I don't even have the strength to get what im feeling out onto the screen anymore. I don't want to fade. I don't want to go back.

UPDATE: 27TH OCTOBER, 2020

It's been a rough year for everyone. I'm pretty sure nobody will EVER look back at 2020 and say, "you know, that was my best year".

I am no exception.

This year I fell in love, tinkered with medications, tried to kill myself, watched myself fall and watched myself grow, strengthened the bonds with some of my closest friends and weakened others, embarrassed myself, but most importantly, I was able to see myself through the eyes of God, even if only for a moment.

CONTINUATION: 24TH NOVEMBER, 2020

The year is not yet over, and that means the hardships of 2020 will continue. But I can take it.

Come on, world. Give me all you've got.

Do. Your. Worst.

If I look to my right, I can see the Lord my God, The Holy Spirit, and Jesus all smiling at me.

If I look to my left, I can see my friends... my family.

My veins are on fire. My determination is driving me.

My eyes are looking ahead.

Something tells me I'll be able to make it.