom' "You and Blake. You started this relationship a week ago on a beach then the next morning I found you on top of him. You guys won't stop touching."

"I didn't understand why you and Jase kissed in the hallway or why he grabbed your butt in public... But now that I do, You are judging me for it? I really like Blake so why don't you back off." I say trying to concentrate on my work.

"Okay I just don't want you to get hurt." she says cautiously.

I mean who the hell does she think she is? She used to have one night stands and get drunk off her ass every night. Who is she to tell me that what I am doing is wrong?

"You girls okay in here?" Cecila says with the baby at her side and her hair up in a tight bun.

Ever since she got here she has insisted on giving me the best home ever. So to say it lightly my home has been under renovations for the past week and I have stepped on too many nails to count.

"Yeah. I think I am going to head home Ms. C. Thanks for letting me come over. See you later, Harmony." she says giving me 'The Look Of Doom' one last time before heading out the door.

"Hey are you guys okay?" Cecila asks. She is getting on my last nerve lately. She is renovating and taking care of EVERYTHING. Its hard to transition to control when your used to chaos.

"Yes. We are fine." I say holding back my frustration. I really don't want to hurt her.

"When you say something is fine it usually is not." she says trying to pry me open.

"Really everything is okay." I say trying to treat my emotions.

"You don't have to supress your feelings. I know you had to grieve Tyler alone but now I'm here. Sure things might never be the same but take it from someone who had the love of her life die. Things will get better and time moves on." she says sitting and playing with my fingers.

Truth is I don't know how to feel. I still felt frustrated at Maddie but was I really frustrated? Or was I just lashing out because of greif? I don't know but ever since last week I have not been having flash backs. I mostly think it's because of everything Cecila is helping with but part of me knows its because of Blake.

"Thank you Cecila. You are really like an older sister." I say embracing her. Little Jessica coos and we all wrap around each other. Cecila was about to leave when a question pops into my head.

"What is it like to be loved?" I ask. She looks down at me painfully and I immediately regret asking. But then she smiles.

"Its like you are lying in the sun with the sun kissing your skin and you don't have to worry about being sun burnt. Its warm and glowy and once you catch even a little it makes every waking second a dream. You alter yourself in way. Because when you love someone you are not you and they are not them. You are one and its beautiful." Her eyes get glossy and she clears her throat.

"Thank you Cecila. For everything."

"You got it. Now you have to get ready for your date. Do you want me to help?" She says her eyes shining bright. I remember she used to hang out with her friends and do their make up. She is very talented at it. It was her dream job. But then she got pregnant and her friends stopped hanging around and she started caving in. I became a like little sister to her.

"Yes!!!! I have no idea what to wear! I also hear that you have an excellent hand for makeup." I say excited.

"Okay!! What are you guys doing?"

"Well He is taking me to  the Flower Frenzy Festival downtown. He's never been so I thought hell why not? It is free and they show fireworks at 10 o'clock." I say.

"Alright so an outside look? Something that won't make you sweat your boobs off but definitely make you look like a sexy mama!" She said abruptly.

"Ha! Yeah right I am a frickin' potato. Besides I am not interested in that. I want to take things slow." I say hoping she'll believe my lie. She does not.

"Yeah right. The other day you were kissing so loud I had turn the TV on full volume. Please Harmony you can't get your hands off him." I stand there shocked. How did she know all this?

Rumaging through my closest she pulls out a yellow floral romper I bought 2 years ago.
"This is perfect." she says with her eyes dazzling.

"CeCe this is too small. I don't look good in it. How about a cute T-shirt?"I say shying away from the revealing peice.

"No! Try it on. Look sexy for once!"

"Mmm I don't think so." I say looking at a cute turtle neck.

"You do want him to touch you?" she says with her eyes open wide staring at the turtle neck.

"You don't want to know the things I want him to do." I say wiggling my eyebrows.

"Keep it PG please!" she says covering her eyes.

"You couldn't keep your hands off my brother either!!" I say laughing.

"Oh my gosh your brother was sooo good in bed." she says dreamily.

"EWWWW. I didn't need to know that!!!!" I cry with my tounge out. I honestly don't need to know that my brother is good at sex. Omg ew.

"Please try it on." she says displaying the biggest puppy eyes ever.

"Fine." I say shutting myself in the bathroom. When I get it on I close my eyes so I can get Cecila"s opinon first.

I open the door and I hear a gasp.
"Harmony, You look so hot!" she squeals. I turn around and look in the mirror.

"Holy Smokes."I gape in awe. I don't remember a time when I looked that good. Cecila brought in a leather hat and I looked even more terrific.

"Now to make up!" Cecila squealed as she moved in the biggest make up bag on earth.

The next half hour was a swoosh of makeup brushes and laughter. I was finally all ready when I heard a knock on the door.

I rushed to open it and Blake was standing there in a maroon button-up shirt and khakis. And at the same time we both said "Wow."

He smiled and I pulled him in to a long kiss.

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