The rest of the day goes by slowly, with Jin being unable to stop himself from thinking about Namjoon.

When 8:30 rolls around, Namjoon is there on time - smile on his lips, dimple out there for the world to see - and ready to go.

Jin leaves with him, and on the way back to the apartments, they talk a little.

"I've missed you and Hoseok," Namjoon admits, and Jin smiles a little. "I've missed this- walking with you."

"I guess it has been kind of boring walking home alone," Jin somewhat agrees, and Namjoon grins. Jin does too.

It's quiet for a while, before Jin finally says, "We missed you too."

-

They arrive a lot sooner than expected, having talked a lot but not enough, and Namjoon asks Yoongi and Jungkook to keep Hoseok, Jimin and Taehyung there just a bit longer so they can talk more.

They step inside Jin's apartment, and while Namjoon gets a drink, Jin gets changed into a baggy sweater (as it's quite cool in his apartment from the sweet, sweet AC) and shorts. Namjoon grabs some water and makes himself comfortable on the couch as he waits for Jin.

When Jin gets back from changing, he bites his lip. "Do we really have to talk? I'm just not feeling up to it."

"If you don't wanna talk, then I guess I should go," Namjoon says, getting ready to stand, but Jin's eyes go wide as he reaches forward.

"No, wait, stay. I wanna talk, but just not about that. Not right now."

Namjoon relaxes, and Jin comes slightly closer. "If you don't wanna talk about that, then what do you wanna say?"

Jin shrugs, looking down at the floor. "I don't know if I have anything I wanna say. I don't know if I even wanna talk. I just don't want you to go yet."

"Then what do you want to do?" Namjoon asks, and Jin bites his lip again, "Just look at each other?"

"No," Jin breathes softly, dimming the lights before coming closer. His heart is beating wildly in his chest, uncontrollable, like it may burst right out. His throat is dry, and he doesn't know what to say. He can't stop looking at Namjoon, and he can feel Namjoon's eyes on him.

"Then what?"

Jin steps closer again, and Namjoon is still looking up at him. "I wanna just..." Jin begins, touching Namjoon's shoulder, "I wanna try something."

Namjoon just watches Jin without saying anything as Jin places his knees on the couch and sits Namjoon's lap, his mostly bare legs brushing against Namjoon's jean clad ones.

Jin touches Namjoon's shoulders, his neck, his jaw, traces patterns with his thumbs on Namjoon's cheeks. Namjoon reaches a hand up and runs the pad of his thumb over Jin's lips.

It happens so quickly, yet so slowly- they're kissing now, and Jin feels lightheaded. He's slightly surprised about it not being strange for him, considering he's never really kissed a boy before. At least, not on purpose, and not... quite like this.

Namjoon is holding his hips and waist as they kiss, his hands slightly roaming to Jin's thighs. They only break apart for a split second to breathe before they're back to lips on lips.

It continues like this for a while, with Jin struggling to breathe as Namjoon touches him, as Namjoon kisses him, making him feel absolutely dizzy.

Jin's letting out soft little noises against Namjoon's lips, which drives the older of the two crazy. Jin shifts then, and he can feel that Namjoon is hard below him. He feels the heat rushing to his face as he pulls away and just kinda looks down, like he's stunned.

Namjoon laughs lightly, obviously embarrassed. "Sorry, it just kinda... you know," he says sheepishly, and Jin does know, because it happened to him before with Eunji, the night she got pregnant. Of course.

"I can um..." Jin trails off suddenly, his face heating up even more as he struggles to get the words out, looking down, "You know... like... suck it or something... if you want..." Namjoon's eyebrows raise at that, surprised.

"And who was calling who a hoe earlier? I'm just saying-"

Jin rolls his eyes, feeling the heat in his cheeks spread over to his ears. "I called you a thot."

"Same thing. But are you sure you want to? This..." Namjoon gestures between them, "...Just happened. Don't you think it's too soon for us to be doing something... sexual?"

"Well, it's a spur of the moment thing, I guess. I don't mind."

"But are you sure? I mean you barely just forgave me and you just kinda barely got over the whole 'I might be gay, what do I do?' thing-"

"Do you want me to suck it or not?" Jin deadpans, eyebrows knitted. "I don't have to, you know." That comes out a bit sassily, and Namjoon wants to laugh.

Instead, he shrugs. "That's up to you. Just remember that you're new to it. You might've been sucked off before but that doesn't mean you'll be good at sucking someone else off."

Jin sighs, blushing still. "I know this, Hyung. I'm not stupid."

"No, just 'straight'."

Jin slaps Namjoon's arm for that and Namjoon finally laughs. "Well, maybe I just realized that I might not be completely straight after all..."

"You just realized this? Baby, I'm sorry I've gotta break it to you like this, but you might be a little slow."

"Oh, shut up. I'm sure you didn't realize you weren't a hundred percent straight right away. It must've taken time. For me, I realized that maybe I did like you only after that night we fought. Maybe it was before then, on the night you got drunk and we kissed. I couldn't stop thinking about it all."

"Well, at least now you're sure... right?"

"I think so... Anyway... uhm..." Jin gets off of Namjoon's lap then, getting down on his knees in front of him. His heart is still pounding, but he wants to do this.

"Hey, are you sure?" Namjoon asks as Jin reaches for the zipper on his jeans, and Jin looks up at him. "Promise me that this is what you wanna do."

"I promise," Jin says softly, before looking away from Namjoon's eyes. "Besides, it's the least I could do for being such a dick towards you. I've been a dick to a lot of people recently, even just a little. I'm an awful dad, too."

"You weren't a dick to me. You were just hurt because I lied."

Jin looks up suddenly again. "You lied?" He questions, eyes slightly wide. Namjoon nods. "Hyung, what... what are you talking about?"

"I said that it didn't mean anything to me. It did. I meant what I said that night. I meant what I did. I really like you, Jinnie. You're really cute, and the you're only boy I know who will really put me in my place and not let me act like an ass. I like you a lot, so... yeah. And for what it's worth, I think you're an amazing dad to that little boy down the hall. Fuck, I just think you're a great person and I would do anything to keep you the way you are. Why wouldn't I like you?"

Jin's tearing up, and he presses his face into Namjoon's thigh to hide it. He's embarrassed, but really flattered too.

"That means a lot, especially when it's coming from you. I... really do like you too, Namjoon-hyung."

"Do you wanna go out sometime?" Namjoon asks, and Jin only has one problem with that.

"I would, but I just... I don't know a lot about you at all."

"Then I'll tell you." There's that smile again, there's those cute dimples Jin likes seeing so much. "Tell me what you want to know."

"Right now?"

"Whenever you want."

"Hmm..." Jin hums, his head resting on Namjoon's thigh still. "Alright. Let's talk later. Right now there's more important things to do."

Jin blushes again, unzipping Namjoon's jeans. His hands are shaking so badly- he's really anxious. Namjoon helps him out a little, looking down at Jin, who's looking down at the cock in his hands.

He was so okay with this before, so calm and collected, and now he's a nervous wreck.

"I, uh..." Jin bites his lip, eyes flickering up to Namjoon's face, "Would you mind... not watching me...? I'm sorry, but I'm just... really nervous, and... yeah... sorry, Hyung, but you looking at me is making it worse."

"I don't mind," Namjoon smiles, threading his fingers through Jin's brown hair to soothe him.

"Tell me if I'm doing something wrong, please."

"For sure."

Jin closes his eyes, swallowing, before nodding to himself. Namjoon is still running his fingers through Jin's hair, which he finds to be quite comforting.

It feels weird in his mouth, if he's honest. He takes as much of it as he can without gagging, tightening his lips around it. He pulls back, and Namjoon is suddenly gripping the hair on his head. It sort of stings, but it's not like Jin isn't okay with it.

He's using his tongue the best he can as he goes back down. Namjoon is almost gasping, arching his back a little as he tugs on Jin's hair.

Jin's gaining confidence in himself, deciding to suck a little harder. He's pretty sure Namjoon is still watching him, even though he was asked not to. Jin's just glad the lights were actually dimmed beforehand.

His teeth accidently scrape across it, and Namjoon does actually gasp this time. "Ah, baby, that's..." He begins, but cuts himself off with a low moan.

Jin bobs his head quickly, used to the feeling at this point. He takes it deeper, even though he's gagging and swallowing and it's rather uncomfortable for him, but he knows that Namjoon likes it, if his noises are anything to go by.

He chokes and pulls off when Namjoon accidently thrusts his hips upwards, and Namjoon is panicking.

"I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry," he says as tears spill from Jin's eyes. He reaches down and touches Jin's cheek, wiping away the tears. "Sorry. It won't happen again."

"It's okay," Jin murmurs, and Namjoon leans back again.

"You sure?" He asks.

Jin nods after a moment, making eye contact with him as he touches his tongue to the tip once more. His cheeks heat up again when it's back in his mouth, but he doesn't look away.

Namjoon bites down on his lip on a particularly hard suck, breaking the eye contact by closing his eyes, and, without warning, he's suddenly releasing down Jin's throat. Jin splutters again, pulling off, which results in his face being covered in the sticky white mess.

Namjoon is a bit dazed, and he apologizes for not warning Jin when he should have.

"It's okay, Hyung," Jin says, getting up quickly to clean off his face. He comes back a second later with a glass of water and a clean face, sitting down beside the older boy and taking a sip from the glass. "That was... something else."

"It's not over though," Namjoon tells him, zipping his pants back up, and Jin seems confused, looking at Namjoon with widened eyes and a mouthful of water. "Now, don't give me that look. It's your turn, baby."

Jin's blushing again, shaking his head and swallowing. "I- I'm alright. Don't worry about it. You don't have to." He's always been a bit self-conscious of his own body, despite knowing that he's actually quite handsome, or so he's been told anyway.

Namjoon takes the glass from Jin and sets it down on the table, smiling suggestively. "Don't be shy, baby boy," he says with a wink, his flirty, perverted side coming out to play. "Hyung will take care of you, make you feel good, just like you did for me."

Jin's excited, but he doesn't show it. Namjoon turns him and pushes him back against the arm of the couch.

"Namjoon-hyung," he whispers as Namjoon touches his thighs, stirring something up inside of him. His toes curl, and his fingers grab onto Namjoon's shirt.

Namjoon slides off Jin's shorts and presses kisses on his thighs, and Jin feels weak. He's shaking again- it's never been like this for him; he's never had someone take control like this. It's kind of intense.

Jin soon learns that Namjoon has quite a skilled tongue, or maybe it's his whole mouth that skilled. Whichever it is, it has Jin moaning out Namjoon's name as he comes harder than ever before.

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